Okay, I'm the type of person that doesn't really take stock or indulge in "rallies" of any kind. I just like to think positive about the situation and not be apart of a big force trying to stop whatever negativity have caused the fraud in the first place. But this really turned my stomach when I read it.
I literally can't come up with anything to really say right now but I did said this when I rebloged the picture in tumblr.
" Dear person who wrote this: You obviously have no clue how the world "really works". Step out the box that society have put you in and take a good look at how beauty, wisdom, and grace comes in all shape and sizes."
The thing I'm trying to get at is that no one should be looked upon "less desirable" in any way because of their weight or any type of "flaw" that we perceive they have. We all done it (myself included) because we are not perfect, so I don't want to make anyone feel bad out there for that fact, but this is my aspiration for myself and the human race.
"Don't judge from how the skin fits the person, but how the heart fits one's personality"
Stop kicking each others asses because a person's nose is shaped a little different, or someone's hips are a little wider. There is no point in fighting over differences because we always are going to be different from everyone else in some way. Embrace it, love it, and celebrate it.
Stop taking stock in what society shows you as truth, its not. Write your own truth, go out there and see what your jaded beliefs are showing you and strive for a different outlook on life. Don't let one bad experience write the rest of your life. Everyone is different, there are people out there that do care and do have hearts as big as Texas, you just have to find them but most importantly OPEN YOUR HEART TO IT.
Its things like what was said in the "Disney confession" that really pisses me off and is the reason why so many of us are truly divided in this world not just as people but even in ourselves.
If we don't have what we think makes us beautiful, successful, talented or wanted, we brand ourselves as failures and non-contributors to our world. Everyone has something good to say and give to the world. We all are beautiful in our own right because beauty come in all forms, not just physical appearance. If you feel bad about yourself don't be because nothing in this world can truly take away your power and wisdom. You just have to tell yourself that you are beautiful, successful, and desirable in this world and you truly bring joy to others. And if someone has a problem with that or the way you look tell them to FUCK OFF and sort out their own issues.
I'm 5'4' and 150 pounds and I'm damn proud of how I look, what I'm doing, and what I'm striving for and personally, I would LOVE to see a fat, chubby, overweight, curvy, obese, and plump Disney princess. Show the next generation that there is nothing wrong with having dare I say "fat" on you.
And with that said I want to add that there is nothing wrong with taking care of ourselves even if that means losing weight. But saying an overweight Disney princess would make a bad role model is beyond ridiculous.
Love your body no matter how it looks or what anyone has to say about it and for god sakes don't judge a book by its cover.
The fucking end.
In a nut shell the last week in a half have been me healing myself from a screwed up back.
It started when I was trying to fix the pain I was feeling in my back for the last few weeks. Then somehow my whole back is achy and is in pain. Not HUGE pain but enough to make me very concerned. So I went to the free clinic since I have no insurance to see if can see a doctor and NO DICE. They told me go see my normal doctor (lol wut doctor) plus if I was able to see someone I would had to pay 20 dollars just to get that ( I didn't even have the money for it), which wasn't a rule before.
So I was pretty freaking upset, ragey, and straight up PISSED OFF. Walking out of there I could of cried manly tears of rage but Brandon was sweet enough to come with me to the clinic so I sucked all that up haha.
So then I just swept what happened under my emotional rug (to be vented out violently later) and decided to med myself, solution? TIGER BALM.
That shit kicks so much ass its not even funny. When I went to the store and saw it something in me was like "get it even thought you have no clue what it is" and upon Brandon's story about his friend using it for his karate injuries, I decided to give it a go. MAN THIS SHIT IS AWESOME. Each day I use it my back gets better and better! I couldn't even sleep, or sit down because my back would ache. Now a lot of that have been cleared up but I still have some way to go. I'm feeling some pain now but I'm DYING to do something besides be laid up in my room and watch anime (I need more yaoi titles) .
I started a really awesome picture and I can't even finish it because of my back and it SUCKS. My mood have been a damn roller coaster too but I'm more positive now, I have to practice what I preach right haha. I just want to draw and to not be able to but seeing everyone else's (great) work is a good slap in the face. I don't want to feel like I'm not doing anything in my life right now when I've been on the very track to put together my ideal life together. But I can't expect to rush this either because my back is eff'd up. The greatest irony of it all is the fact I'm waiting for my newest card deck the Archangel Raphael cards to come in the mail... Archangel Raphael, the angel of HEALING. >:T ( I'm not laughing universe ) So yeah the "total ass" award goes to the universe, you just lost a sponsor you jerk.
Other then that another great thing that happen is my older brother just moved in for a year. I never mentioned I have a brother because I haven't seen him in like a zillion years but last week he just popped up. I'm really happy about that because he's pretty awesome. He's a chef and used to rave, I thought I was the only one that did that in the family. Its funny because we have a lot in common, things I thought was just a random thing for me, but I guess its in the DNA. XD
So yeah, a lot of what I was doing is being held up by my back, but I'm getting better day by day. Hopefully I will be back on the computer full time sooner then later! :) Think happy thoughts about me guys.
Thanks for reading guys see you later!
Also posted on my DA
Dear artists of the world,
Where do I even start? I come online everyday and more likely then not I have to hear yet another person's trails and tribulations about "being an artist". Its either in trying to find a style, trying to stay true to yourself, wanting more criticism, telling people to piss off because of criticism, trying to be popular, wanting to live off by doing what they love, and/or thousand other things.
When the rubber hits the road us artists can agree that being an artist is FUCKING HARD. God forbid if you're on the internet trying to make your way because so many of us is left behind in the dust while a select few makes their dreams come true. Tough world, eat it or get out. Don't be an artist if you can't take consist shit and bricks to your emotional face. Don't even start if you can't handle being judged by the world by what and how you draw (or other wise) because that's basically what you're doing from that moment on...
That last paragraph you just read. Is a complete lie... Everything, every single word, your mind just got blown (or not).
Being an artist is NOT HARD, YOU CAN make your own way on the internet, YOU CAN become popular. YOU CAN MAKE A LIVING BY DOING WHAT YOU LOVE. It is all possible and very achievable for anyone that wants it, but there is one thing standing in your way. Yourself and what you THINK you can and can not do aka your beliefs!
What you think and believe directs your outcome of your life as an artist and life itself.
Think about that second paragraph again. Did you agree with one or more statements, did it completely resonate with you because that's the same thing you have been going though? Well, we are about to punch every single one of those statements in the face twice, but you have to promise to have A LOT of patience with yourself because this is just the beginning. The beginning to finding your own magical world where your true artistic abilities are held and everything else that you ever wanted.
First and foremost stop what your doing, for god's sake get off the internet and bust out some lined paper and a pencil to reinvent yourself! Write down every single thing that you want as an artist and just as a person.
This is not the time to be "humble", you can be humble when your dead, if you want popularity then write it down! If you want to make a lot of money by drawing (or any craft) write it in all caps, engrave it in your mind! Write down every single thing that you want to have right now.
How do you feel about all your aspirations and dreams? Does it feel good just to write them or are you nervous because you made the greatest of sins for wanting so much? Either way, listen to your feelings because they are telling you something. Something important about yourself and how you approach the world.
Write those feelings down or just express them. Good, bad, sadness, or depression it doesn't matter just write them down. Don't just write the emotions down, write the "reason" behind the feelings. Does those feelings come from other people's opinions? Did those feelings resulted in what you were told, or what you assumed in the world? Write the whole story down, make it real again and feel those emotions again.
All those icky feelings, opinions, and beliefs you have about yourself, as an artist or just as a person is the very reason why you can't get what you want. You literally built a stone box (aka your feelings and beliefs) around you blocking you from the sunshine that you seek. You chiseled and chiseled at a small part of that wall to invite a small ray of light. Then you go to another part of the wall and try again. Sometimes it works sometimes it doesn't. But out of the "whole world" that is out there the most you get are the small rays of yellow light. Don't down your rays of light, be proud of them that you can chisel through a godly tough stone wall to get them.
But you're craving more light, more sun, and more of "what is out there" in your unique world of talent. Don't down that part either, if you want more then you are a natural non-corrupted human being. Don't let others (people around you, the media, yourself) tell you that "wanting more" is wrong. Wanting more is grabbing what you have and adding more to it, making it bigger and better then what it was before. So if you want more, say it loud and proud!
Okay, so we out lined what we do want and how we felt about it. We focused on the negative feelings and how its trapping us in this "stone box". Now its time to turn that stone box into a "glass box"! Where you can see your full potential, live in front of you. You can see your dreams literally taking shape and playing back to you like you're in a wicked movie theater. The best part of the glass box is that you don't have to chisel at it for god knows how long just to get a taste of it, you can simply tap the glass and watch the barrier fall.
Before we start, all those harsh feelings from before? Let the emotions go, write/draw/paint your negativity on a piece of paper then throw it in the trash. Tell yourself "I am no longer holding these emotions against myself, thank you for telling me what I needed to work on in myself, you are free to go!". Say it as many times as you want till you're ready to throw some positivity in your new artist self!
Take out another piece of paper and write down your dreams (shorten version if you want) and why it is possible to achieve those dreams! This might be hard for some since we were so focused on the "reality" of things but this is where you rewrite "your" reality.
Where you change your beliefs about what can and can't happen in your life. When you are writing your reasons why, make those reasons real, feel that positive energy about yourself. That is key because if you can feel it, then its real to you in some form. The realer you make it, the more achievable it is!
Make yourself feel good about your dreams and how you can easily get to them. Get that huge ego and embrace it because its telling you, you can do ANYTHING and you don't even have to work hard. When you are positive about something, you are making it real and accessible to come into your life. Things come "out the blue" when your positive, things just go smoothly, and ideas just work out when you're upbeat in mood. Where when you are negative about something the opposite happens.
That's because your beliefs and feelings are dictating what you can and can't do. "I can" means unlimited where "I can't" means limited. When you say either you are stating whether you're enabling or disenabling yourself from what you can or can not want, do, or believe.
Its all a state of mind if you can or can't do it. Open yourself to all what life and what your dreams have put together for you and ride that epic wave. Don't let others take that away from you either because "all this", the old and new found artist self was done by you. No one can change your beliefs unless you let yourself believe them.
No one can take your dreams away and no one can block you from your goals but you! Be persistent, courageous, daring, loving, and head strong with what you want as an artist. Whoever doesn't like what you're doing, tell them to simply "piss of" and don't feel sorry to stand for what you believe in.
This is "your life" take control of it and your creative destiny, never let anyone take that power away because its rightfully yours.
Peace, love, and paint brushes ~
