Before I get to the meme I just really wanted to thank EVERYONE for joining and faving my Otaku battle royal contest. I’m so happy that it’s going as well as it is and I appreciate everything people have done so far. I love the entries I’m getting and want to comment on them all really soon! I just have to warp my head around my current situation and get my feet on the ground. Once again THANK YOU ALL I LOVE YOU.
MEME TIME
RULES
-You must fill out EVERY question! No skipping!
-Tag five people after wards.
-Leave a message on their page telling them they're tagged.
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ARE YOU?
1. Perfect?: Of course why wouldn’t I? ;D
2. Tall?: I’m cute and tiny 5’4’
3. In your pajamas?: Nah dude I’m in my fur suit because I’m a furry remember? (high school shirt and pajama pants)
4. Left handed?: No, but my sister is. :3
LAST:
1. Friend you saw: Brandon
2. Talked to on the phone: My mom’s friend
3. Person to text you: Obama, we where talking about the show “The Hills” last night.
4. Was today better than yesterday?: This whole week has been one big fuck up so yeah I don’t know.
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FAVORITES:
1. Number: 7, 9, 1,
2. Color(s): PINK, black, white, ANY NEON COLOR, PATTERN AND PLAID.
3. Fruit: Chinese apples, mangoes, red Mario mushrooms… some other stuff. D
4. Place: Yaoi land. I went there last night in a dream. There were hot guys making out and everything was pink toned. I shall claim it as my kingdom. 030
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EIGHT EMOTIONS:
1. Are you missing someone right now? I WAS TILL I FOUND OUT THE JERK WAS OKAY. NOW I’M COOPING BY DOING MINDLESS SHIZ.
2. Are you happy? On the outside. (I’m so stinking emo right now)
3. Are you sad? Like hell is hot baby. (weeps)
4. Are you bored? MORE UNSURE OF WHAT TO DO WITH MYSELF NOW.
6. Are you nervous? A bit, if jerk off calls I’m not sure how I’m going to take it.
8. Are you tired? Since high school. I think it was the amount of BS I have to deal with everyday.
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CURRENTLY:
1. Eating? No, in fact I’m starving but I don’t feel like getting up.
2. Drinking? Depression with a side of anger.
3. I'm about to: probably find more memes/go eat and make coffee.
4. Listening to? The computer’s fan dying.
5. Plans for today? PLAY FF13, NOT THINK ABOUT DEPRESSION SHIZ, DRAW SOMETHING CUTE/SOMETHING THAT EXPRESSES MY HURT INSIDE.
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HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Drank bubbles? Uh, if you mean soap bubbles then yeah when I was little. I would eat them and love it…. DON’T JUDGE ME
2. Lost glasses/contacts? Yeah, the first few years of having them (since birth pretty much) >:C
3. Ran away from home? Does in the mind count? *3*
4. Broken someone's heart? Yeah and I felt like shit about it but I just didn’t like him like that. BUT HE IS ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS EVER.
5. Been arrested? Hellllll no.
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DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
1. Miracles? Yeah, I fart them out you know.
2. Yourself? ALL TIMES OF THE DAY. Sometimes…
3. Heaven? ONLY if they have yaoi.
4. Santa Claus? Yeah, that’s my uncle. :3
4. Love? The only one I had since 1989.
5. Do you like someone? Uhhhh, I like my guinea pig? D: I’m so confused!
6. Do you believe in God? That he/she/it is an ass, yes…
7. Answered the truth on all questions? Mayyyybe. ^3^
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Q: What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?
A: Curse the day I was born and the god that sent me here. >:C
Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
A: TONS, repaying loans, breaking up process, being active on the net, etc, etc, I want to cry now can I stop? ;3;
Q: What's the last movie you saw?
A: “THE FOG” OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT. It was an awful horror movie. I WANT CABLE.
Q: Where is the last place you went?
A: Insane, they got good visuals.
Q: Do you smile a lot?
A: YES! 8D
Q: Do you wish upon stars?
A: Nah dude, the cool kids wish upon bums on the street.
Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: Yes, very much but I’m crazy shy. X3
Q: Where did you sleep last night?
A: On top of snoopy’s dog house. Very uncomfortable by the way. :|
Q: When was the last time you cried?
A: Monday morning on the bleachers of some school. OH LIFE YOU’RE SO CRUEL. CB
Q: What was your last thought before going to sleep last night?
A: HOW MUCH I WANTED TO CHOKE CHILDEN.
Q: Rate life as of right now one being bad ten being great?
A: How it’s going right in this moment… A f’ed up 6… It will rise as my mood picks up.
Q: What do you hear right now?
A: The Jerry Springer sound off.
Q: Does anything hurt right now?
A: My heart and shoulders,
Q: What's your favorite month?
A: “May” because that’s the month I was born, and its great weather in that month! :D
Q: What did you do last night?
A: Stayed up all night and chatted with friends on the internet.
The friends I tag are:
Anyone who laughed ONCE while reading this. >:| GO DO IT NOW!
Yeah, I'm still in the "getting over it" process of my situation. My sister just went through some BS with her BF too so we talked about it all morning. It really helped. I feel a lot better and I don't feel as blue. :3 I also want to thank everyone who commented on my last post. It was because of that I gather the balls to come to his house and that lead to things I needed to know. I don't know about the dating scene but I know I will be forever open to friendships because I know there are still good people in the world. :3
So thanks 8D
Am I missing something? Like seriously…
I’ve been trying to get in contact with my boyfriend for like 3 weeks. His phone is off, he won’t answer his e-mails, and he won’t call. WTF
Some one please tell me if you think I’m overeating because I’m SUPER FUCKING PISSED RIGHT NOW. He has a lap top and a house phone and he won’t talk to me or even attempt it. I’m not trying to bother him I just want to know if he’s okay OR EVEN ALIVE (I’m a paranoid person). I’ve been calling and calling and calling (phone off) sent two e-mails and nothing. I was concerned but now. I’M SIMPLY PISSED OFF. I told him about this shit before. He was suppose to come over my house and never did. I called and called for like two days after that night (phone off) then finally sent an email telling him that I was worried (and pissed off) so he finally calls then. He said he was stressed out and all this other shit, and I’m like “okay that’s cool but at least tell me you won’t be coming” or if something happens just tell me so I’m not sitting here worried like shit all day and all night.
AND HERE’S THE FUNNY, he says “okay, I understand blah blah blah”. Now look where I’m at now. I fucking sitting here worried and don’t know what’s going on. I just want to know if he’s okay. It’s that asking for too much? If he was my friend I wouldn’t care as much since they do that sometimes but he’s my boyfriend and we usually keep up with each other. Now I’m waiting for him to show up on G-chat. I dare him to fucking show up and tell me some bull shit. How he’s fucking sorry and all that jazz.
WELL, I’M SORRY FOR GIVING A SHIT ABOUT YOU DUDE. Have some fucking common courtesy and drop a simple e-mail or call. I’m not begging for your attention here, I just want to know your okay. If I pulled this kinda shit on him he would’t like it. He’s really sensitive and would take it to heart.
And what really gets me that he said he wouldn’t do this again. I assume if he’s still alive because I don’t fucking know he’ll pop up and say sorry this and sorry that.
I don’t care what stress you’re under, that’s fine, but to have me like this running around not knowing what to do because you won’t call, is fucking bull shit. I’M FUCKING WORRIED. DON’T FUCKING PULL MY EMOTIONS AROUND.
It takes two seconds to defuse my emotions and move on. I’m just that kind of person. I fly solo and not afraid to do that shit again. So sorry doesn’t cut it this time. I better hear that a family member died or something because the sympathy train had left to I don’t give a fuckville.
THIS IS WAY I WAS BORN/IS/AND PROBABLY WILL ALWAYS BE A LONER.
PEOPLE GOT TO MUCH SHIT TO THEM AND I SOME HOW CATCH THE BACK END OF THAT SHIT IN SOME FORM.
That’s why I’m not in the commenting mood or feel like drawing or being social for the pass few days. I’m worried and pissed off because my boyfriend totally dropped the ball on me. OR SOMETHING I DON’T KNOW. :C
Sorry for this horrible rant, cussing, awful gammer and me acting like an overly sensitive child. It’s just when I care about somebody, I really fucking care about them. :/ And somehow I can’t even know if they are alright…
I should revert back to not getting to close to people so when the shit hits the fan I won’t notice the smell. I just needed to vent right now, these emotions have been swimming inside me for a while.
(Goes back to play FF13) and I promise I’ll get the raffle results drawn and uploaded. I just need to some time to calm down.
*Edit*
Oh the LAWLS
I went to his house and knocked on the door *twice* and nothing. I left a note saying “Please call it’s very important *house number*”. I JUST came home and answered the phone. It was the mom’s boyfriend. I told him that I was looking for him and was trying to get in contact with him for weeks and I’m his girlfriend. He handed it over to mom and I told her the same thing. She seemed really surprised. I ask her if anything happened. And guess what.
NOTHING, HE’S FUCKING FINE. The mom said she will call him and give him my number.
SoOoOoOoOOO, yeah I’m single. For him to just stop all means of contact for no reason is bull shit. The ball is in his court and if he does call me, I’m going to tell him how it is. I don’t know what he’s going through but when the crap is over he will want to talk to me and work things out. But guess what, I’m not that easy to work over by far…
I AM A GOOD HUMAN BEING/DAUGHTER/SISTER/FRIEND/GIRL FRIEND AND I DON’T DESERVE THIS.
And like a retard in a spelling bee, I’m out…
What a day…
I’m totally having those blah days. Those days were you don’t even give a hoot. Those days where everything seems god awfully dull and uninspiring. I figure it would be a half ass good day since I got a good rest. Well, sort of. I had a crazy urge to draw at midnight so I did just that. I got my sketch book and start drawing. It was pretty fun. I think I forgot to draw and doodle just for the heck of it. And not just to push myself ridiculously far to improve or draw a crazy hard pose.
That night I started to draw myself in the Otaku Battle contest but I stopped when I got done the body and face. I was so afraid to screw it up I figure I can scan what I have and finish it in Photoshop. I’m really proud of myself taking some action on some of my deeper drawing issues. If I have an urge to draw. I’ll just get my sketch book and draw. Whatever it is what good or bad. Then I can practice a pose and not have to worry about messing up the picture or something. It feels good to have real artistic freedom. :3
Anyway, since I was feeling so blah and tired I wanted to stay home but I decided to go to the art store anyway. I wanted some sun and fresh air. I wanted to get some ATC cards. The art store had them but the only brand they had was “fan boy’s” which was disappointing because it only came with 20 cards. I mean if I’m going to pay 4 dollars (rounded off) can I least get more then 20? Meh, at least they came with protectors…While I was there I got some copic multi-liners and eraser caps.
Before I went to the art store I was going to get some manga but I changed my mind… The manga section kinda sucks nowadays beside the yaoi… :/ There wasn’t any that I really wanted. I miss the older mangas. :<
I think that’s it for now. It’s good to pour out my emotions, even the blah ones. :3
I’m having another art raffle starting now! If you entered before you can enter again, I don’t mind. I like drawing different characters. Just don’t put your link to your character either, give a half hearted comment, f I don’t know you. I don’t mind making new friends so don’t be afraid to comment! :3 I’ll make sure to return the favor!
See ya!
Morning yall.. (yawn)
Damn, I’m so tired… You know what I love?
When you’re out all day but yet to get a full nights sleep that night. I need to teach my brain to shut up at night. Oh, and I had a visitor last night. IT WAS ON THE WALL NEXT TO MY BED. I hate thousand leggers to death. They creep me out and just freaky looking. I had to get a random long object with a flat surface on the end to kill it long distance, since I’m such a punk. GAH
Anyways…
Holy potato salad my Otaku Battle Royal contest had a bigger turn out then I could image! I only invited about 20-25 people and the last time I looked who faved it was 61, and there is already 3 entries. D: I’m like so floored right now. Thank you for everyone that joined/fav/ or yet to join it really means a lot! I can’t wait to see more entries too but its going to be a sob to judge. I think that’s the part I hate because someone has to win and someone can’t (I don’t want to say “lose”). Maybe, I’ll make a huge thank you picture at the end. I want everyone to feel like winners. Since I made the contest for anyone to join and have fun. Also to get to know more artist around here. Its hard trying to be active and commenting on everyone’s pictures,. Worlds, etc, so why not gather them all in one place! :D
With the contest underway there are other things I want to start doing. I’m thinking of making some simple polymer clay tutorials. Open another world for really good artist resources and tutorials since I love finding tutorials while helping others out. I want to start making scrap book pages of my art and probably paper children. I think it will be pretty fun to try out and I get to expand my horizons. I also want to start doing art raffles (unknown rumors idea). It will be nice practice with other people’s characters. Lastly the ACEO’s (artist trading cards/unknown’s discovery too) because I think snail mail can be fun when ya get stuff!
I went on a craft run yesterday which was pleasant since I’m a freak’n shut in. It was really nice weather so getting there (hour and a half bus ride) was fun. I didn’t get a lot of “fun stuff” to test out like I usually do. This time I got supplies and tools mostly. I did get some water based window paint that I can test with my decoden with ( you can use it for deco sause). I got a mini glue gun so I can finally make some bows I can use for my accessories. I got some ribbon that I haven’t touched since I got them (year ago?) So I should have a lot to work with now.
That’s pretty much it for now….
FFFFF ART RAFFLE STARTS NOW DUMP YOUR LINKS IN THE COMMENTS MOFO’S, WE’LL SEE WHO WINS WHEN I COME BACK HOME AND TAKE A NICE NAP.
Happy Saturday! Easter! Being alive!
Firstly check out my latest drawings if you missed them! The cup cake lady, Mew Berry, console boys! Show them some love. :3 Now back to our regular journal post.
Well, I figured I update again about my business/crafting progress! Last night I tried sanding and buffing my latest clay creations. I heard it makes anything you make look 10 times better with out glazing it. So I decided to try it and it worked out pretty good.
You know those hats with cat ears on them? Well, I made three of them. One a bunny, cat, and an otaku hat. Here’s a before and after picture.
Now that two of them (cat/otaku hat) has been sanded and buffed, I loved them even more. They have such a nice soft shine too. It took like 20 minutes each to buff them on my pants leg and a random rag in the kitchen.
I also decided to try to take better pictures of my crafts. I notice in the share kitchen in my house is great for taking pictures of my crafts! The room gets filled with natural sunlight and really brings out the detail of my pieces. Usually I have to brighten the pictures in Photoshop so it won’t look so dark but now, I don’t think it will be as necessary.
Everyone knows how important it is to get your name out in the internet crafting world right? So that’s why I signed up to numerous sites and blogs! Of course I haven’t even posted my first entry posts in those blogs but I’m getting there. I want to think up some nice topics first. Here is the list of places that I just signed in.
Live Journal
Blogger <- been had that blog but I’m planning to change it.
Twitter
Form spring me
Hmm, I just realized how many sites I’m in overall (beside what’s listed). I didn’t think I would have so many ever in my life haha! I still have to fill out the basic information for the ones I just signed into. XD
Did everyone have a good April fool’s day? I didn’t, I was so grouchy that none of the jokes and stuff meant anything too me haha. It was funny but my funny bone was broken that day. (That’s what happens when I get no sleep at night) XC
Lastly, I just made a challenge, The Otaku Battle royal! I invited like tons of people, so don't be surprised if you got an invite. Go check it out if you can.
That’s it for now. Thanks for coming and reading! See you soon.
