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Dreams...
Dreams is that wonderful feeling when you know you're doing something right.
It's when the harshness of reality begins to quiet and your heart sings.
It's that look when you see yourself in the mirror and smile, knowing who you really are.
Dreams is the one thing that drives me, soothes me and keeps me alive.
It's the world I live in, the world of dreams... This wonderful, wonderful world.
This fulfilling world...
This world that is in my heart and thankful soul.

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Long time no type! I wanted to make a post earlier but I got lazy. But first off…

WHATS WRONG WITH THIS PAGE? I won’t go out and say anything because I’m sure you’ll know what I’m talking about.

When I first saw it I was kinda floored because I figured it would be the last picture I would see copied, but the younger folks tend to copy popular artist on this site too. When I read the artist comment though I had to laugh a bit to myself. The character is “new” but the picture was “referenced” when it clearly looks as if you changed around some parts of Cherry’s picture/my design to make it look like your character. Come on now… She isn’t extremely young so she should know better if she’s ripping a person’s picture/design. I did say something in a clear cut non-watered down way. More a less a simple tip for all newbies posting art on the internet. I can’t say I’m “angry” about the situation just really annoyed.

Since my epic rant I’ve been working hard on “The Candy Sanctuary”. I’ve decided to crack down on everything I need to know about selling on Esty and “selling online” in general. From my target market, product, services, to best ways to promote, market, and gain exposure on the internet. It’s pretty fun even though it’s a lot to soak in. I’m now in the phrase where I’m making test charms and accessories so I know if they hold up and are durable. Also getting information on how long it takes me and how much material it takes to make an item. I am a bit nervous because I am going make charms that are my first time making. Then I have a ring bases and hair clip bases that I will stick them on and test out myself. *A*

All in all I’m glad that I’m taking full control of this and really learning the ropes so when I do finally open a shop on esty I will know how it all works. I just got to be more organized like a LOT, which means a total overhaul of my room. The way it is now is one of the reasons I’m nervous of making my charms, I don’t have much room to work with then everything is very crowded and it’s hard to think.

That reminds me that I never got my gift bags (fumes). They should have been here by now and probably got lost in the mail getting here *kicks mail system*. I was REALLY looking forward to those damn bags because they were so cute and was perfect for my store. I have to contact the seller but when I went to her esty there was nothing in her shop at all (fumes more) I can still contact her but I hope she gets the message I don’t want my 7 dollars wasted damn it.

Other then that I’ve been playing pokemon soul silver a lot lately. I had to go online to find out what to do. I was stuck running around trying to make/find things to no avail. I found out that I missed a gym and had to get the fog badge *fail*. After that things start picking up and I was enjoying myself again. I have to make little crack comics for it though. The things I go through in that game sometimes I swear. My team it pretty awesome too now since I had to kick out some pokemon on my team and bring in others. I can’t name the pokemon since I can’t spell their names worth poop but believe me… IT’S AWESOME. I should do some fan art of my team one day. >:D

Okay this is long enough, thanks for visiting!

Dear The Otaku

I DON”T want to see, watch, talk about, or BUY the effectively dramatic, sometimes beautiful and occasionally even EMOTIONAL anime called RomeoXJuliet. I DON”T want random anime box sets volume ...

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Update

Before I start I just want to thank everyone for their support of my latest picture “crack chorus” sorry I haven’t been able to reply to comments, it was too...

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I just really need to vent

Happy 4th everyone! I hope everyone had a really good holiday. Mines were okay, my mood have been bouncing up and down for the last few days now. Last week I was feeling really optimistic with a lot of small annoyances. But now I’m i...

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My good deed for the day

I just came back from going out and find some much needed inspiration for life in general today. The last day or so I felt completely alien to everything around me. As if I just moved in a new family, house, and this planet as a whole. I just felt so weird and withdrawn from the world as if I didn’t fit in and just didn’t belong. I didn’t want to talk to anyone or socialize on the internet at all. I just wanted to go upstairs and be by myself for the rest of forever. I hate feeling that way too because I want to be happy and grateful for life and etc etc (fluff crap I know) but lately I just wasn’t “feeling it”. Today I had a very good time out. Probably not as good as other days but it was still good. I feel wonderful now and I can continue on and not feel like s*it.

So while I was heading to drunken donuts and crossing the street, a lady called me over. The first two times I ignored her just incase she was those less then sane homeless people but when I decided to go to her and she didn’t seem that way at all. At first I thought she was going to ask me directions since she had a map and was telling me about some places she came from. Then she was saying how her grandma had a stroke and she was coming from the hospital her grandma was in.

Needless to say I was trying to feel her out because people pull a lot of crap to get a dime out of you. She continued to say that she needed 7 dollars to get to a New Jersey bus to get home since the fares and fees ate up her money at the hospital. Her cell phone was dead and she was at the verge of tears. I really felt for her and she seemed legit with her story. She kindly asked if I could give her anything so she can get home. I’m going to be honest and say that I did felt some pressure to give her some money since I didn’t want to seem like a jerk or anything. Then I don’t want her to be telling the truth and I just walked away. At the same time I was more then willing to give her my last 5 bucks I had on me (I had a 20 as well but that was my moms). Not because I just wanted to get out of the situation but I did wanted her to get home. Christ, I couldn’t imagine how bad she must of felt. God forbid if I was in such a situation, I would feel like total shit too. She even told me that I looked a sober jersey girl (I’m from Philadelphia, PA and New Jersey is not far from us) and she didn’t want anyone to embarrass her about this. She also didn’t like the fact she was asking for money from strangers.

At the end it was only natural to give her the five dollar bill that was I had in my pocket and even if she was a REALLY good scammer. I am HELPING some one in need and I always keep that in mind when I’m giving a stranger money. She was so grateful that I gave her the money too; it really does make me feel good even now. She said she will ask someone else for the rest of the fare she needed. Then she asked me if she could have a hug, which I was more then happy to give her. :) She wished me a good day and to have her grandma in my prayers. I did the same to her. I really REALLY hope she makes it home safe and she didn’t take me for a ride. I really felt awkward and concerned that I gave up my money to a scammer but I feel really good about it now. I even decided to treat myself with a coolatta at D&D (was going for a small coffee) with my moms 20 dollar bill on the way home haha!

I think that deed alone really made me feel better about everything in life and it isn’t just one big anus trip. Good things does happen when you least expect it (you might be that good thing) so you minds enjoy yourself while you wait for it. :)