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Dreams...
Dreams is that wonderful feeling when you know you're doing something right.
It's when the harshness of reality begins to quiet and your heart sings.
It's that look when you see yourself in the mirror and smile, knowing who you really are.
Dreams is the one thing that drives me, soothes me and keeps me alive.
It's the world I live in, the world of dreams... This wonderful, wonderful world.
This fulfilling world...
This world that is in my heart and thankful soul.

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New years and new live stream channel

Hey all!

The new year is coming and I'm excited for it! I have so many plans and wonderful things that I'm going to do it doesn't make sense. This morning I even listed about 40-50 new blog topics (for the candy sanctuary blog) and I see so many opportunities for myself. I have been working on the candy sanctuary seriously lately and things have been coming together. The blog I have now will have a new design soon and I see a new great path to take with it.

Since I gotten my new computer things have become easier to do and really gave me that confidence boost. I'm keeping up with so many things and able to get so much done I know that this coming year will be the best yet. I'm currently teaching myself html and learning how to make web sites. Eventfully I want to make my own web shop for the candy sanctuary, but for now the blog will be its main home.

This year have been great overall and I learned so much. Its one of the reasons why 2011 will be such a fruitful year for me and my family. So many life changing things that I will never take back. The most beneficial ones was changing my attitude about my art, quitting my job, as well as being more honest with myself and you all. It really made a life time's worth of difference and I think all of you for that. Not to mention the lovely support I get for everything I do, nothing can ever replace that ever, so thanks for that too!

Lastly got a live stream account! I got it a few days ago since I'm able to so them on my new computer. I tested and even let my friend Brandon watch me as I drew so I know it works. You can even hear my voice! Here's the first ever tester, its super funny and you will get a good laugh.
Thanks for viewing and I will see all of you in the new year!

*Feel free to skip this*

I wanted to check what things I actually did for this years resolutions (because I forgot about them). Lets take a look!

Art resolutions

( had strike through the ones I done but they didn't carry over sorry)

• Work in flash and learn animation (never really happened because of old computer)
• Work in illustrator (I started a really wonder picture that I have yet to post)
• Work in 3ds max
• Develop a more cleaner, fresher, and professional style (I stopped caring at this point I jut want to be satisfied with my art and I am overall)
• Work in after affects- (never really happened because of old computer)
• Work in dream weaver (never really happened because of old computer)
• Start shading with pencils again (started again and loving it!)
• Start working with REAL backgrounds and sceneries
• Learn copic markers and keep up with my colored pencils (I worked with them more then ever and fall back in love with it)
• Learn different mediums and style and keep trying new things (I did in many of my pictures and crafts!)
• Practice on manga paneling and such ( I did with the shugo chara fan comic)
• Practice with my clay deco-den ( I did with plenty works ahead)
• Start sewing and even make a hat for myself ( never happened at all XD)
Career resolutions (the candy sanctuary is my career I never want to work for anyone again)
• Make a professional portfolio that I can show employers
• Make a web portfolio
• Make a blog for my professional works
• Put myself out there and self market myself

Business resolutions (never really happened but it was for the best)
• Actually start selling my clay creations and art
• Start commissions
• Sell at least $200 worth of stuff this year
• Market my shop
Social resolutions
• Make new friends on and off the net (I made new online friends and subbers)
• Draw gift art for all my friends ( I drew birthday pictures for some of them!)
• Sign peoples guest books more and comment on peoples works that I don’t know (some what but I could of done better)
• Keep up with my friends more. Start PMing people and just showing people that I’m there for them (like before I could of done better)
• Be more active on all the sites that I’m on. ( for the most part I did it)
• Get an account on “twiter me” or whatever its called XD (got one but lose interest)
• Chat with my friends online (does anyone know any good ones?) Live stream is great for that!

I think I did really well especially since I didn't have this list in mind. As far as my goals for this year I'll keep it simple and have none. It doesn't matter what you do or don't, everything it going to teach you something. Thus becoming wiser with everything day that passes!

x-mas wrap up

I had a really great x-mas! Yesterday morning I installed all (or most) of the programs that I needed for my new baby. Including latale an online MMORPG, long ago I took it off my computer because it was insanely laggy and just unplayable. But now I have to disable my anti viruses just to play it because it HATES direct-X.

Oh, I took pictures of everything I got! OMG you wouldn't believe how delighted I was to see how fast and flawless the computer speed is. IT TOOK NO TIME down size the 4-5 pictures and upload them in my photobucket!

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My beautiful Gate, so sleek and pretty!

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A webby cam, I wonder what I'm going to use that for HAR HAR HAR. <:U

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I haven't opened it yet, I'll open it when I take it upstairs in my room.

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Some awesome hello kitty slippers that my sister got me! They are really warm!

The only major thing I have to do with this computer is to add my home edition of windows 7 because YOU CAN'T CHANGE THE WALLPAPER. You can only download the ones that's on the windows website. The packs are really nice though. I currently have the Japan one, but I want a yaoi one... AFTER I haul this bad boy upstairs in my room. XD

Speaking of which, I now have the pleasure to clean out my room and finally give it a major face lift. My room has been the same for so many years and for a long time I hated it. But now I can finally take everything out and start anew. I'll be so happy once its done and I can chill upstairs on my computer. = v =

My family also came over and a their friend/boyfriend. It was nice seeing them too since my GGM funeral. Everyone was having a good time. I even showed my older cousins friend my charm jewelry and stuff. She totally loved it and told me I need to sell it. I'm planning to do that in the coming year since I finally got my own bank account. I have a really good plan for it and I'm pretty excited, but I'll keep all the details to myself till its done and completed.

The only thing that sucked was when my family came over they turned on the stupid radio system on. They had it on for most of the day till after mid-night. I even went to bed early because of it (it was super loud). Other then that things were fine.

Hope everyone got what they wanted too! See you later!

MERRY CHRISTMASSSSS!

I hope everyone is having a great Holiday!

And yeah, my computer parts came yesterday and I installed them in my NEW SHINEY COMPTUER WHICH I'M ON NOW. And her name is "Gate" because she is a gateway comptuer. I also got so fancy adobe cs5 programs, the ones that I wanted or couldn't really use because my old comptuer was a piece of crap. *squeeee*

Now I'm just installing all the programs and such in my new computer so when I finally clean my room up I can have my new baby with me 24/7. (I'll never leave the room now)

I'll go comment and reply to stuff then I'm back on fixing up my baby!

Bye!

Lots of good news! TEGAKI UPDATE

(edit) OMFG MY TABLET DOESN'T DO THAT SUPER JERKY THING WHEN I FIRST LAY DOWN MY LINE ON TEGAKI.

FUCK YEAH, TEGAKI MEW MEWS

IT

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OOONNNNNNNNN. (end edit) >:D

Hey all I got some really exciting news to share!

First off I just got done my calendar picture! I sent the png file to the Hanel, the person behind the calendar project. I’m really proud of myself for even joining the project alone, but the picture is simply wonderful. I’ll upload a small portion of it soon. It’s not like my usual pictures; this one is more scenery and my first one I’ve made. I really love it and can’t wait to see the project come to head when the calenders will be on sale sometime soon.

Second good new is that I got my computer! But it’s still in the box. I have to get a video card and power supply for it from newegg.com. When I was talking to the sells clerk he told me that I could just buy this computer and put in a better video card so I can use photoshop and etc without the computer lagging and such. Then I talked to my very computer savvy friend and he said I will need a better power supply so the video card won’t fry my computer. So for over a day I studied up, learned, and applied myself for know what kind of video card I needed, what was going to work best for my needs and how to install it. Really, the whole process was VERY RAGED FILLED, even getting the computer itself but it will be worth it once I have the computer I wanted for years. I’m also going to continue learning about computers because next time I’m building my own. For the money spent on my new computer I could have build a much more powerful one. But everything happens for a reason so I’m taking everything with stride. Now the only thing that needs to be done is for my friend to give me the green light for the video card I picked. Then I can order it and throw it in my computer. :D Boy, I just can’t wait. There are so many programs I want to use and so many things I want to do. 2011 will be quite the year for my art! I also got a web cam ;D I’m really going to have fun with that!

The third good news is that the kitchen, my mom and sisters room got a new t.v. We got them yesterday and finally got the converter boxes hooked up. Now we got some new channels (after almost all of our channels got taken by Comcast since we don’t have cable or any converter boxes). So I’m really happy for them!

On Friday me and Brandon went out and saw Tangled in 3D. It was my time seeing a movie in 3D and it was really great! I loved the movie; I recommend it for anyone really. I loved the music too. I’m not a fan of musicals but I found myself enjoying the character songs. All together the movie tickets plus snacks (2 large popcorn's and two large ice's) cost under 50 dollars. Like wtf? When did the movies become such a luxury trip? >:Y Brandon paid for everything but I still felt like I could of invested in a theater system and etc for the same experience. None the less the trip was great and it was our first trip to the movies together. He even paid for my latte on the way home, he spoils me so much. XD

After the movies we went to get something to eat in the mall. Well, I went to a really great asian food chain called “Sakura” and OMFG THE SAMPLER BOY AND CHEF WERE SO HOT. I SO wanted more then a piece of teriyaki chicken from him. XD To add, the chicken was REALLY GOOD. I love sakura’s and I eat there a lot but this store really blew me away with their food. I could have jumped the counter and hugged all of them back there. It was really awesome seeing the hot chef cook my food. I felt SO shy that I was afraid to look at him. X3 it was awesome when he asked me if I wanted the sauce on my food, I looked dead at him. God, he was cute. *U*

Okay, I went on more then enough and I don’t want this to become super long. I hope everyone is doing okay. Thanks for reading!

new computer+updates

Hey all!

It’s been longer then usual since I last posted. I think Thanksgiving and that was like 2 weeks ago.

To start off I’ve been working on my calendar picture for some time now and I’m making GREAT PROGESS. I should be done way sooner then I thought. Today I started the night sky/starry sky and it looks EPIC. It was my first time making a spacey nebula, milky way-ish sky and it looks really good. Of course I looked up some tuts but I never followed any of them. The only good one wasn’t even “step by step” but more techniques and I didn’t even bother with that. I decided to learn as I go and have fun with it and it paid off. YOU KNOW UNTILL I TRIED TO SAVE AND SAI WANTED TO FREEZE UP ON ME AND SHIT.

Luckily, it saved and I decided to leave it alone for a few hours. I took a nap and came back to it for the same crap. So I thought getting rid of everything but the sky and stars (since the file is huge) would help but it didn’t do much. But I mange to add a few more colors and save it (taking it like forever because it likes to freeze) and I just do the fire works on another canvas. As well as adding the more epic stars in the sky picture. After that I have to make adjustments to the picture and add more lighting and shading then I’m done. So yeah, up to this point it’s been easy as in I can save it without a problem but now it’s a lot trickier. So I have to break the picture apart and put them together. : But yeah besides all that, its going fine…

ON A MUCH MUCH LIGHTER NOTE I’M GETTING A NEW COMPUTER. Like brand new which I’m SO happy because for about 2 or so years this computer have been making a super loud crazy noise. It does that when I’m doing something uber but its gotten REALLY BAD. Like I can’t play any flash games, I can barely watch any videos, and I had to stop cging in photoshop because of it. The main reason I even got so in depth in sai in the first place besides doing line art. Every time I wanted to blend in photoshop it would get super laggy and a complete mess. I forgot to mention that my sister just got a brand new laptop so my computer is completely mine. So now I don’t have to monitor all the crap that’s on it and stuff. (plus more space for yaoi HAR HAR HAR)

It’s super late and I’ve been side tracked for hours because of egoraptor’s livesteam so I’ll end it here.

I’ll post a wip next time so be on the look out for that. See ya later!