Walks, talks and depressing thoughts

Warning: half depressing post ahead. I won't mind if you don't comment on it.
Listening to: Nik Kershaw - The Riddle (I love this song, I've been looking for it for years, literally!)

Guess I'll start off with the pleasant part of the post, ne? ^_^ On Thursday I went to one of the parks with my friend Nico. I hadn't gone to that park in years, so I saw a lot of new things: a clean lake (it's truly a sight!), a LOT of pigeons (fat and squishy!! I love to squee "Squishy!!" whenever I see a "fat" bird XD They ruin away from me!) and even swans. Yup, you read it correctly, SWANS! In Bucharest!! We had just drunk some homemade cherry juice and thought we were seeing things XD There were two white swans and a black one. Oddly enough, more people came after we came, with cameras and phones; they started filming the swans and taking pictures of them. I don't know why, but that ticked me - I get annoyed whenever I see people filming with cameras or taking photos like crazy!

Art-wise, I made a new artwork. This time it's a painted artwork. I appreciate the comments everyone left on it, thank you very much for the support. Also, a vector of Senri from the +Anima manga below.

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Now comes the depressing part, at least for me it is. Feel free to stop reading, I won't mind if you skip this part.
Nico has a friend, Sabina. She is one of her best friends, they've been classmates and best friends during grade school, and she remains her best friend (together with me). She has been away for a few days and returned today. Nico and I were supposed to go see The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian, both of us being Narnia fans (I have 6/7 books from the Narnia series and lent them to Nico). We went for a walk in another park today and, as we were returning home, she suddenly told be Sabina came back today and wants to come too. I must say it was difficult for me to stay calm that moment.

Now, I don't hate Sabina. She and Nico get along well and I understand that she's her best friend too, but we two have nothing in common. When I got "A Clockwork Orange" (the book), S. tagged along with us and I forced myself to look normal (I really wanted to strangle N. the moment she told S. she could come with us). It's just that I know N. has more fun with S. than with me -she watches films and goes for walks with me, whereas with S. she makes fun of guys on the Internet and other stuff. It's kind of embarrassing to be the extra person, and that's how I felt. They talked about things I had no idea about, so I could do nothing but listen and admire the scenery.

I can't tell N. what I think about S. either, that would ruin our friendship. She thinks I like S., while I don't mind her as long as she's not in my presence for too long. The thing is, I don't want to spend another day pretending to like her, which will probably ruin the movie for me. I'd rather watch it on my computer, even though it's not the same. I have another good friend, Marina, but I never made M. and N. meet because I know they're very different and it would be an awkward situation. That's what I hate about some people, shoving their friends down my throat and making me like them. I'll most probably think of an excuse not to go...

Sorry for talking so much, I feel bad now and I had to get it out somehow =_= I hope I didn't ruin your good mood or anything, sorry if I did... I'll probably feel better tomorrow, I usually do... That's me, I'm cheerful even though people would be depressed if they were in the same situation as me ^_^ Looking on the bright side of things! Everyone, thank you so much for being my friends. Sometimes I don't know what I'd do without you *hugs* Hope you have a great day and thank you for alway being there for me, even though I'm not always there for you! *hugs again*

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