Free at last, free at last! I can no longer be defeated by my emotion. I feel kind of liberated at the moment. I'm not worried about what if's and maybe's. I'm not worried about what is and what could've been. I am not constricted by my emotions. Even though my emotions do get the best of me sometimes, I've learned to let go of what will never be. I've finally learned to accept what I am to them, and that's all I need. I am a friend, and I will continue to be the best friend I can be. I have no need to "be in love". I can finally just be myself. I learned one of my friends was right about how you feel about someone. He said, it can take up to two or (maybe) three years lol or something like that. XD He'd have to explain it. I can't explain it. Anyways, I can be myself and I don't even have to worry. I will continue to work on my fear of death, but I think I have concluded that if I keep turning to God, it will be okay. The day I fail is the day I give up and lose my faith. Not going to happen. End of story. I think I am in control of my own fate, and I want to make sure I make it to Heaven.