Have you ever had one of those moments where you see an answer staring you in the face, but you know it's just too hard, or at least it seems hard to you? That is my dilemma. I was told I need to make more of my own decisions. I can't just do that. See, first of all, I can't just leave my house whenever I feel like it. I don't have the money. Other wise, I would move out on my own. There are so many things I can't do. People say I need to do my own thing, but I sit here and ask, "How"? Again, what comes so natural to everyone else is a struggle for me. I'm drowning, but I can't swim and there's no one around to save me. To quote Maroon 5, "I am in misery. There ain't nobody that can comfort me." I don't really have people to hang out with, and I'm too busy working or my schedule is too conflicting. I feel powerless to escape this fate of living here within these four walls in the middle of nowhere. Besides, my parents expect me to tell them before I do anything. At this rate, I will be stuck here until my parents are dead and I'm forced to live somewhere else because it won't be my home. I will be stuck in this solitude. I want to make my own decisions, I just can't.