You know what I've discovered? Well, I was going to fix myself. I was making a list of how I'd actually like to be versus how I think I am. I realized something though. See, in the anime, Fullmetal Alchemist, "To obtain, something of equal value must be lost." This is the law of equivalent exchange. That being said, I learned that you have to rid yourself of your negative feelings. Now, I can write down what causes my negative feelings, but then again, reading it over and over again might make me remember my negative feelings. I don't need to go around in circles. I found that I was back to where I was back in November / December of last year. Funny, but it seems a year was plenty of time to forget what I had been told. Maybe the best thing to do is not to think. Thinking gets me into trouble. The best idea is to forget it and go on. See, I just have to remember it's all in my head. If anyone disliked me, all they'd have to do, and most do, is say, "I hate you." Well, okay, maybe not most, but most people do tell someone when they don't like them. Of course, they also tell you when they like you, or that you're forgiven. The thing to really break is my paranoia. Maybe the way to break my paranoia is just by being me. If I do something wrong, I can apologize and try to do better, but I don't have to beat myself up over it. As the song, "The Middle" by Jimmy Eat World states, "Just be yourself. It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else." I just do the best I can and everything will be alright. I just need to relax and chill out, yeah?