Have you ever felt like there are too many things in this world, holding you back? I do. I feel like every time I turn around, there's someone telling me I'm not good enough. There's always someone telling me, I don't need to do this, or I can't do that. Today, my family just reminded me yet again about the things it seems I will never have. They keep telling me not to leave, to stay here, and that I shouldn't do anything because Heaven forbid I should have something happen to me. If I stay here and do nothing, I will be safe. It seems they want to keep me here forever. They were even saying that me going with a few guy friends of mine somewhere was wrong. Well, what am I supposed to do, only hang out with girls and stay in this area? How am I ever going to meet someone if I stay here? How do I start my own life if I stay here? I'd like to do my own things, be who I want to be, not who my parents want me to be. I want to be given a chance by a man, and not just told after only a little while, "I'm sorry, I'm not interested, or we're better off as friends." That's all I ever hear is how we're better off as friends. I got turned down all the time in high school, and no one really even noticed me in college. They still don't. Even though I work at a grocery store, I'm still not noticed. I'm just there. If I had the money, I could just live in an RV and travel around.