Sometimes it just hits you, you know? You spend all your time worried about something, and then just from a text from a friend, your mind can change in an instant. I was thinking I was just so lost and couldn't be saved, but I learned differently. I'm not lost, and it's okay to feel the way I do. I don't have the feelings I once had, and even though some remain, it's okay. They may not ever go away completely, but it's fine. He's my friend, and that's all I need. I don't need anything else.

Also, I've started making peace with the fact that I don't have to get married and have kids to be happy. I can just be myself, and be happy with myself.