If I am not able to fight these demons, they will consume my soul and I will face eternal punishment. No, I don't mean just the flames of Hell, I mean the suffering that comes in this life. I've already faced some suffering, but I do not wish to live out the rest of my life suffering for my sins. I don't like the feelings I have to fight. I know the suffering I've put some people through, but if I can't save myself, I can't hope to save anyone else. I fear things that could happen. I pray that won't happen. I was told I will get over it. I certainly hope so. Meanwhile, the demons that invade my mind make it difficult for me.