Where do I begin? *sigh* I work in retail and I absolutely hate it. I have been working on getting out of retail, but so far, I've been unsuccessful. See, I have felt like I screwed up high school and college. I have been told though it isn't true. See, I did graduate from college. I have a degree. The problem is, making use of my degree. If I can learn these programs I've been given by a job placement service, maybe I can get into an office job. Starting off is the hardest thing in the world. Often, I think I screwed up my experiences in high school and college, not only with sticking with a career path I wanted, but with not being too social. My social skills are very lacking, and I'm a very shy girl with a lot of emotional issues. I live at home with my parents because I can't afford to move out. I've never lived on my own, and I don't like going places or doing things by myself.
I have a lot of conflicts within my own mind. If you see a lot posted here, and it seems like, "What the...?" Just know, my mind is the most screwed up, messed up place you've probably ever been. I'm working on improving myself, but it may take me a very long time to do it. I go to my friends with my issues because I have no where else to turn. I'm going to try not to go to them with my worries quite as much, and try to solve some of my own issues, but this is something I'm learning. My only thing is that I ask people to be patient with me. I have always had to be dependent on others so I don't know really how to depend on myself.
I thank my friends for all the advice and help they've tried giving me so far. If I seem slow to learn, I'm sorry. I do try, I really do. I just get lost along the way.
I am trying.
