The labyrinth

Name: Nikki
Age: 27
DOB: Nov. 24 1986
Height: 5ft roughly - What? I'm short
Believe in Love at First Sight: No.
Relationship Status: Single / Don't care
Here lately, I've come to discover, it doesn't matter whether I get married or not. It doesn't even matter if I stay single. Thing is, I may or may not be ready for it. What's important is being content with what you have.
I have a lot of favorite anime, but a few of them include: Code Geass, Trigun, Fullmetal Alchemist and Fairy Tail.
Favorite music: rock / hard rock / heavy metal, pop - I like things that people have said doesn't fit me.
My all time favorite band is the old Guns N' Roses. The new one sucked. End of story.

Created By shortcrazygirl

Physical As Well as Emotional

After watching a music video by 30 Seconds From Mars, I've discovered that I'm starting to want to feel physical affection. I don't mean necessarily sex, sex, but some physical affection from a man. I don't know what I could do for him, but I'd try. The actual sex part would come during marriage for me of course, but I don't know... even though my Christian convictions have made me feel like maybe all that kind of thing was wrong, I'm starting to change my mind some. I mean, yeah, I wouldn't want to go to Hell, but as of late, I can't help but wonder what some of this is like. The strange thing is that I've never actually wanted anyone in that way. For me, it's usually just emotional and maybe like a kiss, hug, holding his hand, that kind of thing. Although, I don't know... I'm kind of...well...behind everyone else it seems.

New Divide

I remembered black skies, the lightning all around me
I remembered each flash as time began to blur
Like a startling sign that fate had finally found me
And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve

So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason to fill this hole, connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies across this new divide

There was nothing in sight but memories left abandoned
There was nowhere to hide, the ashes fell like snow
And the ground caved in between where we were standing
And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve
[| From: http://www.elyrics.net |]

So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes across this new divide

In every loss, in every lie, in every truth that you'd deny
And each regret and each goodbye was a mistake too great to hide
And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve

Confused

So my emotions are confused at the moment. I don't know whether to be angry, sad or even happy at the current situation. See that post about me being like Supergirl? Well... see... this whole thing has left me wondering whether I am wrong or not wrong. I don't really know what to feel about this situation because I didn't ask for any of this to happen, it just happened out of the blue, and then next thing I know is these certain friends of mine whom I can't name started treating me like the enemy. I may have stated this before. Maybe my post was ill-timed, but I never thought it was something that would land me in a heap of trouble. Luckily, lots of my other friends have been giving me their support, so I don't have to feel so terrible, but honestly, I don't know what the right reaction is. 2013 is turning out to be some nightmare so far.

I Will Not Be Overcome with Evil, but Overcome Evil With Good

So I was feeling bad for being branded a monster by two people I deemed my friends here lately, but now I've learned the truth, and I know I never was the monster. Therefore, whatever becomes of this, I will rise above the clouds and fly, just like Superman or Supergirl. Nothing will bring me down, and I will become stronger. One just has to remember you reap what you sow, and if things like this are what you want to sow, you'll get a crop full of it in return. I will show my own strength, and I will not be overcome by evil. Nope, I will overcome evil with good and merely just smile. If they choose to accept they were wrong, fine. If not, that's cool too. I don't need any more added stress. I have enough of that to deal with. So come what may, Supergirl flies above the clouds.
lol I hope you guys understood what I meant. I did, but yeah...

The Hilariousness of It

LOL So the other day, I woke up to hear from a friend that some people were spreading rumors about me and that one person had deleted me from their friends list on facebook because of a post I made about Applejack. Yes, that's right folks, a post about My Little Pony is obviously me flirting with your boyfriend. She then gets on and gives me some lecture and tells me that everyone she told about it agreed with her. Yeah... okay... whatever... nobody asked me what I meant. But still... why would I be flirting with your boyfriend on facebook on a silly post about My Little Pony? Really? Pfft... Okay, yeah, maybe I seem desperate, but I'm not that desperate to ruin a perfectly good friendship and flirt with your boyfriend on facebook of all places. Ehem... if I was going to do that, I'm pretty sure it would not be where EVERYBODY could see it, unless I know the guy is single. Then, I found out there are rumors going around that I fool around with guys. Wow, really? I want to know how I do this. This is beyond my knowledge.