Blog Entry #57

Today, it started out as a normal day... just, a normal Saturday for me, and I was pretty happy... But then my brother comes in and he's crying, his girlfriend and nephew right behind him, and he hugged my mom like he never was going to see her again, and that's not far from the truth... My mom went upstairs with him, and came back down to tell me that my brother was leaving for a very long time, people are looking for him to arrest him and he doesn't want to get caught so he can take care of his son... I don't like my brother very much, or that I DIDN'T like him very much, and now I can't stop crying... I love my brother, I really do, no matter the shit he did to me when I was little, but when he said goodbye to me... I just couldn't hate him anymore...

I promised him, I wouldn't screw up, that I'd go to college, that I wouldn't make the same mistakes that he did... and that I'd love him no matter what. And he finally apologized to me for not being here when I grew up, that he was sorry for putting me through so much, and that he loves me and that he'll always be there for me... and that he wanted me to know that this time it wasn't his fault, and that he'd be back soon... he better call me when he settles down... I love that big tattooed lug... he's my big brother, and I don't know what I'm going to do without him... He's always been here, always been able to come to us if he needed help... but now he's too far away... I'm not going to see him for a very long time, and... I'm just a wreck... I love you Anthony...

Heartbroken Little Sister

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