Update, update, hrm. . .
Work has been, work. I dislike that place so damn much. The students are really the best part of the job. A lot of the elementary kids have kinda opened up to me, they say hi to me every morning, and goodbye in the afternoon. I can remember a lot of their names since Ive had them for a couple years now. . . If and when I ever leave this job, not seeing those kids every day is going to be the worst part. Best part of not being at the bus company? Not having to work for hypocritical crooks anymore. Not working with world class idiots either, oh that will be so much fun. I cant wait!
So I still dont have enough money to afford a move, and I dont want to stick around much longer. Im throwing money into a problem with absolutely no benefits. My dad keeps begging for money from jail, but I cant afford to take care of me, let alone send his ass money for commissary. But it may end up me asking for money to help to get out of town.
My depression seems to be subsiding, Im not sure if that is because of the medicine, or because I finally got help for it, but Ill take what I can get at this point. Someone asked if I was feeling "Happier", I told her I would "Settle for not depressed at this point". There is still a lot to be pissed at and worry about. But at least its seeming like Im not on the verge of panic attacks every day.
My brother had a job interview for the first time in I dont know how long its been. He may end up getting this one, which will be great for him, and he wants me to stay up here and go through another cold, drawn out winter in the damn school bus, but more for his benefit than mine. He wont know what to do if he had to take care of himself for the first time in his life.
Not much else going on, just dealing with life.
I just had to repost this. Its not often I can say I inspired somebody. So many cool people met through that cult club.
