This really has nothing to do with anything...
I Just wanted to say that I miss my long hair
In 8th grade it was down to my butt. No joke. It was. AND it was super curly all the time because that was before I learned how to straighten it xD
Then I cut it like the first week of 9th grade (High school) because I wanted a change. I didn't take a whole lot off, just like 5-6 inches. It was still wayy past my boobs and crap though.
Then I learned how to straighten it.
After I started straightening it everyday, I started having to trim the tips once a month (my hair grows really fast lol)
Then I dyed my hair like CRAZYYYY
It went from blonde(Natural) to blue, green, pink, orange, white, black, rainbow, basically any color you can think of. And never just one color either. I always had at least 3 at one time. Like I would have pink on the top, black bangs, then white streaks. That was just my thing xD
Then I started cutting my own hair because I was getting tired of dying and styling it when it was so long.
So first I got myself side bangs. Then normal bangs.
Then I got layers. Then I cut it all up to my boobs.
Then a little lower than my shoulders, but with a lot of layers
Then finally it was cut so it didn't touch my shoulders.
Then I wanted it shorter still...
I went to an 'emo' stylist, and he gave me the signature spiky on top, lopsided bangs, and flippy sided hair xD
it was short as hell
then I cut the back more
then I finally went to the salon and they shaved the back and the sides... I had a flipping Mohawk xD
ANYWAY
That all happened within like... a year and a half xD
I was literally obsessed with cutting my hair... I would trim pieces off at least once a week.
Everyone thought I was high maintenance as hell xD
Everyday my hair was perfectly cut, makeup on, contacts in, and I would dress immaculately...
It would take me almost 2 hours to get ready for school in the morning.
Thats freaking mental.
So after I finally cut it this last time, I thought enough is enough....
It was an actual addiction. One I knew I had to quit.
People thought I was making things up when I told them it was hard for me to not cut or dye my hair.... But I'm not kidding.
Yesterday was the first time I've dyed my hair in the last almost 5 months :]
I'm very proud.
It was white and pink before, and it has been growing out lately.... So yesterday I bought some black hair dye and just put it to a plain normalish color.
Right now my hair is almost to my shoulders, and my once straight across bangs are past my nose :]
When I originally shaved my hair it was because I didn't think I deserved such nice hair when I was so ugly and not worth it...
I stopped trying to look pretty, stopped wearing makeup, and stopped trying all together. That's also when I quit school and became extremely depressed. I tried killing myself a few times. Not like those stupid paper cuts on your wrists type either. I tried to kill myself via pills (as in I took every single pill in the medicine cabinet, which believe me there were a lot) I've tried getting hit by a car, I've tried making huge gashed on my wrist and holding them under running water(That one was close. Someone found me and brought me to the hospital when I passed out from blood loss)
BACK ON TOPIC >.>
Now I'm starting to realize that I just might be worth trying to look pretty. I've started putting on a little makeup in the morning, and I do my hair sometimes. I've even started cosplaying girls again rather than always crossplaying guys.... I wear my long wigs in public in place of my hair, and I took my nose, tongue, and eye brow piercings out :]
Now I just have my snake bites xD
But I like those
Question- Why can't I ever stay on topic when I write journals? xD
Answer- Because no one reads these anywayyyy xD
Yeah.. So I'm done here....
Just basically wanted people to know that I miss my hair, and I'm slowly letting it grow back out :]
~Riska
