recap blackberry was grabbed by jake [our dog]
and we though for sure he was dead then but he lived until today
this morning i was checking him over and his condition worried me
we go out a while and come back to him being dead.
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this time i cried for a smaller amount of time
so i guess as more deaths happen in my life i get used to it
so a decade prior my grandmother suddenly died during the night
that being the first expireance and the harshest most horrible one
the one burned in my memory
then the dog we had before sugar never made it to the vet
then over time 3 parakeets
then sugar
now another keet
each time after the first i got usted to it a little more
am i strange for thinking like this?
idk.
maybe it's that i had years of life experiances thrown on me
i feel like i had to grow up faster then i would've naturally
