Welcome to Random Ramblings aka RR
here i post fic chapters pics and stuff
meanwhile Influx of Insanity is a world dedicated to getting out negative thoughts or goings on in my life so beware when visiting that one
Mood: amused
Song: Summer Nights
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loneliness threatens to overwhelm me
really i don't know why i'm posting this
since noone comes in here anyway
i could post 9 more times and would the world notice?
no.
i could just delete my account and the world won't notice for a good while if at all
and i'm brough back to the fact that most of my subscribers a huge 23 most i never see here or hardly see.
would they notice?
no.
things here on theO for me have become stagnant
talking to myself or the wall proves more engaging
the wall won't walk off or lose interest and i'm avaliable 24/7
recap blackberry was grabbed by jake [our dog]
and we though for sure he was dead then but he lived until today
this morning i was checking him over and his condition worried me
we go out a while and come back to him being dead.
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this time i cried for a smaller amount of time
so i guess as more deaths happen in my life i get used to it
so a decade prior my grandmother suddenly died during the night
that being the first expireance and the harshest most horrible one
the one burned in my memory
then the dog we had before sugar never made it to the vet
then over time 3 parakeets
then sugar
now another keet
each time after the first i got usted to it a little more
am i strange for thinking like this?
idk.
maybe it's that i had years of life experiances thrown on me
i feel like i had to grow up faster then i would've naturally
