I'm more or less interested in anything dealing with Itachi but I get interested easily with any manga/anime
I'm not much to talk about an amateur artist trying to put up art for people to see as well as fan art. I hope you like this world I'm probably just do journal entries and compare things in life with some in anime/manga
- Created By Zuzu Uchiha
Believing what you hear...or Know...?
Just a thought. No one in general. Trust me random shiz come to my mind... No one I seriously getting on this NO ONE get defensive here, it nothing on anyone just a thought. Im already sick, and stressing just know this is just a thought... that came to me and its something that I need to let out since I been getting lied to in my face so many times over and over and over again....
the thoughts running in my mind... do I really know you?
The actual thoughts in my mind... Do they Know you?
Do they know you better than I do?
Do I know you better than they do?
Who is to say you haven't been lying to me from the start.
I said hi, you said hi
We became friends....or that is what I thought.
We had things in common
I liked what you had
And you liked what I had...or did you?
You introduced me to friends.
I did the same for you.
We all became friends...right? or Wrong.
What is it with this...
Knowing what you see from that person.
And then Hearing what someone else has to say.
Knowing that person in reality hates you.
Knowing that person wants nothing with you.
Wants nothing to know about you.
Am I that kind of person too?
To not want to know someone?
Not care for someone.
No...I'm not.
Even if I tried...I can't...seem to hate someone.
Hold a grudge on anyone.
You done it me...you hated me and yet you kept me around....
You and your friends...or should I say the people who also dislike you as much as you dislike them.
Am I wrong to say that to you?
I'm being honest....
I am someone who got hurt,
but I can always make that hurt come back right at you.
Its not like me to do that, but if you get me to that level...I shall and will be uncaring
Soon. Never later. Just soon, I will apologize. I will take it all back. And ask you to forgive me.
Why? I dunno. I do this when I think I done wrong. Or even when I know I did nothing wrong.
To hear what I hear...about you... should I listen.
To see what I see about you. Should I know?
Believing what I hear.... no.
Believing what I see... not so sure on that either.
What is there to believe? Well the facts. I want to know...what I already know...
If you are kind to me...then you are good in my mind...
but if I hear someone say you are rude to them... all I can say is... I should ask...right?
Or wrong?
You say you are this and this. And someone who is closer to you who known you for years tells me other wise. I should believe nothing then. Except to me... I would still be by your side... and never turn away. Even to those who have gone against me. Said the wrong things about me. Made people hate me.... I don't hate you. Nor will I hold this against you. I still will protect you. I will go on.
Believing what I know...than what I hear.....
Old Writings
I found a few of my old writings...
I guess this was a "poem" not to sure. I wrote these a while back
Roses are Red
Violets are Blue
If I can go on in life
So can you
Corny start... But I wrote this when me and some friends were going down some hard times....
I remember this one by far since all I was feeling...was Pain....
Pain is Me
Pain is fighting
Pain is Love
Pain is Suffering
Pain is ... Nothing
Pain....is...was...Me
Stormy/Rainy Days
Ever was that kid who was afraid of the lighting?
The thunder?
Or maybe even both....
Me? I use to hate the rain....
It was on a rainy night my grandpa left my family...left the state....
He said he would come back...
That same night...
Hurricane (forgot which one) came, the one from 2000 came.... the apartment my family lived in...flooded..
Me and my sister and brother...young.
My mother...home with us.
Our father...working the night shift.
Three guys came in...took me and my brother and sister away from our mom.
We ended up being in a apartment...two stories up from the ground....
That night...I was crying like I never cried before...I was 5 or 6 years old... All I wanted was my mom. She was still in our apartment getting some clothes for us before it really got flooded in.
Even now...I want nothing to protect my mom. My dad. My family.
I hated rainy days because of that.
My grandpa leaving.. Us losing our apartment and living with people we knew nothing of who also had other families who were unfortunate as us to lose their apartment as well.
But how is it...one stormy night...caused me to hate my grandpa? Yes. I hate him.... I use to say I love him so much and I do all I can to see him...but that was a cover to the actual feelings I have... I hate him for leaving not only that....but for not keeping his promise to come back.
I hated the stormy nights. The rainy nights. I use to fear it... I use to fear the lighting. The thunder. Now... I hate it. I don't get scared I get angry, because I remember that night. As though it happened not to long ago...
But even now... I still want to protect my grandpa... hate him...now maybe.... but I still care, he is my family as well.
When will this storm pass..the hate in my heart end, the thoughts of not wanting and wanting to see my grandpa again.
The always run in the rain....over and over falling to my knees screaming up at the sky saying "I HATE YOU".... when will it pass...when will it just fade....when...will I forget...when...will I frgive?
Pay It Forward Done
Awesome.
I finally did my art pieces for the three people I got in the Pay It Forward ^^ just hope they like what they see.... O.o
This challenge is real good.
And I see a lot of people are still looking for someone to draw for.
Well from how I heard they can draw for someone who has already been picked. I don't mind anyone asking me to be one of their artist they want ^^
I don't even mind drawing for 3 more people
Also I hope there are artists who are up for this challenge I think its a real good one.
Drawing for someone you know or don't know. It showing you remember about them (in my opinion)
Well its late. My computer was nice enough to upload pictures again.
But my health and doing so well. So good nights for now.
Days
Pass few days been trying to get my computer to work right since it being a retard again...it won't upload pictures again.
another thing....I feel sick....
I seriously can't afford to get sick especially not now, most of the times me+sick=worse case for my asthma
So I been stressing since my computer wants to be a douche with me.
That is probably why Im getting a bit feverish.
But the days still go by.
One after another....
Me still filling a bit sick, my computer being a douche and me just hoping to just get better.
As so much I also been looking back at some of the things I wrote in some journals I had... I find some to have caught my attention. In any case the days feel a bit slow.
I feel a bit weak, sore and sick.... so im just going to chill for a bit.
That and work on the requests for the Pay it Forward challenge as well.
