Just a warning, I'll be whining in the post, so if you'd rather not read it, stop here.
Right now I feel like I've hit rock bottom with my depression. Not a single day goes by when its not hard to get out of bed, when it doesn't feel like too much effort to even breathe. I feel sick and tired all the time, exhausted, like I'm completely drained of energy. I'm even having trouble eating. I need to see a psychiatrist really badly but I don't seem to be getting anywhere with that, everytime I call them to make an appointment, they take weeks to get back to me, and sometimes they don't get back to me at all. I'm too afraid to even leave the house, and I'm constantly anxious for no reason. I have health problems and I'm always sickly and a burden to be around. I just feel like giving up. But I won't because I have friends that love me, and I need them. And I hope they need me, too. I just needed to get this out of my system, I've been bottling things up too much. I'm just hurting everywhere, physically and mentally, and I don't know how to make it stop. I feel like I'm lost, and nobody can find me. I'm so pathetic.
