everything in life happens for a reason right
well i mean i understand but it seems so frightening having to wait for it
i wish it was there for us to just touch and understand
i wish we could feel every reason that something happened for
and i wish i could feel happy for everything that i've done in my life
there shouldnt be anything in this world for me to regret
yet every time i remember something i always remember the things i wish werent there
or
i always remeber the things that arent there anymore and almost seem untouchable
i always want every moment i never appreciated
i always wish that every part of my life i wouldnt just take for granted and honestly follow my heart
do you know how hard it is to live following your heart
when its almost always never decisive
its so hard trying to abide myself to that one object within me
that one object that can lead me almost nowhere
but it leads me everywhere
i know that my heart always pumps faster when it feels the right thing is happening
but
its still strange to feel every moment be lead by that pump
its so strange to almost be afraid of the outcome when
this pump is the only thing leading me anywhere
well even with this fear
this strangness
this total undecisiveness
my lifes lead by the only thing that matters
MY HEART !