Dear Diary,
I know this place is for anime but I need a place to vent and possibly get advice. I've been having a hard time in life lately. I don't really have anyone to talk to about the things that have been bothering me. At least on here I can express myself without others knowing who I am.
Lately I've been sad. I get myself worked up about certain things. Things that most people wouldn't get worked up over. Once I get myself worked up about something the only place it ever stays is inside my head. This is lethal for me. Thinking is a lethal thing for me. It's bad once I start thinking because then I start thinking of the past, present, and future. I can never stay in the "here and now." I'd like to meet someone who can be in the here and now.
My weight has been going up. I weigh 121 pounds. That's the most I've weighed in my life. I usually weigh around 109-110. Now I'm a blimp. I look as though I'm a couple weeks pregnant. SO of course that's been bothering me. I just can't stop eating. I like food but I don't like it enough to make me fat. I can't really gain too much more otherwise I'll end up being overweight for my height. But I don't have the strength to starve myself anymore. The hunger for hunger is always there. I'm too lazy to excercise.
All that's probably lame diary but it's what's on my mind at the moment.
I'll leave you be now.
Love,
Yours Truly
