You've never felt true agony
Until your own heart abandons you
I've thought once before, I need only me
But no one else seems to agree
My heart has been my own personal hell,
My mind has been taken over by it, the logic no longer there
I'm constantly losing, constantly beating myself up
Though when asked, I simply tell people I've been well
It's a day-to-day struggle, these conflicting absolutes and thoughts
You won't believe, some of the battles I have fought
All the while on my own, with no one to guide me
If only that you could see, oh how relieved I would be
I cannot give in, though for years I've felt like doing so
I always say "I cannot," Or "I don't know,"
If only you could see, how tormented I can be
By my own thoughts that make me cry, oh how it disgusts me
My heart's been infected like this for years
By this straining agony- this thorn in my heart, and I still wonder how...
For all of these years, I've continued to try and stop the flowing tears
But one after another, the walls I have built, are drowning now
Like dominoes they fall, giving that pitiful effect
Reminding me each time, of that inflicting agony
That pain in my heart, which makes me feel like a defect
Has resided within me for far too long
You never know true agony
Until you're truly alone, fighting your demons,
And no one else can see the truth, blinded by the false 'truth' of reality
No, you cannot console, this painfully true, agony
I may seem childish and naive to others around me
When in truth, I may be more aware of it then they are
Of what true agony feels like, why can't they see?
I've fallen too deeply, into my own shadow!
I have been fighting, this darkness, and for this long, I have been alone...
All this time, I've fought for seemingly an eternity, with my own lost soul!
Only to be faced with more hardships, more relentless jokes in front of me
My loved ones I know, they can't even see, this true agony...
