Dear Journal,

So last month on the weekend of the 10th i had a friend over nothing special was going on or planned they was just over to chill as I hadnt seen them in a good minute. Well i was sick all that weekend and had to call off that monday cause i got sick more as i had been out in the rain on the weekend.

Well that morning my friend was checking on my and something more happened then what should have but I know that this was wrong and I went and admitted to the man that I was with at the time. Yes the man still lives with me, but anyway, i was honest and didnt hide it from him. He had messed up like this and hidden it from me before and had messsed up more then once but anyway, long story short I was told to cut my friend out that is like a protector to me. And I was raising a little bit of cane as it was feeling like it was gonna be permanent and I didnt want that.

Another friend of mine said on the 16th last month said that my former man and I should take a break and its been a month so far.... cause he jumped on it without thinking about it. And on top of that he friend zoned me and had more fun without me. Its been wierd that he is still in the same house with me and it hurts but i will get over it. I just not sure how to feel about my proetctor wanting to step in his place instead to keep me safe... But i am thankful that he is trying.

I am just so lost right now that it isnt even funny it has almost been a month and i feel like that i am in hell that it is scary. I better go before i start crying. Thanks for taking your time to read my journal guys.

Sara Elizabeth Jones (Lisa M. Taylor)