Wow...I stink at jazz

I played jazz(keyboard) for the first time...Nobody told me I needed to learn chords!So, I have given up on anything jazz because I fail at it.

My life is boring, 'cause I know people care.(sarcastically) I'm teaching myself math stuff this summer....
I'd rather gouge my eyes out with a fork, but its too late to turn back now.

Do any people that happen to glance upon this page know where I can get free non downloadable music?