*stares at the computer screen for a couple of minutes* ...... *leaves and loafs around the house for an hour or five* .... *comes back and continues the staring* ....
Ok, enough of that! And no, I didn't actually do that just now. But usually I do. Except there's a bit of clicking to coincide with the staring.
*turns on stereo* Whoops. Reminder to self: stop with the whole *action* thing for the time being!
So I guess you could say I'm feeling out of my circle (loops are so yesterday's thang) and even though my body isn't devoid of energy there's just no incentive to do anything. Somehow it feels like I'm in a mixed state of inspired and depressed, which doesn't blend at all and ultimately leaves me confused as to how I'm feeling!
But the sun is shining. Or, more accurately put, I'm not gonna let it bother me ... when I can help it. It's only when mom prods me if there's something wrong that it becomes an issue, haha. Just leave me to loaf for a while and it'll be fine, you know? I think I'm more than qualified to decide when digging is necessary (that word always fails to be spelled correctly by me *angst!*) to dig into my downwardness or when to allow it to subside by its lonesome.
Kinda like how a bush/shrub changes color. If it's due to a seasonal thing there's nothing you should do about it. Only when there's a treatable disease are you justified in attempting rescue efforts. Oooooo. Imagery psychology :o
Anyway. Man, it felt nice to just blab garble :)
I'll get around to taking some close-ups on the jewelery, maybe today since I'm "skipping" interning, so ya'll can boost my self esteem by praising how much they sparkle in the light (.... not that that has anything to do with any talent on my part since the beads tend to do that anyway *snortgigglefacepalm*).
On an almost semi-related note, despite spending quite a bit of money on purchasing beads/stuffs, I have a fair amount of cash set aside for rainy days. Looking out of the window after breakfast this morning it hit me how nice it'd be to go somewhere and just wander about. Do some people-watching. Just exist somewhere that isn't here. That thought made me feel very peaceful. Along with a necklace (that might be turned into a bracelet or not) with a message important to me, I now have two things up my sleeve to pull out when the funk tries gets too full of itself.
Mmmm, 'twas a good idea to post ^_^ Thanks for reading and try to keep any worrying at a minimum. I'm more contemplative than depressed, really ;)
