Hello Everyone! Seems to me that EVERYONE has their own world, and since ninety nine percent of the time I'm living in my own world, I figured I could let you guys in on it. Manda's Madness will be just that, my madness. I just want to let everyone get to know me a little better. I love to write, so I'm sure some of my posts will probably be REALLY long, and don't expect a regular post, because you wont get it. XD I just want everyone to get to know me a little better, and so, like I said, I'm going to let you in on my own little world. Hope everyone enjoys, and doesn't get too put out with my ramblings. :)

-Manda

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May 08, 2009- Graduation

Today was a very busy day. I got up and took a shower when I woke at 8:30 so that my hair could air dry. I prefer it to blowdryers. So, I ran around the house for about 2 hours with a wet head and talking on MSN. At about 12:00 Audrey came up. She set with me till about 1:00 then I decided to let her fix my hair. This was interesting, because the entire time I was getting my hair done I was on msn. When Audrey would go to spray hair spray I would cover the screen with a dish towel. lol. Even after that when I put my make-up on I set the computer next to me, and when someone would talk to me I would set the make-up down and type. Im talented. It was an interesting sight. My sister set there and watched me and laughed, but there were people I wanted to talk to, no matter how bad it hurt when I got burned with the curling iron. :( So, after several hours of preperation I was ready. I looked good too. XD

I went to graduation and got my "degree." Its not really the degree, I wont get that for about another eight weeks. Weird how college works, but Oh well. I walked with Whitney and Barbara. We had a blast.

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Barbara is a girl I met at college my first semester. (Shes the dark haired girl on the left of me, the other girl is Whitney.)I was tickled to find out she was graduating with us. Hard to believe the age difference. Shes actually twenty-nine. I was in shock the first time she told me.(Funny fact: Me and her husband share the same birthday.)

We all set there through the TONS of long speeches and finally made it through it two hours later. Afterwords we all went out to eat. This was funny, because we went to the nicest resturaunt in town, and aparantly we werent the only ones with the same idea. It was awful. The waitors brought a large seat meant for heavier people out and me and my friend shared it. No, it wasnt that big, but they were running out of seats. Me being the nice one, I let her have most of the seat while my legs went numb from the awful position. It was uncomfortable, but the food was good.

After all the time spent out I finally made it back home. It was roughly 10:00 when I got home, and I had left at 4:30. It was a very boring experience, but in the end Im glad I didnt miss it. I had fun at some points. I still wish I could have stayed at home and chatted with some friends, but I suppose the memory is worth it. Ill graduate again in another 2 years.XD Wonder what that one will be like?

May 06, 2009

So I got up this morning and was completely thrilled I had only one exam left. Ive taken my slow and easy time at it. Which was an amazing thing for me, because I have had to rush and work so fast and hard all week Ive barely had time for air it seems. Ive been super exhausted. Everything seems to be so complicated lately, but I found that as soon as I relaxed a bit after all the exams, I was alot more at peace. Things dont feel as complicated, and I finally got some good sleep last night.

I really dont think I would have made it through this last week without the help of some of you. You set up and talked me through it every day. You listed to me complain and whine. One of you even yelled at me to get my work done. Im glad you yelled at me though. I didnt want to disappoint so I put forth the effort and got the work done. I made perfect scores on 3 out of the 4 essays. Exams Im still not sure about, but still you guys helped me make it through it and I thank you from the bottom of my heart. I truely believe you guys were a blessing in desguise. You kept me entertained, made me laugh, and kept me motivated. No matter how much I wanted to give up on the work and just talk to you.lol.

Its hard to imagine how much friendship means to us, but this week I realised that without it I wouldnt be able to do alot of things. I would have much rathered to sleep in on days and not turn my work in, but for my future and the fear of letting others down I pushed right on. The stress is till hard, but Im happy.

I went for a walk today. I love to walk. I didnt get to walk too long, it was raining, and when I got to the top of the heal a little ways down the road I had to turn around because it started pouring the rain. So I turn around and come home and I set and work on my exam. I of course was soaked, but I thouroughly enjoy the rain. Its just hard to walk around in the rain when you cant see because your glasses are covered in water droplets.

After that I went on to working on my FINAL final exam. Its not due until tomorrow, so I get to take my time with it. I found where all the answers were and I wrote them down. The only thing left to do is to write them in on my responses and turn in the exam. Good thing we can save and come back on the exam. Id be screwed otherwise. I cant set that long at an exam. It hurts my head. Not to mention my eyes. XD

Ill be going tomorrow and working in the library with my aunt though, so I wont be able to finish the exam till later tomorrow. I also wont be online until later tomorrow evening, which wil be about 3:30-4:00 my time. :(

Funny fact: More than 2/3 the women in my family became teachers. lol. My aunt Im going to help tomorrow has her degree in pretty much anything in education. She has her principalship, librarianship, and can teach in k-12. lol. She has been a professional student for the last few years. :3 Teaching must run in my family. lol. I cant wait to become a teacher myself.

I really do enjoy college though, no matter how much I complain. Its just hard at time. lol. Then again, when isnt something in life hard. Im so exhausted from everything though. I just dont know what Im going to do with myself. lol. Oh well, lifes complicated, we get over it. XD

And as a special treat for everyone... an artwork that because it is too small the O will not let me add to my art:

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Hope you enjoy, and once again, thank you to all of you who didnt give up on me and kept my laughing and occupied while I was going through my week of hell.

May 04, 2009

I spent last night at a friends house. Audrey, she's actually my sisters best friend, but I consider her as mine too. I havent talked to me other friends in days. Last night one of them invited me to go out with them this Saturday, but Im so tired. Regardless of my actual break starting Thursday. One of my final exams got moved to tommorrow. That tickled me, I was going to have to take 3 exams in one day otherwise.

Anyways, the day started out pretty good. I went to bed at like 4 and got up at 6 when my sister turned the light on and nearly blinded my poor sleeping eyes. Im not a morning person, though I can be, but with two hours of sleep and the prospective of 3 exams, I wasnt exactly a happy camper. I think I screamed at her, mumbled something at the least. Whatever it was, Im pretty sure it was gibberish. After all, I hadnt exactly woke to the sound of churping birds and the gentle dawn of a new day, now had I?

After walking through the house and making an idiot of myself when I nearly followed Audrey outside to brush my teeth, I managed to finish getting ready and somehow get down the steps and the hill without killing myself, though from the way I was walking and how many times I almost fell, me falling and killing myself seemed more logical. A guy from highschool was supposed to meet us at the Huddle House and ride to class with us this morning, but we waited for more than 45 minutes and he never showed, and I ended up being late for my final exam because of it. Btw, I probably failed the exam, things we never went over were on it and I didnt know any of it. :S

I also spoke to my advisor, it appears that my scholarship is from Phi Thetta Kappa, the sorority at my school. lol. Im so awesome I got the full amount. Just a different name on the same awesome funding of my education. lol. I recieved a total over $7000 a year for 3 years, or 3500 a semester for 6 semesters. That is an awesome scholarship. Its half my tuition. The rest of it will be paid with other scholarships and grants. I had been worried about taking out loans. I lucked out. We seem to take from the poor in this country and give to the rich. I wouldnt get anything.

They really need to change the phrase from land of opportunity to land of subjegation or maybe land of big headed idiots politicians. I hate politics and social norms. Everyone is the same, no matter race, gender, ethenticity, origin, or even sexual preference. We are all flipping human. Seems we tend to take that for granted though. It makes me sick to even think about all the hungry children there are out there, and some rich ass CEO can build a $1000000 office renovation. Yes, that really happened.Some economic crisis they appear to be in. While families are losing their homes and jobs, they are losing pocket change. Crazy people.

I wish I could make everything better within the world. I would love to help everyone. Thats just the type of person I am, though. I hate to see people suffer and I hate to see others gain from others suffering. Its sickening. I wish I could stop it all. Oh, well, there isnt much I can do, but if I ever decide to be a politician, it will be because I hate politics. lol. Makes no sense Im sure, but I would love to make a difference in the world some way. Maybe someday Ill find a way.

HAHAHA!!Yet we still take it. Were so hypocritical at times.

April 28, 2009

Well, the day started off like hell. I got up at 6:45 and quickly got ready to go to school. Long drive, and little time to waste. Threw on a pair of jeans and a t-shirt, and quickly pulled my hair up into a pony tail. Not a great look for me. o.O

I get to school, and do a review in Physics. That was kind of interesing, seeing as my notebook with all my physics notes in it has suddenly vanished. O.O The proffessor came over to me stood over my shoulder the entire class period and showed me how to do every problem though. I knew how to do some of it, but like I said, it was a review. Next week is the final. Im a bit nerveous about that. -___-

My lovely voice was heard across the class today in my Modern Social Problems class as the proffessor "bragged" about his video making skills, when he showed the entire class slideshows he had composed with our speeches on them. It was pretty funny. I had been completely terrified of my picture being up on this huge screen, but it wasnt that bad. He uploaded them on Youtube today. Take a look....

I sound really country. XD Guess thats what you get from a southern girl.

After class I ran around in town for a while, then came home. I'm really tired. I feel completely beat. *sigh* Oh well, at least I've survived another day. XD

April 27, 2008

So, I went to the play the other day. It was okay. I still didnt enjoy it. I would have rather had stayed home on the internet, but oh well. I already did my response to the play as well. Which means the only thing I have left before graduation in two weeks is 3 more essays, 1 more quiz, and 3 final exams. My graduation is May 8th. Ill get my Associates in Arts degree, which is pretty much my college basics (English, Algebra, etc.). Ill be doing the last quiz tommorrow probably, and then I will do the exams as they come. The essays will have to be done on my schedule. It may prove to be interesting.

Anyways, I got up this morning and took a shower. I grabbed my laptop and put on some clothes and headed off to school. School was interesting today. I set in the computer lab after class for a long time. There were several people in there, and it appears that I have gained a reputation in the lab. o.O Aparantly I am known as the funny angry girl from the computer lab. This idea was formed from when I first took my laptop to the computer lab. The internet went stupid and completely knocked me off and froze. It tried to lock me out of the system. In my fury I started shouting profanity at the computer. Poor Cindy (My laptop's name, yes I named it. I had wanted a laptop for a long time and when I finally got one she was so special to me I named her.) didnt know what to do. She was just trying to work for me. So, the only other two people in there aparantly thought it was funny. I get emails and comments all the time now saying. "Hey there angry girl from the computer lab." Weird.

I probably shouldnt have been cursing at the computer, but I was just so frustrated, and annoyed at everything all at once I couldnt resist. I was just too mad to care. I feel bad about it now. :(

Interesting fact: I didnt have to eat greasy McDonalds before the play.

Another interesting fact: A person who was supposed to be my friend has been out talking about me behind my back again. This is the second time within the past two weeks that Ive heard about it. I told her about it the first time, and theres nothing to stop me from doing it a second time. It really hurts me how people will pretend to be your friend to your face, but honestly couldnt care less if you went and jumped off a cliff. I dont know if Ill confront her about it this time or not. I think Ill just leave sleeping dogs lying. It just really hurts me. A couple of people have told me I need new friends, I am begining to agree.

Anyways, heres a little video from the play. You guys can all enjoy a moment of the torture I endured. XD Its not that bad, but please remember it is about my community and Im a southern country girl.

Well, I survived it, and I got to eat a lovely baked potatoe from Rax, so I'm content. If only everything else in life was so simple as to be solved with a baked potatoe.