So's not going so well...

Ehehehe...

I feel I should just tell you guys I haven't worked on my manga at all...and I kinda have to restart...

Right now I'm just being lazy. After some thinking I actually like it even more ('cause I finally figured out the personality for one of the main boys...~! X3 Too cute...sorry...he's just too cute...;w; ).

After watching lots of dramas...and reading lots of shoujos (more like staring holes in them...*cough*) I've realized my problem with my manga.

So I have to re-do parts of it...possibly. Unless I can fit stuff in. It shouldn't even be a big problem, but I'm being very lazy.

I kept feeling like there was something missing in my shoujo...and now I've realized there's a LOT missing, so it seems very dull. I think it's good that I've figured that out or else you'd get a very very disappointing shoujo manga.

It also makes it easier on me that I've figured out what I needed to figure out. Now I know how to make a proper summary and use all the ideas I wanted to in this. It's kinda like an epiphany...XD

Considering I haven't done anything, though, I feel very bad. I mean all I've done is really just draw pics for people on DA and watch dramas. That's it. It seems like a complete waste of time.

But I want to hurry with my requests (which shouldn't be a problem since I only have 4 more to go, and 1 just needs to be coloured/inked and I'm not spending so much time fixing them this time...XD) so I can start doing commissions. Hopefully my mom can help me with all the financial stuff (like...explaining it to me...I know nothing about money) since she's just started her new business (congratulations Mommy~! X3)

And I've also been lazy about studying all the things I've been wanting to study (my entire life...pooh...>3>). I think that's just because I keep getting disappointed by these language programs...either they cost way too much, or I'm ahead in that language, or it doesn't offer things like boarding and are too far away, and all sorts of things.

I don't have anything to do this summer. Ugh...I hate it...hate it so much. This is a time where people are busy doing things, going on trips, going to summer camps. What am I doing? Nothing. I don't really want to go on a trip anywhere (because I hate every state around me except for maybe a few of the states above the one I live in) unless it's to another country (which isn't going to happen). I'm not the type of person to go outside...and...

I don't know how many times I have to say it. I really truly hate where I live with the greatest amount of passion. Though it is rude for me to say it to the people who live, and are proud to live where I do, I can't stop these feelings. Huh!

Gotta get that out there. I also feel bad for saying it, because my mom wanted to live here, and she likes the country, and I know she feels that she's done me wrong. She hasn't there are many opportunities here...but...nothing will make me love this state.

I'm not saying the state 'cause it's embarrassing...and yeah, I hate it so much, I hate saying it's name. It's bade to hate things, but I do. I do hate it so much.

Okay...now I'm crying. See that passion (erhm, read that passion). Okay I'm gonna black it out now.

I black out rants (if you haven't noticed)! XD

I watched some video of Kamenashi Kazuya from KAT-TUN on some TV show (not exactly sure of the name since I can't find any information about it). I have to say, he reminds me of my dad! XD It's so weird to make that connection, but he does! XD Sorry, really random comment...XD

Oh! Another weird personal-ish connection I made with somebody. This one made me cry when I read it(well, I guess I really do cry at everything...XD) Utada Hikaru said that her childhood dream was a mangaka or a scientist in a lab coat. Why did that make me cry? That is EXACTLY EXACTLY EXACTLY EXACTLY EXACTLY what I wanted to be when I was little. In fact, there are drawings I made from class of what I wanted to be, and it was a scientist in a white lab coat, and on the days where you would dress up as your dream career character I would always dress up as a scientist in a white lab coat.

But I was confused. I actually wanted to be a mangaka, but I didn't know how to explain that because at the time I didn't really...well, when you're little it's hard to explain things very well.

Anybody else had the same childhood dreams?

I just find that so strange. Maybe hers wasn't the same as mine...but it still shocked me.

Sorry for the long post! ;m;

Here's an awesome song for you guys~!:

Oh! And I've found some amazing DA artists recently. (Well, some of them are artists I've been following on pixiv for a while and suddenly found out they had DA accounts, too):

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