2 posts in a row! amazing isnt it? lol.
So now i am lost. When you fall for someone, and then learn more about maybe...there faults. you know, like the bad things about them....what do you do? should i just wait and see how it plays out? all the while both of us just...falling even deeper for each other :P i guess im just...afraid of where this relationship will go. In the beginning i ended up glamorizing the whole thing. Thinking Ron was some amazing guy who could change me.
I wont tell you what his flaws are, but i will say that they really kind of hit a sensitive spot in me. its honestly something i have tried very hard to get away from in my life. and here it is, in the form of my amazing guy.
He is a smart guy, but i can only envision where his bad habits will lead him in the future.
you know what? in things such as that....i can only reassure myself that i wont do those things. and that in the end, he is the ron i know and love anyway. and who knows, maybe i can do a bit of changing in him.
on a side-note. this whole thing is feeling surreal. i have never felt this way about someone. its completely new to me. i still...dont know how to go about it. sometimes i just wish we were officially together so i could smother and cuddle him with my love every single moment :P
but because we work together, and because he is 8 years older, and because i am totally shy...i know it will take quite awhile to actually...be where i want us to be.
if it even goes that far :P although i will be heartbroken if it doesn't. im confident though.
so getting past all that. i have been completely out of touch with my writing. But i recently have been reading some of HP lovecrafts short stories. and now i want to just...create my own novel of short stories =3 november is coming up, and for those that dont know. november is the national novel writing month where you can make an account at www.nanowrimo.org and try and write your own novel of 50k words in one month! for a writer...its an amazing experience.
so i think this year, im just going to do a whole novel of short stories that in some way....connect with each other. i havent worked out the details really lol :P
