This is the most critical moment.
First off:
Everyone I owe artwork to, I apologize. My art supplies got lost in international mail limbo and if things work out properly, I may receive them next week after over 6 months of loss.
But yeah, we've got a lot of catching up to do.
I am in a critical moment right now.
Out of nowhere I was sent out on a 6-month combat deployment, and I finally got back last week.
I was in the Middle East during some pretty hectic times. Can't get too much into detail, obviously, but it was a critical time and place to be. Thankfully, I am alive, and so are my teammates, but honestly, the most stressful part about everything has been the massive clerical issues of my return home.
Managing my return from getting a new place to doing the paperwork to preparing to a new job, all of that in the middle of a Gov shutdown, THAT part has caused so much stress and headache that it ain't even funny. Fatigue started to get to me in a way that it never has before. Normally, I'm very physically resilient, but last week I was super restless. Felt like my heart was going to jump out of my chest, I started to get the shakes, I couldn't sleep, and it felt like I was sprinting 24/7.
It was so weird because I would either sleep a lot or I would be up all day/night on/off for a few days.
Thankfully, I am now able to get some rest because I have some time to go home and visit family. But even NOW, there's no rest for the weary, because even during my rest period I have some things I need to work on.
Cat's outta the bag, but I have been trying to apply for a program that allows me to go to Law School. Tricky thing about that is, the Law School timeline and my current timeline are so nonstandard that I can't catch a break. Even on my off-time from this deployment, I have been having to answer a bunch of messages and get more info to finish the Law School process.
I'm under the gun to accomplish all of these things, and it seems like a grand struggle to get the Law School train going. There's a possibility that even if I get accepted to Law School, that I'll be forced out because my current job could just override my application even if I'm qualified.
*SIGH*
It's a massive headache.
This is something that I've been working for for over 10 years. This is the culmination of all of my hard work and determination and patience and toughing my way through endless seas of nonsense, clerical issues, admin interruptions and more.
This is my Winter Arc.
Maybe I can eke out a few days of actually being able to rest, but I've been on full cylinders for a long time.
With that, my exploits and time to watch anime or enjoy myself has been pushed back even further than ever before, since I've been so preoccupied with everything.
I may be able to go to a Convention or two before the year is over, but we'll see.
Hell, doing something as simple as getting my friends together to just catch up and have a beer seems like a miracle since we all have so many different competing interests and we're almost never free around the same time.
Hate to be so serious on this update, but I am still alive and kicking. These things are going to take a long time to straighten out, but I will still be around from time to time to see what's what on the streets of TheO.
How y'all been?
-Kazama
