The Life and Crimes of I

Name: Kimberly
Nicknames: Kimi, Kimi-chan, Kim, KitKat, Kitten-chan, The dumbest smart person in the world (courtesy of my friends and family), Crazy/Psycho/Insane, Genius, la-fee-de-morte(deviantArt), Katana Black(FanFiction.net), Katana Black (FictionPress.com), Katsody (GaiaOnline), Katsody (TinierMe)
Residence: East Coast, USA
Interests: Reading, writing, music, gaming, manga, learning. I'm a writer, a musician, a gamer, and a scientist. If Barnes and Noble, Game Stop, a biological research lab, and a ramen shop all decided to collaborate on a single store, I would live there for the rest of my natural life and be in pure bliss.

Favorites:
Genre(s) of Music: Classical, neo-classical, rock, reggaeton
Song(s): Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children, One-Winged Angel, Vanessa-Mae, Bach Street Prelude
Artist(s): Bond, Clint Mansell, The Used, Ludwig van Beethoven, John Williams, Black Violin, Muse, t.A.T.u., Killswitch Engage, 30 Second to Mars, Vanessa-Mae, Utada Hikaru, Emilie Autumn, 3OH!3, BoA, Dir en Grey, Tokio Hotel, Paul Oakenfold
Game(s): Kingdom Hearts, Soul Calibur, Mortal Kombat, The World Ends With You
Gaming Platform: Xbox 360, PS2
Character(s): Train Heartnet (Black Cat), Ludwig Kakumei (Ludwig Kakumei), L and Light (DeathNote), Axel and Riku (Kingdom Hearts), Kakashi-sensei (Naruto), Curious George, Sho Minamimoto (TWEWY)
Book: Crime and Punishment, Fyodor Dostoevsky
Manga(s): Black Cat, DeathNote, Rurouni Kenshin, Buso Renkin, Ludwig Kakumei, Kuroshitsuji, Axis Powers Hetalia, and Deadman's Wonderland
Color(s): Black, red, pink
Food(s): BBQ chicken, ramen
Dessert(s): rum raisin ice cream, chocolate pocky
Fruit: watermelon
Animal: felines

Tools of the Trade: Mental instability and something to write with. A good soundtrack doesn't hurt, either.
Favorite Quote: "When I play with my cat, who knows whether she is not amusing herself with me more than I with her." --Michel de Montaigne

Welcome to my world! Please buckle up and keep your hands and feet inside the vehicle at all times. Don't worry about emergency exits; there are none. If you wish to exit before the ride is over, you do so at your own risk. If you sustain any form of brain damage, IQ reduction, and/or psychological disorder from any of these rides, I will not be held liable. Have a nice day and enjoy your trip!

Created By Rexikat Rhapsody

Update

Wow, I haven't updated here in a while. I guess I've just been really busy. ^^'

College applications, schoolwork, choir, band, mock trial, home life, friends, my future--just a few of the things I've been dealing with pretty heavily over the past couple of months. Once all that college stuff is over with, I'll probably be updating here more often.

In other news, I now have a GaiaOnline as well as TinierMe account. My name's Katsody on both, if you want to add me. ^^

I've got so many stories I need to finish! I've started at least four short stories, and I need to finish them by Christmas (mostly because I don't want to drag them on longer than that). There are a few fanfictions and one original fiction, so you'll probably see the fanfictions up in Down The Rabbit's Hole.

Um. I'm actually in Chem AP (which is the worst class ever--don't take it!), so I'll probably have to go soon. Please, someone give me a concrete point to why anybody cares about the bond angles between the nitrogen and the oxygen atoms in a nitrate ion?

With much love,
Kat B.

Stupid Gaia Quiz Questions >.<

Lol, this will take me forever to finish. You can totally ignore this post, if you actually take the time to read these. By the way, my username on Gaia (which I just joined!) is Katsody. So, maybe if I know you and you know me, we can be friends....

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Vincent Valentine Love

My best friend is now in love with Vincent Valentine. I finally introduced her to the world of Final Fantasy today when I made her watch Advent Children with me. She loved it, and now desire to make Vincent Valentine her husband. I told she would love him, and she told me I was right. I love her.

I also had her watch a couple episodes of Black Cat with me. She loved that, too. Now we're going to have a Black Cat party so we can watch the whole thing. Ah, yes, the joys of a newly indoctrinated member to the anime community. :3

School starts for me in four days on Demyx Day! 9/9/09 only comes once. Ever. I'm glad it's the first day of school, so now I have at least one thing to be happy about.

I also got Pokemon Platinum, and in playing it, realized the one reason I hated pokemon--it takes so damn long to level up those stupid pokemon! Fighting battle after battle against wild pokemon gets tedious after a while, but it's worth it in the end.

And another sign that I know the school year is coming--I'm more in the mood to write than ever. Which is what I'm about to go do now, so toodles!

Happily yours,
K. Black

And Now It's Over

Summer's done, and I feel like I've accomplished nothing. Maybe even de-complished, if I can make up that word. And I can, because I've got literary fucking license.So there. Nyeah.

I've got my driving license, though. There's one accomplishment. And Cole Blackwell, Interviewed. That's another one. But there's still so much to be done, writing aside. I'm kind of hoping that I'll be able to fall back into it once school starts again, and I'm juggling schoolwork with the pressing desire to write. But now not only is it schoolwork, it's college applications as well. Grrrrrg.

Then there's the issue of me having not yet decided on a goal for this school year. Like how last year, I think, was supposed to be getting physically stronger (which is pretty much every year) as well as working on my social skills. This year, I just don't know what to work for anymore. Because it's like, okay, I don't really see the point of dating right now. Or pretty much ever.

Actually, I think what I'm getting at is a paradox. I want love, but I can't imagine who would love me. I think I'm (relatively) beautiful (at least, Corinth says so...), but at the same time...you know? I doubt anyone looks at me and finds me attractive like that. Like, I can't reconcile myself with my humanity or something.

Ugh, that was weird.

But the point was, after my little revelation that there really is not point to life on Earth at all, I'm kinda lost. I keep asking myself, "Why?" and I'm not finding an answer, but I think I can live with that. It's when I ask myself, "Why live?" and I come up with the answer, "For someone else," that I get all screwy. Because that goes straight against what I've been telling myself for the past...like, five years. That I don't need anyone else to make living worth while, life is good enough to enjoy on my own without anyone else fucking it up. And then I say to myself, "Well, what was wrong with that?" And my hormones say, "EVERYTHING!" And I laugh. Because I can ignore them. What I can't ignore is that little instinctual tug that every human being feels as an animal with grouping tendencies, that sort of animalistic need for companionship. That's what gets to me. And what pisses me off even more is that even if I wanted to break it down into a series of chemical reactions and biological processes (which I do probably more often than is psychologically healthy), I still want it. Because even though I really don't want to be dating in high school (too much drama, and all anybody ever wants is sex--not that it's a bad thing, just...sex really isn't that big of a deal to me), it's very hard to ignore the little twinge I get every time I see two of my close friends who happen to be dating throwing around cute nicknames and stuff.

And now it's raining. I like the sound, though.

I feel like a teenager. God, it sucks. I think I need to learn to be more social. I don't know. Then there's the whole identity crisis thing...meh.

I think...I don't know. I'm saying that a lot lately. Should I open up more to people and be more honest about what I'm really feeling? Or should I stay safely inside my own head, where I can trust myself to take care of me?

Confuffledly yours,
K. Black (my new penname :])

In The Red Corner...

I'm back again, after a week in Kissimmee, Florida. We went to Epcot, which would have been better if I didn't get a splitting migraine by the end of the day. But it was fun. I got a stuffed Chococat and named her Saya. Yes, I'm a child like that.

But now school starts again in a week, and I'm in over my head. I've got my driving test tomorrow morning, an orthodontist appointment and a scholarship reception on Thursday, an AP Chem assignment to start, let alone finish, and I'm sure there are things I'm already forgetting I have to do. Like I told my mother, there is no such thing as vacation.

On top of it all, I'm having, like, a crisis of age or something, because I feel like I'm getting older, but I'm not getting any more mature. I can't believe this time next year, I'll be moving into a dorm. It's weird, because I'm ready to move out and go to college and stuff, but I feel like everybody else my age is so much older than me even though...they're not. XS

Anyhow, I don't know how much writing I'll be getting done in the next week, but knowing me, I'll blow off the chemistry and and finish something off for ya. Probably that Hamlet stuff. Toodles!

Stressfully yours,
Kimi