Uggghh *head-desks* I told you guys I'd give an update but... but... so much time that I need to waste ;n;
First off RANDOM COOL THING:
So, camping? Camping was GREAT. Hiking, card games, CAKE, and awkward sunburns. About as awesome as it gets. It was fun having Zoe there~ We got to spent almost 24-7 with each other! Not that we weren't used to it from band trips.
Holy cow, I've been like a factory, putting out so many wallpapers at onec >.< I think I've reached a sort of art block, though. I've made a couple wallpapers (one of the Elric brothers and one of Shin from Amnesia), but I can't decide whether they're fine and I can post them or terrible and I should burn. Wait, burning them would ruin my laptop.... delete them, then.
I've been more conscientious than usual lately. Exercise AND doing homework? What am I, striving for college and a boyfriend or something? ...Oh... yeah... right...
Speaking of Ninja, things are going pretty good- nah, I take that back. This are going really good. We've become better friends, having multiple conversations on a regular basis and such. Nothing in regards to romanticism, but as I've said in the past - best friends first, then significant others.
On a more emotional note, I've been struggling with something I hardly ever struggle with - self esteem. It's not like I'm going around declaring myself a worthless being, but for the past month or two I've noticed that my stomach has done something it normally does over winter - grow larger. Maybe that's why the exercise - to get rid of my winter flub. Not that anyone calls me fat - the only declaration of that I've ever gotten came from a Heath textbook that put me in the range of "overweight". Like I said, it's not usually like me - but I suppose it could be partially because Ninja is a freakin' petite thing (compared to most guys, at least) and I've been thinking about what others will think supposing we do become significant others. Half the time I wonder why he acts like he might like me back at all. This poet puts my emotions better into words (warning, swears):
.....ON A POSITIVE NOTE I got my grades up to a lot more than I thought they'd be. I think I got around a B average - a lot better than some of my past report cards. Not to mention I got my ACT score back - 30! I equaled or beat all my friends on my first try .3. I'm taking it a second time next Saturday - wish me luck!
I got asked to prom by a friend (we'll call him Italy, yes, as in from Hetalia). I went with him last year, too, and he's sweet and all, but he's not the type of guy I want.
I know I owe you guys my review of xxxHolic Kei, too, and don't worry... I'll make it... eventually... hopefully tomorrow...
SO ANYWHO GOODBYE
