ever hgave one of those days when yu forget to set yur alarm for school or yu just dont get up in time when it goes off? and then yur parents come in and yell at yu? i have been geting really annoyed at that cuz unfortunatly i have one of those "assuming" moms that think they know everything and it ticks me off when she assumes something about me that is waaaay off target and worse part is she wont let me correct her without calling it "badmouthing" which im not trying to do cuz im trying to keep a nice calm neutral voice. at this point tho she is making that very difficult.
like this morn i came really close to actaully yelling at her for the first time in my life. normaly when i get up for school o wake up to the alarm clock (which is kinda fualty keep that in mind) and get dressed n stuff and head out ON time and get to school ON time with no problems. now i do this very often and only a few rare occassions like maybe once or twice A MONTH or not even that much more like every other month, i either miss the bus or dont get up on time and there are reasons for that too. but what ticks me off is when she comes in first thing yells at me, assumes she knows what im thinking and then storms off not letting me have my say in any of it and she does this everytimes it happens.
she assumes that just cuz i dont get on bed on time thats the reason i dont get up. correction its the reason i dont WILLINGLY want to get up
but dangit i force my lazy butt up and i go whether i want to or not!! this morn my faulty alarm clock didnt go off to wake me up and i ended up sleeping in. she came into my room first thing and yelled at me about going to bed on time. that wouldnt have helped ANYTHING!! i still would have missed the alarm i still would have been late!!! i still would have slept in! she said that if i went to bed ont ime then i would be able to get up on time without the alarm....we all know thats a load of bull. i may have woken up early before cuz of it but not once in my life did i wake up the exact time i was supposed to and the alarm didnt go off, and she knows that!! and wats more she is blamig the fact that it didnt go off on me!! like i could have helped that!! >O the alarm is supposed to wake ME up darnit not the other way around! and stop assuming yu knows everything about me and how i think cuz yu dont know everything!! yu dont know what i think and just becuz we go thru similair things doesnt mean yu know what i go thru everyday no matter how much yu say so. our experiences are different and she needs to understand that just becuz i stay up late doesnt mean i dont try my hardest to get my butt up for school each morn!! i still set my alarm and i stilll force myself up. i dont just slack off and get lazy and just not set the alarm clock. i mean granted there are a few times when i forget to do so and i know that. and there are times where i made the mistake of sleeping thru my alarm and ill admit that too!! but no ones perfect!! we make our mistakes and we have to learn from them! i personally think that my mistakes are for me to experiment with! even tho i make a few rare mistakes she acts like she is all perfect herself. but no! and yu know what i would be able to get pass that, i would be able to forget alllll thast if i can just get a word in to fend for and explain myself!! i mean when she blamed me for my alarm not going off that ticked me off to no end!! and when i said that wat does sleep have to do with my alarm going off she snapped at me and said that if i was on my schedul i would wake up on time without the clock. ok granted that i would be able to get up easier that doesnty mean ill just automaticly wake up on time on the dot every flipping time!! im not some dam robot that will wake up perfectly on time, get dressed on time, and be on time for everything!!! i try to do the best i can to get up on time but it doesnt help when she yells at me whenever i screw up.
to make it worse is when she holds it over my head!! she like keeps a score of how many times i do it and everytimes i do it she makes it seems like i do it either on purpose or every week!! she doesnt even bother to look at all the times i DID wake up ON time drag my self up and get to class on time!! she nvr bring that up whenever i get to class on time but yu better beleive that if i screw up i get an eternity worth of lectures about it like i was doing it on purpose just as a escuse not to go.
i just wish that for once she would shut her trap and freakin listen for a change and stop assuming she knows stuff she dont! i want to tell her that yes there are times where i make my mistakes like sleeping thru my alarm when it is set or forgetting to set it when its not, im not gonna deny that cuz im not perfect yu know? everyone makes that mistake at one point or another and im trying to learn from my mistake and im trying my best not to do that. and yes i know i wake up tired if i stay up late but thats MY proiblem, let ME deal with that, i know what im doing and i know the results of my choices.. i know that if i stay up late i will have a hard time gettting up, but there are sometimes reasons behind why i do that. some are simple like i cant get to sleep cuz im restless and some are harder to explain..
but to all the parents out there watever the reason is that yur child isnt getting up on time for class and such, at least do us all a favor and let them explain themselves BEFORE yu jump to conclusions...cuz it is years of things like that, that helps the whole "rebellious stage" im sure that if yu give them a chance to give thier side of the story before passing judgement things would be a bit easier on yu both. and dont just sit there and glare at them pretending to listen when we all know yur not we may be yur children but we know when yu dont want to listen. i mean actually listen to our side. like they say "there are two sides to every story" there is what YU think and what they think. two different veiws that need to be heard before further steps are taken. and trust me if yur kids backtalk at yu after something like that (i mean when they have a good reason to not just bein a smartas) there is a reason for that and it is cuz they know yu are not listening.
*takes a deep breath and sighs* ok.... i think im done now i think that is it for the day. so take care everyone and remember to get some well needed rest out there. also be sure that yur alarm clock is turned on before yu just assume that it is turned on, i made that mistake a few times too hehehe. ^^;;
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