Ugh, damn it. Can't update anything this week. = [] =" sorry about that. I have lots of sketches and drawings piled up but I can't finish even one. TT__TT
Ok, I really don't want to post any personal stuff here but I will. Lol. I think I just need to let it all out...
Let's start with my problems at school. Haha, It's really disappointing. I used to have a line of 1 in all my subjects before. (1 being the highest - 5 lowest) I'm pretty much someone you can call grade conscious. How can't I turn that way if I have a brother who really excels in art and a sister who really excels in her academic studies and now she's taking Law in one of the prestigious schools here in my country. She's even planning in studying abroad. I don't hate them. I don't. Actually I'm grateful to them because they drove me to do better.. well, not really better than them, but to myself. So now, I saw my grades and they all drop to 2 or 3. Not really good. I don't even want to show them to my parents... So now I'm pretty much depressed over my grades.
Basically my grades went downhill because first of all, I got into a school fight with those popular kids. Then I'm not getting along with my classmates, and soon after that, I started doubting myself if I can make it into becoming a professional painter. Yes, my major is painting. Well, they're all connected to one another.. GAH!!!! There was a time last sem that I don't even want to go to school anymore. Those incidents happened all at once. And I even remember myself getting really thin because I don't have the energy to eat. LOL.
The other day, I gave a letter to one of my professors, telling him that I decided to change my major. He told me I should make a letter addressing to the college secretary or dean. Before I left, he told me it's a waste of talent, he told me that he sees me as an excellent student. I didn't replied back. None of my professors knew I had a fight inside my college. None of them even knew the cold treatment I'm getting in my class. It's really depressing to see things turn out that way. AKDJASKLDJAKDN.. oh well.I have to fix a lot of things right now in my real life. Hopefully things will turn out much better than before. :) I had another manga story in my mind inspired from every little thing that had happened to me in school but I'll just write them down for now.. I haven't even finished Usagi to Kaeru. TT__TT gah, I'll work on that one asap.
Ok, I'll update again next time!
Probably I'll write something more positive. = w ="
