Confusion

God help me i dont know whats happenng anymore...should i think positive or negative??? is it what i hope for or is it going down the wrong path??? Just when i finally have the, excuse my language, BALLS to do it things start turning and i dont know if I am hitting a dead end or its an open road...
I really dont know anymore...Monday will have the answer when i do this one special thing...my first time doing a special order but i really do hope its all worth it.....

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