yet againnnnn

PFFF
yet again as in
lol im feelin like shit orz unfortunate...I was doing so good at keeping posotive until recently

*huffs* '_' I wish ranting helped sometimes. somethings just cant be ranted about effectively though so orz

Im just tired of my self esteem issues....Id love to see day in my life where i feel happy to be myself instead of hating my very existence |:
see, I sound like an emo kid already LOL orz
blah *falls over* no ambition
nooooo ambition

uf
gonna try to draw again...hopefully itll work B< I tried already once but... I got distracted by DFO :.D it's been like that for the past week or two. My lack of tablet is really throwing me off '_'
stupid thing had to go and be too old for my computer
then the other stupid tablet had to decide to not work just because the drivers dont like it no matter how many times i install them |:

heres some shit ive doodled over the past....godknows how long '_'
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no that isnt Light. it just so happened to come out like that.
I'm secretly hoping that practicing more realistic styles just for the fact of knowing them will give me more confidence....probably not but
I've been so off with art since 9th grade...I cant even show people what i draw. litterally noone in real life is allowed to see my drawings c.B It makes me feel like i want to throw up
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for fun i found some awesome DFO illustrations of moves in-game :D
they make me happy c.B
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I'm pretty sure this is a lv.11 skill...might be 15 but im pretty sure its 11 lawl
one of the Gunner staple skills lawl...you really shouldnt be a gunner without it LOL

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I'm also pretty sure this is a...level 20 skill...could be wrong. I'm a nerd, not a genius :.D
just one of my personal favorite skills....seriously when you craft a class around blood, that makes my insides all warm and fuzzy

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