So I'm posting this now since I wasn't available to tell it yesterday. But yesterday wasn't a good day to be me. Not in the least.
I woke up, perfectly fine and happy with some time to spare before I had to go to my friend's place for the night. So I took a nap for about an hour. I probably shouldn't have done so. The dream I had... I can't explain it. But. It scared me. Real bad.
(My dreams are really effed up at some parts.... So don't question, please.)
It was a regular summer day and everything was going fine. My dad invited two guests over and we had to prepare a simple dinner before they arrived. I didn't want to help, but I had to. I didn't even want them to come over. But by the time they came, dad and I went outside to eat with them and mom stayed inside to rest because she wasn't feeling well. We started eating once everyone was settled. I went to grab a few chips from the bowl, when one of the guests grabbed my hand and held onto it tightly, her grip only getting tighter. I told her to stop, because it was starting to hurt from her and the chips that were pressing into my palm. I looked at my dad and he didn't even notice. She finally let go, all the chips crumbled, and a small cut left behind on my thumb from a sharp piece of a chip scratching it. Even though it was small, my anger grew from just the simple fact that she tried to hurt me. I tried to attack, but dad held me back, not even caring about what she did. Even more angered from that, once I was released, I pushed her inside to show my mom. By that time, the cut was big enough to were it was bleeding. I told my mom that the guest tried to hurt me. My mom just looked at me, shrugged and said "So? Now go finish treating our guests to dinner." I looked up at her horrified and speechless. She didn't care either. I looked back down, and the cut was growing, bleeding more and faster. Black.
And then I woke up. Shaking and having the need to cry. Literally.
I can't explain it. Forgive me for posting it, I just have the need to still vent it. It scared me so bad. I've never had a neglectful dream, nor have I ever woken up where I was shaking and tears threatening to fall.
After that... I showered and quickly got ready trying to forget it. I went to my friends, having fun and playing games.
My two friend's and I walked to the store for snacks, got them, and before we wanted to go back to their place, it was dark enough to where it looked like it was about to downpour. So we left and started walking faster when we saw a lightning strike off in the distance. It didn't start raining yet, but we took the short-cut through the path that was overgrown and had a fallen tree half way through it. After ducking under the tree and walking a bit further, we heard people calling out for something off the trail. Next thing we knew, three young pit-bull dogs run out of the trees and start sniffing and jumping on us. Of course, I didn't trust them one bit, so I screamed when they started jumping and froze completely, with all the color running out of my face. My friends kept walking but one had to come back for me and take my hand to lead me away. The dogs were friendly enough, I suppose, but it doesn't mean I wasn't terrified. I was shaking so bad when my friend came back for me. I was still shaking when we got back to their place.
oTL awful... Terrible day... To be Jenny at some points yesterday. The rest was all fun and good, yes! But those points... I just needed to tell. ;n; so scared....
On the brighter note, though... I turned more friends into Trauma Center/Team players. C:
But yes... Completely ignore this post if you want. I just needed yesterday typed out. I think I need a nice long... Peaceful break from just everything...
