killmepleasealready
Hi, I'm Caitlin.
I'm seventeen and I live in New Hampshire, USA.
I pretty much hate majority of my life, but whatever.
I don't give a shit if you think how I am is bullshit, what you think doesn't matter.
I'm so fucking sick of fake ass people.
But whatever, life is life, I can deal.
Have a nice day everyone.
Anyone have myspace and/or AIM that'd like to get to know me or add me go ahead just tell me where you're from please.
MySpace - http://myspace.com/xxocaitlinx
AIM - xxoCaitlinXx

Just because I smile, doesn't mean I'm happy

pleasedon'thurtmeiwasonlytellingyouthetruthisn'tthatwhatyouwanted?

Tsk tsk. ........... I feel lost and hopeless.

I'm bad.
I haven't been to school all week.

My dad got my make up work for english ROTC and biology.
I have so many papers for english!
Apprently we're starting to read Frankenstein as well..

I hate reading books for class!!!!!!!

I'm kinda torn up I didn't get to go to the budget meeting on Monday.
There was also a drivers ed meeting after school Thursday i could've gone to.
I doubt I'm gonna be able to even take it...

I think I'm don'e with painting my room.
One dark blue wall.
Two walls of light blue with dark blue stipes.
One wall of light blue.
And inside my closets a deep, dark red.
Oh I also painted the trim.

I need to paint the base boards, the molding, and perhaps the heater coverings.
Maybe do another coat of paint in my closet, or at least touch up a bit.

Half the outlet/switch/cable blahblahblah covers need to be replaced.
My mom was thinking about getting silver ones at least for the light switches.

Wash floors, windows, furniture. Blahblahblah.

I took everything off my bulliten board.
All the pictures, random things and such.
Allllllllllll it.
Instead of the big thick line of pink.
It's not a black silky material with metallic blue lips all over it.
Lips are kinda girly... but it's nice colors and It's oh so much better than that pink.

Yea/.... I don't know when my room will actually get done.
I haven't slept in my bed almost two weeks, and I haven't with my dogs for a week unless my dad lets them come down to the couch and lay on me trying to smother me while I sleep.

He was getting Jules to jump on me and bark at me trying to wake me around 11-12 earlier.
it was annoying.

Hmmmmmmmm...........

My moms stepdad has really high blood pressure. She said it was somethign like 205 over 115?
She said it's been like that all week... and he could have a stroke.
That'd be sad... my poor little Canadian grandfather =[
He's shorter than me >_<
He's only like... mid 60s too.
I don't want him to be the first grandparent of mine gone.. and I certianly don't want my grandmother living with me again.

My mom's tall.. ish and my dads tall.
My moms mother is like... 5'2"
My moms dad could be taller... only seen him like twice that i can remember in my life.
Once at my grandmothers old house when I was little, and another at my brothers confirmation when his son thats like a year older than my brother was getting confirmed as well.

My sister's complaining about Jules being in her bed -_-

I want my bed... I'd let them all sleep in here.
Or just my mattresss..... I don't like sleeping on the wood floor I didn't mind the carpet.
i think I might go see it I can pull out the trundle in the den. But my brothers furnitures in there.. I don't know.

I want my room back >_

Sorry...

Sorry but I just thought it was funny...
I was looking for a music video and this came up in that side thing like related search type thing.

Mkay.

Soooo, I'm in like horrible pain.

I just got back from the doctors.
They think I might have a kidney infection.

While I was camping, the second day I was having terrible pain in my side.
Started my back, then my side and blah.

now its lasting longer.
i woke up a couple times in the night.
And I had to sleep on the couch since my furnitures out of my room.

Anyways, I've puked twice today.
Not fun.

Taken three showers, to try and have the heat maybe soothe the pain.

I took two tylenol.
Then showered.]
Came down crying saying how it really hurt.
My mom thought i was faking it to get out of going to school.

cried from pain plenty today
uhhhh

went to the doctors.
didnt wanna
but i did
had to pee in a cup.
Didn't look like there was any blood but there is supposedly.
went to this lab place had to pee moreeeeee

Blah.
Should find out tomorrow if thats when i have or not.
It hurts.
I wanna lay down.
Byeeeee.

Mkay.

I'm sick.
I hate thissssss.

My throat kills, and my heads like a ticking bomb.
When i cough, my head theres like a big surge of pressure in my head.
When i sneeze, it burns my throat.

I slept alot yesterday, and alot today so far.

Weelllll, i'm going camping in the camperark.

Trying to find some campground or something up there I guess...

Byebyeee!!

I gotta go get packed n shit.

Dun dun dun, The adorable Dylan!


This is my not-yet-adopted-cousin Dylan.
He's 3 years old, about 3 1/2 there.
He'll be 4 in June.

He's sooo adorable.
And he's autistic.
His mom in Oregon couldn't take care of him anymore, so my aunt and grandmother went there and got him.
His not fully adopted yet.

Uhmmmmmmm
That's me talking to him, I know awful annoying voice but hell.
My Sister and other actually adopted cousin Josh are talking in the background.
We were in my basement.
And man did Dylan stink, but he refused to go get his diaper changed.
'Twas fun throwing legos in the boxes with him to try and help him clean up and go upstairs to get it changed though.
Uhhhhmmmm...

Here i'll find a picture if i can of him
Since the videos dark.