killmepleasealready
Hi, I'm Caitlin.
I'm seventeen and I live in New Hampshire, USA.
I pretty much hate majority of my life, but whatever.
I don't give a shit if you think how I am is bullshit, what you think doesn't matter.
I'm so fucking sick of fake ass people.
But whatever, life is life, I can deal.
Have a nice day everyone.
Anyone have myspace and/or AIM that'd like to get to know me or add me go ahead just tell me where you're from please.
MySpace - http://myspace.com/xxocaitlinx
AIM - xxoCaitlinXx
Just because I smile, doesn't mean I'm happy
pleasedon'thurtmeiwasonlytellingyouthetruthisn'tthatwhatyouwanted?
- Created By Asphyxiated Lapse
Dudeeeeeeee
I fucking love Guitar Hero III............
Once I got the hang of it i was goldennn.
WOO HOO!
But it is only on easy... soo uh yea. Hehh, for me it's amazing let's leave it at that. i almost as good as my brother. And my brothers are good at video games..
My face is so freaking hotttttttttttttttt
It's been like that lately.
Fuckin blistering hot and my fingers and nose ice cold.
Oh well...
i'm bored.
It's Sunday night, and I'm not tired an ounce.But i have a stomach ache all the sudden >_<
I gotta pee, then i'll go play more Guitar hero I think.
Uhm, dunno what to title this.
Okay, I know this probably sucks and is really boring. But, I've just felt like writing a story. I'm never too sure what to write of when I go to write though, so.. Please, could if you read this tell me honestly what you think and such. It would be much appreciated. Even if you totally hate it..
Thank you,
Caitlin..
Chapter I
The doctors said there was things wrong with her even before she had been born.. worried she'd turn out wrong. But nope, she was perfect as the bright, sunny day she was born. She was their first daughter of the three kids now, and what a precious angel they thought she was.
Grew up daddy's little girl, his pumpkin head. Her mom despised the nickname but he insisted. Sometimes he'd take her out for late night rides when she couldn't sleep, watched her all day long and worked third shift while she slept the night away. Took her to McDonald's where they'd share a large fry. She loved Beauty and the Beast, it was her favorite movie. Took naps together in the afternoon. So tiny and sweet, and her daddy loved her so much.
Of course, he had to spend time with her older brother's as well. They were only just a year apart, and everyone treated them as if to have been twins. They were four and five years older than her, Brendan the oldest was more quiet and reserved like his mother, and Justin more like his father; wilder and more adventurous. Each got along with their similar parent better, but loved them both dearly.
As the baby girl got older, she and her brothers were babysat in the summer. Now looking back she remembered how the babysitter was mean to them. She'd yell and boss them around. Get mad for the little one spitting her gum out in the sidewalk infront of their condo. They had just gotten back from the park a few blocks away between the elementary and middle schools. They all had rather disliked her.
And then came her preschool years, school for 3-5 year olds in a church across the city.. She had a best friend, Rejean. He was tiny too, especially since they were only about 3. Him and her would sit under the desk and suck their thumbs together. He'd help her when her earrings got stuck in the carpet. Played with the numerous toys, walked to the park across the street as partners together with the rest of the class. Almost as if they were unseperable.
All she remembers about her next year as a four year old was having and accident during class. She was so embarrassed and upset over that. But her teacher was so sweet and nice, she had left the next year and she found out she had worked at a Payless shoe store and would visit her from time to time when she and her mother took her great-grandmother grocery shopping.
Maybe she doesn't remember things all to well from then because of something that had happened that year to her as well. It was the year when she tried getting Sam, the family cat out from under a side table and had a somewhat deep cut on the side of her wrist from glass under the table. Her daddy got to clean it by convincing her he had made the banaids into butterflies so she'd let him put them on. Today, she still has the scar but it's not nearly as significant.
In February her family moved, this is right before Justin had turned 9. They moved from the city to the town right next to it. Brendan had been having a rough time in school so that year her mom started him right off in the town and eventually they found a house. But her father and brothers took a karate class at the YMCA, the instructors daughter watched her during the classes for her father. She was about Justin's age, and he name was Madison. See, her grandmother wouldn't watch her when her mother had asked during the classes, and she believes that was the start of why her mother started to dislike, then hate, now loathe the girl's grandmother..
...
I can't believe he smokes.
I can't believe he changed so much.
I just can't...
He was the majority of the time nice brother.
Why'd he have to go and change...?
He was nicer then Ben to me.
Still could be a total jackass but at least somewhat paid any attention to me.
Aren't older rothers supposed to love their little sisters?
I changed my necklace this morning, and all I could think about was him.
I only changed it from the butterfly pendant to a star.
He gave me it almost a year ago.
A year ago the thirteenth.
He's been out of the house a year..
And about a week.
I had to walk to my mom's office after school today..
Did a lot of thinking.
Thinking about my brothers.
How Jonathan it was probably all bull shit or pity that he was nice.
Cause he sure didn't give a crap when I saw him earlier.
Didn't say one word to me.
Ben at least will talk to me.
And he's a lot nicer than he used to be to me.
Maybe Ben really cares more than he leads on.
But then again I doubt it.
I guess I really just miss my brother...
But he's not even my brother anymore.
And on top that, my mothers still as always and probably will be forever, ashamed and embarrassed by me.
What a cake topper.
Wth?
What the hell?
Another 20?
Who the hell would be looking at this.
Ugh...
Some bitch was talking shit about my friend during class today.
She kept saying melissa was a bitch and that she needs to get punched. Then she was like, "Oh, is that your friend?"
Stupid fucking cunt. I was like "Uhh yea."
Then we got into this thing and i told her to shut the fuck up and such. She wouldn't stop saying oh whatcha gonna do about it? gonna do anything bout it? and I just ignored her and then she was whispering That i needed to get punched and I was tempted to fucking punch her and/or flip her desk over. Since it's the kind the seat and desktop are connected. Ughhhh
Too bad the class is too fucking noisy.
And we were doing a review game so it was louder than usual.
The beginning of class her and these two other chicks were gabbing about and the teacher yelled at them
So maybe thats why the stupid little sophomore was trying to be a tough barbie bitch.
STUPID DAMN BARBIES
Hmm...
Been a while.
Like all my posts I think I've said lately.
Uhmmm...
Idk.
I got 15 view in a day. how the?
I'm never on and don't update why would people be looking?
Whatever, nothign else to say.
Schools school, lifes same.
Uhhhhh bye.
I've kinda like, idk removed myself from otaku.
Don't have friends on here anymore so I don't care much for it..
Just makes me think of friends I thought I had that are gone for good.
Oh well, supposedly i seem happier and betteroff with out her.
Woo hoo!...........=/
Bye.
