HI everyone I am Cilla, (short for Priscilla) and I love words, music, drawing, movies, anime/manga, painting, and a ton of other stuff.
I will be writing on here and occasionally sharing my poetry or cool pics. I created this world to show the beauty in life and how sometimes our or my mistakes can become art or at least memorable.

I love to draw, paint and write and this is where I hope to express my feelings. So far my experience on theO has been very positive and Hopefully it continues that way. Any questions just ask and I'll be happy to answer them.

and with that, welcome to BEAUTIFUL MISUNDERSTANDINGS!

Contrast

Thinking about CONTRAST. There the dominant side of me that is really tough but there is also a softer side and I express it through emotions and poetry. I am very loyal, protective, loving and yet sometimes delicate. (Really not sure if that is the right word)

Anyway in a manga I love NANA. It is about two girls who are completely different, who are friends and it made me think of myself. Although I must say I am a bit more like the rock star Nana, but I do have similarities with the other. The manga is one of my favorites besides W Juliet, Ranma, Deathnote. Here's a picture I found that I like. Only wish it was in full color to highlight the differences more. Enjoy!

External Image

Thoughts for today

Found a quote that I really liked so I am putting it on here. It's pretty long but it's a good food for thought.

“Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.”
― Mother Teresa

The quote makes me think about not wasting life and going for my dreams. Accepting that things aren't always going to go as planned but to roll with what happens and pick yourself off the ground when you get knocked down.
I love the fact everyday you may or may not have stuff going on or scheduled whatever. It's pretty much up to you to decide what to do.

Today's going to be a good day. Hope you all have good day and my challenge to you is if its going rough, find something in the day or do something that YOU enjoy.

Untitled

Alright, I don't know what to call this piece of poetry. It was written a few years back and sadly I never finished it. Still it paints a pretty picture. Then there are some neat pics that showed up when I looked for images to match the words

Hope you enjoy and comment. Here it is

Catch the fire and hold it in
the palm of your hand
feel it's warmth.

Take the small seeds
scatter them everywhere
creating new life.

External Image

External Image

Another poem written in early 2006

TITLE: Do You Choose to Be?

Can you feel it?
Caught up in a crazy mess
confessions late at night
every time
its like a dream
where you wake up screaming
it's like a nightmare never ending
where everything is lost
never to be found
dreams unwound
high up up in the air
don't you feel anything?

wings
you soar
above the storm
never calm
peaceful
or serene
because you can't feel
the love
you feel abused
broken
you wish you hadn't been so outspoken

now
shouting from the speakers
you yell
you feel so much pain

don't you know?
it's up too you
choose
don't lose this moment
this wish
turn around
and start a new life!

Hope!

Song/ poem that was written a few years ago

Every memory, every moment through time,
Seems to slowly slip out of my mind,
and yet some are so near
your touch your voice your kiss
so long ago..
Did I imagine everything?
Was it all just a really good dream?

Waking up is not what I am used to
Thinking it all over,
replaying the scenes
it's clear to see
we weren't so perfect after all
Maybe...
I never loved you the way I thought
Did you love me?

When we were with each other
it was explosive
sparks flew!
sometimes it made no sense
sometimes we knew
at that time all that mattered
was you.
Those nights we would talk all night over the phone
you made me feel like I was never alone.
That's why it was so hard to say goodnight...
Then there were those few horrible fights

Waking up is not what I am used to
Thinking it all over,
replaying the scenes
it's clear to see
we weren't so perfect after all
Maybe...
I never loved you the way I thought
Did you love me?

Don't you hate when your friends say
they saw it all coming
it's like I didn't have a clue
only seeing what you
wanted me too

Waking up is hard to do,
Facing the truth
after all those days and nights

coming out of a fog
waking up to sunshine
after slumbering for so long!

Waking up is not what I am used to
Thinking it all over,
replaying the scenes
it's clear to see
we weren't so perfect after all
Maybe...
I never loved you the way I thought
Did you love me?

coming out of a fog
waking up to sunshine
after slumbering for so long!