Hush, Love, Don't cry,
It'll be alright,
Hold me close,
As I administer the dose,
Listen to my lullaby of lies.

If The World Stops Spinning, Read That Writing On the Wall...

Mood: Sleepy...
Music: None...

So, things are starting to get pretty hectic. I had a stressful weekend this past weekend. Something happened that was beyond my control, and it really pissed me off and made me worried sick at the same time. It's a horrible feeling to have...If I could've prevented the event from happening, believe me, I would have! Unfortunately, I couldn't. Of course, everything has been worked out, and things are much better now.

The end of the semester is drawing near, which means that I'm going to have to write several papers and do some projects. Then of course, Finals Week...You know what? Let's just not go there...Anyways, I've got Sophomore Review to deal with on April 17th. It's something all the art majors have to go through here at the good ol' U of O...

My Education advisor has thrown out another option to me to help broaden my career choices: Preschool-8th grade certification. Right now, I'm working on an Art major and a Secondary Education major, and with the Secondary Ed major, she told me it would be VERY easy to get P-8 certification. Basically, I think I'll only have to take one more class than I would have...Unfortunately, that class is a State History class...I'm going to talk to that advisor on Wednesday at noon about this option. Both Daku and I believe it would be a very good idea. I probably need to run it by my parents, too.

Then after this semester is over, I'll get to jump right in to Maymester! That's pretty much just a bunch of Education classes rolled into one 3-week-long journey of learning...So I won't really get a break until June 5th. Of course, then I'll be starting a summer Work-Study job. Hopefully, I'll be working at the local special-needs preschool. I'm going to talk to the director Thursday...I really hope I get that position! I'm currently observing there, and I absolutely adore the 4-5 year olds! It's a dream job...See, back in 6th grade, I began working with the 3-6 year olds' Children's Church class at my church, and since then, I've gained a ton of experience working with children. I consider myself an amateur babysitter, as I've babysat many children during that period. So, yeah, that would be a dream job for me.

And May 30th or 31st, Daku will be leaving for Lincoln, Nebraska. He's doing a summer internship at UNL for 2 months...That's part of the reason I want to stay here over the summer. I couldn't stand living back at home with my parents during that time...I'd go absolutely nuts!! Not that I'm not already a bit insane anyways...But yeah, the summer Work-Study will help me make it through. I'm also considering doing an online course at a local Tech college. That'll help me be able to graduate in the next 4 semesters...

Well, I guess that's it...Stay classy, Otakuites!

Excel~
~~One ring to rule them all, one ring to find them; one ring to bring them all, and in the darkness TAKE THEIR COOKIES!!!~~

Predictable...

Mood: Beyond furious; worried sick
Music: Good Charlotte "The Truth"

Have you ever been so extremely close to someone that you thought you knew everything about them? Well, how would you feel if they did a complete 180-degree turn in character? Yeah, I'm there. See, Daku had to leave yesterday for a Tri-Beta convention. It's a school-sanctioned event...Well, I don't trust the people he had to go with, and last night, my fears were confirmed. They convinced him to do something that he swore to me he'd never do. For one, it was illegal!! Secondly, it's against school policy, meaning it shouldn't even happen on a school-sanctioned event that's held off-campus!! Thirdly, he's showing an utter disregard for his health!! Fourth, he's showing an utter disregard for his future!! And finally, he's showing an utter disregard for my feelings!! Ever since I called him last night to say goodnight, and he told me what was going on, I've been crying off and on. I'm worried sick about him, and at the same time I'm beyond furious with him!! I expressed my concerns to him today just before lunch, and he simply brushed me off, telling me that my "train of thought is irrational and illogical".

I'M NOT THE ONE DOING ILLEGAL SHIT THAT COULD FUCK UP MY FUTURE IF I GET CAUGHT!!!!!

Quite honestly, I've got half a mind to go to Daku's academic advisor and inform HIM of what's going on...Unfortunately, I have no hard evidence, so it would be my word against Daku and the other Tri-Beta members' words...I feel like I'm trapped...I love him so much, but if he keeps showing such a disregard for my feelings and breaking my trust like this, I'm gonna leave his ass...And that's what hurts the most. I don't even know if I could continue living without him!

I feel so utterly lost and hopeless...

Please, I need advice...I don't know what to do...

Excel~

Dirty Glass...

Mood: Ugh...
Music: The Killers "Somebody Told Me"

So, Spring Break was okay. I got home and found out I no longer had access to wireless interwebz in my room. Somehow, the neighbors found out that "someone" was stealing wireless interwebz from them, so they got a password-protected wireless interwebz...It made me sad. And maybe a bit frustrated...So, rather than wrestle with dial-up, I made friends with my World Civ 2 reading, which was a book called The River Between. It's by some Kenyan guy...I think it's fiction, but he used it to describe how Kenya was colonized and stuff. I'm about halfway finished, and it's due tomorrow at 10 am, along with a Study Question, which basically says to write the NEXT chapter for the book! I'm pretty sure that if the book's already published, the Kenyan dood doesn't want another chapter added....

Anyways, I also made friends with the living room couch and the tv. Thank Jeebus for DirecTv! And CSI...I watched a lot of CSI...Including both CSI: New York AND CSI: Miami! :D

On Monday, I got to hang out with Kytten, Mantha, and KitKat. We got to see Kytten's new apartment. It's small, but it's cool. Me and Kytten made plans to go to Memphopolis on Tuesday, but my mommy said no...Actually, she said, "It's too dangerous. Plus it's going to storm on Tuesday." Lo and behold, it stormed on Tuesday. But the storm didn't come until AFTER Kytten and I would've been back! >.<

I got to play Kingdom Hearts 2...But I couldn't figure out how to hook my PS2 up to the big screen tv in the living room, so I had to borrow my little brother's PS2, as well as his tv and his room. He was at work, so it was okay. I gained a newfound hatred for Roxas whilst I played...Seriously, I hated him the first time I played through, and now I hate him even more!! The kid can't do crap!! I wanna get Sora back...Unfortunately, now that I'm back at college, I virtually have NO time to play....Sora will have to stay sleeping in that bubble...

Friday, I came back to Clarksvegas. I unloaded my car, checked the interwebz from which I'd been deprived, and then grabbed a few things and headed to Daku's. The two of us got to have MUCHO alone cuddly time at his house. His parents and little sister were on a cruise. His other sister was at her nurse's house...She's autistic. Anyways, I can't disclose any of the events that took place...It was just a bunch of cuddling...And movie-watching...We saw "12 Rounds" on opening night! That was a kick-ass movie...And last night, he decided it was a good idea for us to watch "Quarantine" together...He was wrong...We stopped it about half-way through...I'm sorry, but the idea of UBER RABIES does not appeal to me...Neither does watching an old lady bite a chunk out of a policeman's neck...He did buy me a Kingdom Hearts 2 t-shirt from Hot Topic, though...

I got some good quality skin-color markers yesterday at Hobby Lobby. They're Prismacolor. I got, like, 5 skin shades, a random stone shade, a new black marker (my old one is running out!), and a colorless blender. I can't wait to use them! They were 30% off...I love sales! XD

So, now I'm here. At college. In my room. With quite a to-do list. Seriously!! Here it is:

To-Do List
~finish The River Between
~write the Study Question
~read assigned chapter for Families & Students presentation
~draw self-portrait for Figure Drawing
~pick out 11 works for Sophomore Review
~"finish" works (i.e. mount them)
~write artist's statement for Sophomore Review
~finish 2 commissions for a couple of people on campus
~work on entry for jamo's OC challenge

I dun wanna do it!! TT^TT Oh well...Guess I better get to it anyways...

Oh!! The Twi-Tards are out of hand...Seriously, check out this link. I mean, I know "Twilight" is an "international sensation", but COME ON, PEOPLE!!! IT'S NOT WORTH MAKING AN ASS OUT OF YOURSELF JUST BECAUSE PEOPLE DON'T AGREE WITH YOU!!! I think the Twi-Tards may have caught the uber rabies...

Well, that's it for now. Stay classy, Otakuites!

Excel~
~~Uber Rabies: The Musical! *"Thriller" begins to play*~~

Let It Rain...

Mood: Squee!
Music: DJ Pretzel "Tetris Slavic Roots OC Remix"

Ok, first of all, I have exciting news!! I got on theO and saw that theO's official world had been updated, so I checked it. It was the Caption Battle update. I was reading through the announcement of last week's winners, and I got to the first-place spot, and lo and behold, my screenname was there in bold black letters!! I can't believe my caption won first place!! I've NEVER won a caption battle the entire time I've been on here!! Not even third place!! And the caption I used for last week was just off the top of my head!! I was so excited I took a screen-cap...

I have an update on my Ranma 1/2 costume. Daku and I finally went to the seamstress today to deliver the fabric and patterns, and explain to her how we wanted it done. I hope we got her enough fabric...She's going to see if she can find us some toggles for the front of the shirt.

I'm still sick, but I think it's getting better. I'm not as congested as I was yesterday. And when we went to the seamstress, we stopped by Daku's house, and he got me some Mucinex DM. I hope this clears up by Friday. I don't feel like driving 3 hours with a cough and a runny nose.

Oh, that's right! You don't know yet! Friday is the start of Spring Break. I'm going home. Luckily, I know about the wireless connection in my room, so I won't have to be on a short hiatus. Mantha's riding home with me. That'll be good, because we need some Mantha-Excel time. And while I'm home, I'm gonna get in some Kytten-Excel time. She says I'll have to come see her new apartment. And maybe we'll get to go to Memphopolis...No, that's not the town's real name, but I'm not letting you people know where I live! There are creepy stalker-rapists on the interwebz...I know, because I met a few on Yahoo Games...Thus, I no longer play online pool...Seriously, this guy kept asking me stuff like what I looked like and what I was wearing and where I lived and if I was hot...I promptly left the game...

Works To Publish
~St. Patrick's Day Pin-Up (just a nameless, sexy girl dressed for St. Patrick's Day; 50% complete)

Well, stay classy, Otakuites!

Excel~
~~It's in the water, baby, it's in the special way we fuck~~

There's a Reason These Tables Are Numbered...

Mood: Tired...
Music: Kiyommy+Seiya "Pink Rose"

So, I've been sick for over a week now...My throat doesn't hurt much anymore, and my cough has somewhat subsided, but my nose is extremely runny, resulting in it being raw from all the tissues...Seriously...I hate being sick...I checked my temperature an hour or two ago and it was 99 degrees Farenheit. I called Daku and asked what he thought. He said not to worry because it wasn't much over normal...I then took some DayQuil, and I feel like my fever's gone down. My forehead's certainly not as hot anymore.

I got a deviantArt account. If any of you want to find me or friend me, my username is M3rcuryDr4g0n. I had to use 1337-speak to spell my name because (again!) someone stole my username before I had a chance to use it...Seriously, I've had this username for nearly 3 years now! I registered on April 7, 2006, on MyOtaku as Mercury Dragon. Ooh, that means my 3-year anniversary is coming up soon! Huzzah! Talk about commitment...Anyways, back to the name-thievage...I've encountered two sites now where my username has been stolen! Fanfiction.net, and deviantArt...I wonder if the name thief is the same person...And yes, "Mercury Dragon" was my own, unique name...I guess this calls for a story time...Well, get comfortable...

You see, it all started when I was in 10th grade Geometry class. I sat beside my best friend, Kytten, every day. One morning, she came in and seemed distraught. We talked via note-passing, and I got her to tell me what was wrong. It seemed that she was having problems with her mom, who was being unreasonable. I told her that her mom would soon see the light (or something to that effect) by order of the Mercury Dragon. She asked who the Mercury Dragon was, and I told her it was me. Thus, my persona was born. From that little instance, the Mercury Force was formed. It consisted of myself as the Mercury Dragon, Kytten as the Mercury Cat, Mantha as the Mercury Tiger, and Featherz as Lord Mercury. I'd love to tell you more, but that story is one best saved for another time...

=___= I have midterms coming up this week. My first one is in Figure Drawing on Monday. It's not really going to be a test...It's just going to be a critique...I hope I can do good, though. I have to go to the art building later to decide which pieces I want to use for the critique...I'll have a vocabulary test in Sculpture, but I don't know what day...Not too worried about it. There will be a test of some sort for Yoga...I need to study for that one...It'll be Tuesday...I think the World Civ 2 teacher is going to use our Unit 1 tests as our midterm grades. In Families and Students, I think we just had to prove that we were doing our observations in the schools. In Theories of Human Learning, we'll have a test over some terms, I think...Don't know for sure about that one...

I had a weird dream last night. I'd rather not go into detail because it might be offensive...But I talked to Sako-nee, and she offered her insights. She said it sounds like I have insecurities, which I do (mainly about my future). The possibly offending elements slipped in from World Civ class. She also said that it sounds like I'm afraid of my happiness being taken away or being out of my control. We know it's not a premonition, as my premonitions are generally realistic, as well as insignificant...I know why my future seems uncertain. Our "oh-so wonderful" President, Obama, has proposed a new way to decide how much teachers earn. Merit pay. Basically, it means that teachers will be payed based on how well their students do on standardized tests. Yeah, it sounds good, in theory...But in theory only. Obama and the other law-makers don't take into account all the external factors that affect a student's ability to learn. For one, there's disabilities to take into account. Students with mental, emotional, behavioral, learning, and physical disabilities generally do not perform as well on standardized tests as their "normal" peers. Secondly, there are factors that can affect the "normal" students. For instance, what if Johnny's grandfather, whom he was really close to, passes away the day before the standardized test is to be given? Johnny will be to preoccupied with his grandfather's death to perform well on the test. Obama and all the other law-makers need to take some classes on education, especially on special education. If they think they can base a teacher's pay on how well his or her students perform on a standardized test, they're fucking retarded!! And I DON'T mean in that funny way...

Hm...Now that I've vented about that, I feel better.

My plushy photo project has kind of been put on the back burner for now...I've still got quite a load on my shoulders, what with Sophomore Review coming up...I have managed to put up some new fan art.

Works In Progress
~St. Patrick's Day Pin-Up (just a nameless, sexy girl dressed for St. Patrick's Day; 50% complete)

Well, stay classy, Otakuites!

Excel~
~~Tell me how I'm supposed to feel when all these nightmares become real~~