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Name: Caitlin (ケイトリン)
Nicknames: Cate, Deidara, Dei, Clay, Cat, Emo Panda, Dei-chan, Dei-san, Senpai, Deiara, Kyuubi, Dei-Dei, D, Dei-kun, Die, Die-Die, CK, That weird emo, The emo, That girl who draws good, Werewolf, Boss, One-chan, Kitsune, Cait Cait, and others but are too long to go into
Birthday: April 12, 1995
Age: 18
Gender: Female
Relationship Status: X3 Taken <3
Likes: Friends, Anime, Akatsuki, Naruto, Pokemon, video games, drawing, writing, reading comics, Digimon, Manga, Death Note, Inuyasha, Bleach, Making up jutsu (Yes, I'm a Narutard and I get that bored), collecting Naruto stuff, taking personality quizzes, Cosplaying as an Akatsuki member, creating comics, Deidara, TV, and the list continues...
Dislikes: Pervs (That means you sickos that take advantage of people... because most of my friends, including me, are pervs XD) Preps, and Stray cats (THEY WON'T LEAVE!)
Weapons: Bamboo Staff, Pencils, markers, yardstick, and anything I can find...
Clubs I belong to: A lot
Current Art Projects Working on: (view posts) Anything else I'm currently forgetting (and or) is in my mind and will work on it later
What I'm Doing at this Moment: Things
TheO Buddys: (not put in any specific order even though they kinda died) SandLover13, Sasukelover001, wolfdemonchild9, gaaragirl911, LunaLei, Hikari Mogami, SojiRem, imouto chan, cheriblosomchibi, Otomi Babii, Naomi Bear, Pikmin541, Kakashisgf, AngelsCryTo, gaaraskittygirl (actual friends in real life) ajLOVEStobi, Emo Dei Kyuubi, (actual friends in real life that aren't ever online) Jocex13, XxTatsuyaxRyuuxX
Enemies: None really... I've gotten over that.
Words I live by: Some come with depression... Some just blow up in our faces... Some come in the form of stress work or hysteria... Some come as a distraction just to lure us... Some come with laziess... And some come as frustration... Whichever form it may come, they're all EVIL and we, as artists, must NOT be over powered by the face of artist block... See that thing? Then scream, Run in circles, And kill it whichever way you choose. If you don't, YOU CATCH THE ARTIST BLOCK! D:
Cosplay: Deidara, Inuyasha, L, Near, Tamaki Suoh, Sebastian Michaelis, Alois Trancy, America, England, Prussia, Monobear, Eren Jaeger, Cry, 2p!Russia, Thor, Sweden, Markiplier, Hetalia Fandom

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~Deidara
-What starts as art becomes an explosion-
-Art is a BANG un!-

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DRUGS ARE NOT FUNNY OR FUN Go Ask Alice

Now For Some AWESOME Quotes:

"Oh yeah... He looks so crazy. He's totally going to walk outside with that hair with a machete, and run around screaming 'IMMA CUT SOME BABIES!!!!!'" -Me

"Smell The Coffee Spiderman 2" -Cris

"I'm Julio! FEED ME BEANIE BABIES!!!!!" -Julio

"ケーキはうそです。 (The cake is a lie)" -Chris K.

"Okay class, today we are learning about... Batman. Now, what is Batman's real name?"
"Bruce Wayne!"
"Yes!"
"HOW CAN YOU NOT KNOW WHO BRUCE WAYNE IS?!"
"I do know. I was just asking everyone."
"No, not you. *points to Taylor* She doesn't know who Batman is!"
"... *points to door* Get out." -Lincoln, Andrew, and Ian

"Okay... Now who is Batman's main enemy?"
"The Penguin!"
"The Joker."
"That's right, the Joker... Now, who is the Joker's girlfriend?"
"The Penguin! (has been saying this repeatedly)"
"Who said the Penguin?!" -Lincoln, Scott, and Ian

"Hey Ms. B."
"Lincoln, what are you doing?"
"... Teaching the class about Batman." -Lincoln and Mrs. Mulligan (Ms. B)

"There's only one phrase you need to say to get girls to cover their chests."
"Is it boobs?"
"No. I said phrase, that's a word."
"Then what is it?"
"I like boobs :D" -Ian and Joce

"*looks over and sees Joce, then rolls down truck window while driving past* THERE'S WALDO!"
"Really?!" -Me and Waldo (AKA Joce)

"I've got a question, and anyone feel free to answer it, but: Why is it when women sleep with a lot of men they are considered whores while when men sleep with a lot of women, they're considered awesome?"
"Well I have an answer to that, but let me put it this way: A key, that's a master key, is awesome because it can open any lock, but a lock that just opens with any key you put in- is a shitty lock." -Ian and Zach

"This chick did used to have boobs. They were of... *looks at Britney's chest then mine* ... considerable size."
"... I love how you just said that after staring at their boobs." -Ian and Joce

"If you don't want to see it, don't look. It's just like if you see me walking around naked, if you don't want to look, don't look." -Ian

"Do you know what a half hunter is?"
"A what?"
"A half hunter."
"A half hunter... A hunter that hunts after bodies if the head hunter doesn't get his way?"
"Clever... But it's a pocket watch." -Lincoln and Mrs. Mulligan

"Who decided one random day, 'Hey, I'm going to long divide!'?"
"I thought about that a long time ago... and finally decided it was a crazy person." -Lincoln and Mrs. Mulligan

"I'm sad..."
"Why are you sad?"
"I died..."
"Then how are you still here?"
"... Um..."
"Are you a figment of my imagination?"
"... Let's go with that." -Chris K. and Me

"Kenny! Where should your butt be?"
"In your pants" -Mrs. Mulligan and Gary

"Lincoln! Where were you?"
"Kicking Storm Trooper's asses" - Andrew and Lincoln

"Wow the entire night was crazy. My brother and his girlfriend went into his room and closed the door behind them and I sat on the couch and played Pokemon." -Zach

"I doughnut feel like twerking on French homework." -Denny

"THEY WERE OUT OF APPLE JUICE SO I HAD TO GET SUNNY D. YOU KNOW WHAT THE D STANDS FOR? IT STANDS FOR "DON'T LOOK AT ME, I'M NOT APPLE JUICE"" -Me

"Always remember to reverse-gyrate your way out of bathrooms... for everyone's safety." -Markiplier

Wednesday - Not much time

Sorry, I'm on really in the morning... so I have to make this short before I go off to school.

Everything's been going okay... I think anyway... You might expect new drawings/sketches possibly soon...

I'll change my above pic *points to Intro* But it will more than likely sound depressing/look depressing. So I'd be prepared for that.

I'm sorry, but I really can't help being paranoid about some things involving my friends. It's mainly within Joce and Kris... Especially since Cris has begun hating them (well they do it to theirselves and they deserve it) and just lately... it's been quite out of our control really...

Well, I gotta go to school. Be back online early tomorrow ^^
Jaane~

-Dei

Sunday - I NEED FOOOOOOOOOD!

>>' lol sorry, I'm kinda hungry... haven't eaten breakfast...

DX I also hate this glitch on TheO where we can't comment! If anyone wants to talk to me, PM me please T^T I'm lonely...

Basically, yesterday, when we went up to the Lego Store, everything was fine, in fact, I ended up taking a nap most of the way there since I woke up at 4:15 because I was kinda stressing out on some things... Well, I woke up to Cooper throwing up his Sunny D and mom yelling at me to do something about it. So I gave him a paper towel, gave him water, and my mom STILL continued to yell at me. INFACT, SHE SAID I WASN'T DOING A DAMN THING AND I WAS BEING A LAZY ASS THAT COULD UNHOOK MY SEATBELT TO HELP HIM! Well, FIRST OF ALL: I WAS doing something to help him; SECOND OF ALL: I was doing everything she told me to do and she acted like I was doing NOTHING AT ALL; THIRD OF ALL: She shouldn't EVEN have a reason to be yelling at me if I'M HELPING MY BROTHER AS BEST AS I CAN; AND FOURTH OF ALL: She's driving SIXTY MILES PER HOUR AND INCREASING IN SPEED TO MAKE IT TO HIS MEETING! I know she hasn't taken math for a while, but at THAT speed or ANY speed without my seatbelt on and she has to stop WILL KILL ME! BUT WHAT THE FUCK DOES SHE CARE ABOUT MY SAFETY?! SHE DOESN'T EVEN GIVE A FUCKING SHIT AS LONG AS COOPER IS FINE! WHEN I'M DOING EVERYTHING TO HELP HIM AND SHE BLOWS OFF WHAT I'M DOING AS NOT EVEN DOING SHIT! IF SHE WANTED TO, SHE COULD'VE FUCKING PULLED OFF TO THE SIDE OF THE ROAD TO HELP HIM, BUT SHE DIDN'T! SO SHE DOESN'T HAVE TO FUCKING CRITISIZE ME FOR WHAT I COULD DO DURING THAT TIME!

THEN, it doesn't end there:

Mom: YOU JUST DON'T CARE ABOUT YOUR BROTHER!
Me: IF I DIDN'T CARE, WHY THE HEL-CK (almost cussed...) WOULD I BE DOING AS BEST AS I CAN TO HELP HIM OUT?!
Mom: I DON'T NEED YOU YELLING IN MY EAR WHILE I DRIVE!
Me: THAT'S BECAUSE YOU'RE YELLING AT ME!
Mom: YOU ALWAYS YELL AT ME!
Me: NO I DON'T! THE ONLY REASON I YELL IS WHEN YOU YELL AT ME FOR NOTHING!
Mom: I NEVER YELL AT YOU FOR NOTHING!
Me: YES YOU DO!
Mom: JUST SHUT UP! AND DROP IT!
Me: FINE!
*as soon as I stop, she continues going on and critisizing me, when SHE told ME to drop the subject*
Me: I thought you said to drop it...
Mom: Don't even go there!
Me: I WILL GO THERE WHEN YOU ARE YELLING AT ME FOR NO REASON MOM!
Mom: JUST SHUT UP!
Me: NO MOM! YOU SHUT UP! YOU NEVER LISTEN AND YOU ONLY HEAR WHAT YOU DAM-NG (this really did almost slip out even more) WELL WANT TO HEAR!
Mom: DO YOU WANT ME TO HIT YOU?! CAUSE I'M REALLY CLOSE TO!
ME: *is crying at this point after all the build-up and trying to hold it in* GO AHEAD! LIKE YOU'VE NOT HURT ME ENOUGH ALREADY!
Mom: I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM BUT YOU HAVE A LOT OF DAMN ISSUES!
Me: YOU KNOW WHY I'M CRYING!
Mom: NO I DON'T! YOU MUST BE CRYING OVER SOMETHING YOU AREN'T TELLING ME!
Me: IT'S BECAUSE YOU'RE YELLING AT ME FOR NO REASON!
Mom: I KNOW THAT'S NOT THE REASON!
Me: IT IS THE REASON! YOU JUST DON'T WANT TO BELIEVE IT!
Mom: I'm so close to just PUNCHING you right now...
Me: *glares at her while still crying and just gets out of the truck*
Mom: HELP YOUR BROTHER
Me: I WILL
Mom: THERE YOU GO AGAIN! YELLING AT ME FOR NO REASON! YOU ALWAYS DO IT!
Me: If that's the case mom, I know you're a lot worse than I am...
*as soon as she gets out, we start walking to the huge doors*
Mom: WIPE YOUR FACE AND STOP CRYING
Me: *wipes face and starts laughing* Why?... You can't take it when people see your daughter like this? You don't want anything you do to be on the outside and shown to other people? You always just like to do this, don't you...?
Mom: Shut up!
Me: You just want to keep the little facade that everything is all right... So no one could ever question what you do...
Mom: YOU KEEP THAT UP I'LL KNOCK ALL YOUR TEETH OUT WHETHER OR NOT PEOPLE ARE LOOKING!

So the whole entire time they're in the Lego Store, I'm across on the other side opposite, sitting in a chair with my blue and black stripped jacket zipped up, my hair in my face, listening to my Ipod on MAX volume, and sobbing while some people walked by. I kept trying to think of things to calm me down, but somehow bad thoughts would always stem from them and cause me to cry even more. It got to the point where I really did just want to end it there and kill myself... in fact, I actually thought of doing heroin... maybe taking an overdose enough for me to just slip away... But I thought about my friends and then started trying to calm myself with rock music and trying to play pokemon, which, thankfully, took my mind away from thinking those things. I still have resentment towards mom though, infact, as soon as she could get the chance, she acted like I was fine and had the nerve to ask to use my phone to take pictures of Cooper that I wouldn't be able to get off. But I didn't have my cell... and it's full of texts I had with Andy, so I have to wait until they all clear up next month to text anymore... Much less take pictures. I seriously wish I knew how to delete stuff...

And after all that was done, I went into Hot Topic and got two pairs of knee-high socks (one was black with pink hearts close to the top and white dots in the form of an X; the other was blue and purple striped with black cheetah print on the blue parts), a key hole choker on a chain, and white bows with fake blood stains on them :3. Then we went to Spencers and I bought two knee-high socks there too (:3 one was brown and black and Alice in Wonderland themed from the new movie; the other was really awesome it was black with rainbow zebra stripes on the foot, a little splots of paint splatter in the middle in different colors, and at the top, paint splatter that's all smeared, thick, and runny in different colors and they're meant to be over the knee) and I got a white rabbit costume (for the time being anyway unless we find something better). We went into Claires and looked around for stuff for my halloween costume but didn't find anything. Then we went to the Silly Band kiosk to look at the japanese erasers. I got the black panda :3 (now I have all of them ^^), blue and white dolphin, and a white and green unicorn for Cris (XD there's a story behind this... and adding to that he likes unicorns while I don't...).

And then I saw something really disturbing when we got into the truck and mom let me look through my (dead) Uncle George's sketchbooks. Some of the drawings were good, but some weren't preportional... and all were innapropriate O_o'. DX I saw two drawn dicks and that just ain't right! I got scarred for life...

Once we got home though, I talked to Cris on the internet when he got online and he came over. D: he was a bit sick though sadly so I let him rest for a bit while watching TV and we talked for a bit. XD somehow it lead up into us swapping socks for a little bit. He wore some of my socks, while I wore his X3 lol. After that, we had to go to eat at a Mexican restaraunt to celebrate Mawmaw and Pawpaw's trip off to Mexico (since Pawpaw has cancer and he wants to try and get medicine there to see if it helps). Cris and I honestly didn't want to go... but we did (while still wearing each others socks lol) because we had to. We saw Anne and Sergio there and I said hi to them :3 but Sergio was looking at us kinda oddly...

Then after we ate, we walked down to check the movies and the dates... found nothing good on and we walked back... We also... well Cris... scared Felony (Aunt Terri's pitbull mix that she rescued) and Gigi (Mawmaw's Miniature YorkiePoo that she rescued) when he just wanted to pet them XD.

He said he was planning on coming over today... but the problem is my family wants to go to this Pioneer Fair at 1:00 today... so I'm not sure he'd be able to come over until maybe 2:00 or 2:30... 3:00 at the latest.

So yeah...

Saturday - I Say Sorry A Lot >>'

Sorry I have been neglecting to post... a lot of shit in my life has been happening and I kinda don't want to talk about it really... It mostly has to do with mom antics and paranoia when it comes to friends... so... yeah, just usual stuff for me I guess...

:3 on the bright side though, I wrote a new song this morning at 5:30... Even though I was crying, it's actually a good song I kinda think ^^'

I'll have to leave in a little bit to go to my brother's Lego Club meeting... I'll be back at 12:00 more or less ^^ :3 so I can talk to anyone then hopefully... well anyone that wants to talk anyway.

Sorry for the boring post ^^'

Sunday - Yesterday

Today's grandparents day ^^

I would've spent the night at my grandma's house last night... but I ended up coming home since my brother didn't want to stay... D: Cris actually wanted to spend the night with us, but he couldn't since my mom doesn't want me to be spending the night with guys, even if they're my friends T^T sadly at grandma's it would've been the only chance he could've stayed... but it ended in vain...

Cris ended up coming with us to grandma's and we were all right at first, but then he talked about how he was talking down about himself... and I didn't like him doing that, so I ended up talking down about myself to make him feel better about himself... but it ended up causing things to be worse, especially since he went into a different room and left me alone (to be honest, I almost thought he left for his house T^T until grandma kept telling us to stop being depressed). Grandma told us to go on a walk to hopefully sort things out, so we went out... But we didn't talk for a while. All I did say was "Sorry" but he never replied. Then we sat down in front of an old school, near my grandma's house and just kinda stared at nothing for a while... Until this conversation came up:

Cris: What's wrong?
Me: *lying* ... Nothing...
Cris: ... Are you sure...?
Me: ... I don't like you talking down about yourself...
Cris: ... Oh... Is that all...?
Me: ... The only reason why... I talked down about myself... was because I don't want you to... It makes me feel terrible to ever hear my friends call themselves ugly or anything... (because nothing is wrong with him! ><)
Cris: That's the reason why?
Me: *nods*

After that, we made the promise to never talk down about ourselves anymore.

Then we started walking around again and ran into Ian while he was driving :D we talked to him for a bit and then I started telling Cris about the pokemon hack stories. :3 he wants them now lol.

The thing that was kinda messed up a few times was the fact my brother started crying after I gave him a pillow that he wanted, he threw it down saying he didn't want it anymore and he just ran off ._.' Cris and I couldn't help but start laughing over that.

Cooper also kept making Cris and I both mad, especially when I told Cooper to stop crawling all over me and he just wouldn't stop (he ended up causing me to lose hair I think T^T)... So Cris pushed him down twice. The first didn't work... and the second one did, but it hurt my ankle *NOTE: ALL OF US WERE LAYING ON THE FLOOR DURING THIS TIME, NONE OF US WERE STANDING* because Cooper got shoved into it. Cris started comforting me about it and apologizing, but after Cooper say Cris doing that to me, he started crying and acted like he was hurt... >>' which sadly, we couldn't help but laugh about that too.

XD then later on Cris did some innapropriate suggestive themes with toys XD but it was so hilarious that we couldn't help but keep laughing about it. And my grandma and brother don't get it because they don't understand our perverted minds lol.

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