Hi everyone,
The Dark Realm is basically a realm of dark desires and dark...things. I really can't say much about the dark realm. I can only hope that it will be visited often by other members.
I created the dark realm because I like being alone and I like to sit by myself in the dark hours of the night.Hey, we can't all be perfect right?Any way the dark realm was made because of how I was feeling and how miserable I was becoming. I hope you enjoy your visit to the dark realm.

Cold And Heartless

You are nothing more than a cold hearted killer
You kill for the joy
You kill for the adrenaline rush
You kill for the hell os it
You kill because it's what your good at
You kill because it's what the world owes you
You kill because you lost her in the hands of your enemy
You kill because you can't do anything else
You are a mercinary
You kill those you feel like killing
For no apparent reason
You just kill
And for that very reason I gave you a new name
You are cold and heartless

Autobiography???!

Okay it's bad enough that I have to keep my grades up in school.It's ten times worse if I have to write an autobiography.I mean come on,don't you think it's kind of stupid to have to write an autobiography in order to graduate from high school?I can't do it.I hardly even remember what I did as a little girl.I can hardly even remember what I did last year during my summer vacation.
In order for me to graduate with the rest of the Senior class,I have to do a portfolio presentation.And I can't even get out of it.It's a requirement in order for me to graduate at my school.Gawd!I like have a few months in order to do a portfolio too.Man what am I gonna do?As it is I'm kind of stuck on how I'm going to write my stupid autobiography any way.Ugh.I hate my Senior year.And it's my last year too.

So Many Tears

Oh God no!
You can't do this to me
Not yet
Not now
I can't take it
I don't want to live anymore
Not like this
Not any longer
Why?
Why do this to me?
I have done nothing to hurt anyone
I have always tried my best to be a good person
Even though deep down inside of there lies something dark and evil
Please...please just don't do this
Don't take them away from...me
Please don't take them away from me!

I sit here trying so hard not to cry
I thought I was strong
But now I know I'm not
I can't take this anymore
I can't catch my breath
I can't even breathe in air
It's like I'm suffocating
Like I'm being drowned in the deepest part of the ocean
I fall down and slump against a huge oak tree
Trying so hard to keep myself from falling apart
But I know it won't be long before I do give in
Give in to the heart wrenching pain
It feels like someone has gone and hit me with the force of a speeding semi
I can feel it through every nerve in my body
My body begins to tremble
I feel cold
Oh so cold
I look over to where they lay silent and peaceful
I feel a lump in my throat
Oh God why did you have to do this?
Why did you take them away from me?
Why?!
I loved them so so much
And you took them away from me
I feel the pain consuming me again
This time it's worse
Ten times as worse as it was before
The tears I've been trying to hold back for so long are fighting to be let free
And God help me
I'm not going to be able to hold them back
I cry so hard I can barely breathe right
I lean on my hands and knees
Crying
Crying so hard I don't even notice you standing there watching me
But I don't care anymore
Because MY family is gone
Forever
I'm never going to see them ever again
Not in this lifetime
Maybe not in the next lifetime
But if I wish for it
Maybe I'll get to see them soon
Your standing next to me
I don't care though
I keep crying
I cry so hard I can't help but look over to where my family lies dead
And I can't help but yell to God how wrong this is
About how it should have been me not them
I yell at you for killing them
You don't do anything but stand there
You stand there and take my accusations
You stand there looking at me while I'm crying
I look away from you and can't help but cry some more
It hurts you know
Seeing your family right in front of you,dead

There's nothing else in the world that hurts this much
And believe me there isn't
When you lose those you held really close to your heart
You lose all sense of life
Because you lost the people you cared about the most
And you can't help but want to die with them
Well sometimes any way
But you still feel like you have no sense of living without them
Mostly becasue you loved them more than you would ever love any one else

I sit here crying my heart out while you stand there and watch me
You kneel donw next to me
Push my hair out of my face
And look at me
I don't look at you though
Because I know you did this to them
You grab my waist and pull me close to you
You hold me while I cry
I cry on your shoulder while you run your hand through my hair
I can't help but look over to where my family lay dead
It hurts to look
But I do any way
My breathing becomes shallow and uneven
You hold me a little tighter
I cry more
Harder than I cried before
I struggle against your hold on me
But you won't let me go
You keep holding me
I try and tell you to let me go
But you won't listen to me
You just hold me tighter and won't let go of me
I stop struggling and cry more
I can't help but cry,cry,and cry
You just sit there holding me close to you
Trying so hard to comfort me
But it's not working
Because I'm still crying
I cry so hard my body begins to tremble
I've cried so much
That I have cried
So many tears
I wrap my arms around you
And bury my face in your shoulder
It's weird
I feel like I can find some sort of peace whne I'm near you
More so now because I just lost my family
But you don't care do you
Because in the end you still have me
And I have you
Don't I?
You whisper something in my ear
I try to stop crying but I just can't get over seeing my family laying there dead
You pull back just enough so you can see my face
I try and look over at my family but you stop me
By gently grabbing my chin and force me to look at you
I cast my eyes down towards the ground so I don't have to look you in the eyes
I don't know what your going to do
And right now I could really care less
But then you do something very unexpected
You kiss me
It's a gentle kiss at first
Then it gets kind of more and more like a kiss a man would give to someone he has been waiting for his whole life
A kiss that says 'I will love you no matter what'
A kiss that symbolizes devotion and unconditional love
You pull away and hold me a little while longer
I don't know what to do
So I just let you hold me

I cried so much that day
I don't know for how long
But I do know I cried so much tears
That there were so many
You always tell me I've cried so many tears
That you don't know how I can still cry after all that crying I did on that day
But I don't mind your teasing
Because I know it's your way of trying to comfort me

I hate school!!!!!!!!!

Why????Why is it every time we have more work on top of the work we already have?I don't like doing school work and I'm not a big fan of having to do homework either.I especially hate having to turn in an assignment on a given date and recieving a new assignment on top of that.It sucks.And I mean would it hurt the teachers a little to give us students a little leeway or something.
This year is my last year in high school and all ever have to do is work,work, and more work on top of that.Ugh.Don't my teachers know that I need some time for myself,my family,my friends,and my boyfriend.Bleh.I hate it when I have to do homework.I want some time to sleep but it doens't look like I'll get that any time soon because I have to do a stupid Senior Portfolio.I don't know when I have to present it in front of people but it seems like a lot of hard work.Right now I'm trying to finish my autobiography which will be due tomorrow in my second period class.Gawd I hate Senior Portfolio's.
I'm so tired as it is and the only time I get to sleep is during my classes.Man I hate to have to do all that make-up work at the end of the year.Argh!I just wished my graduation could come a little sooner than May.

Good Bye

I lay here in wrapped in your arms
Slowly slipping away
I look up into your eyes
And find tears falling from them
I try and lift my hand to wipe them away
But can't seem to lift it
Because my arm feel like lead
You notice this and grab it
You put it to your mouth and kiss the center of my palm
After that you look down at me
I smile
Which makes you look even more sad
Because you have shadows in your eyes
I had thought it stupid to even love you
I guess I was wrong because you cared about me more than anything
But you couldn't bring yourself to say it
Now holding me in your arms
With my life slowly slipping away
You tell me
I close my eyes
And you start yelling at me to stay awake
I open my eyes
To see you are crying again,but more this time
I tell you not to worry about me because I'll be okay
This does nothing to stop you from yelling at me to stay awake
I look at you and ralize things begin to get fuzzy
I blink and feel something wet fall down my cheek
You look at me and pull me closer to you
I can't see your face but I know your crying
Because I can feel shudders skae your body
I ask you what's wrong but that only makes you hold me tighter
I tell you I'm tired and want to go to sleep
You pull back just enough to look at me
Your saying something but I can't quite hear it
I begin to close my eyes and that only makes you start yelling again
But the only thing I tell you is I'm sorry
I also tell you "Good~Bye"