it tares me open
i cannot speak
i reach for you
you turn away.....
i cry, i die inside screaming
outside i close my eyes and sigh
[it's silence
cold
fear
dampness]
....
i am losing you once more
i again am the one to blame
i opened my mouth to speak
and made it all fall rapidly apart~
shame on me,
to expect your help
you sympathy,
your smile
and greet
for you i am foreign
i have no soul
[i am as empty as a word].....
is it not fair to ballance love
with the tip of our fingers
scattering around the eve
when i don't see so much of you
my heart wishes to see you friend~
you let me down, i let me down
i bite myself for all mistakes
i swallow pride and stay so shut
to be forever by your side.....
i gave it all
my heart and reason
for a cause that you don't see
and now i cry within my fists,
all is gone...because of me.....
white feathers float
i have no faith
no power, but sorrow and regret
for letting me out in the open.....
for you, my love, to actually see.....
no fire, water, air or dark
can make this shame just fade away
it marks me sharply
haunts me so
but even so, i can't let go
i don't, i wish for you to hear
to read, to see i'm there for you
i give my my sanity and soul,
my reasons, pull myself on strings
to see you happy, true, my friend.....
i am a puppeteer and puppet
slother thoughts for reckless acts
to be free....[and with you]
