Those feelings are coming back. Those "I miss her" feelings. It's sucking so bad because it's definitely aggravating my stomach again to where I don't wanna eat again. I can't help it, I still have feelings for her. Yeah, I'm trying to continue moving forward, but it doesn't mean my heart and emotions are going to follow me at the same pace... Maybe that's why I was feeling so "unusual" yesterday. I don't know, yesterday I felt so depressed and dark for the majority of the day. I didn't care about anything including friends and family. But I didn't know what was causing it. It could be a whole lot of stress just being built up and released a different way than what normally happens. I don't know, but I know this feeling in my stomach is. At first I thought it was hunger so I made a sandwich and just stared at it for a couple of minutes until I realized I wasn't hungry. God I swear I hate how the human mind works sometimes. I don't want to go through this again... I thought everything was going fine and then bam! ALL ABOARD THE TRAIN TO EMOTION TIME JUNCTION!!! I hate me. I hate this. I hate the outcome that happened. But I'm trying. Fuck...