I think if I tried harder, I'd talk more. When I was younger, I hardly spoke a word if I didn’t feel it’d heard or understood. So people must've thought "if I had something to say, I'd say it", that I was just "fine".
I don't know how to express myself fully. I think things and I know things, but I rarely say or do things when it matters.
I used to hate change but grew older and wanted it. I'm hoping some change will bring me a new life. I dwell too much in the past, although I hate admitting it. I sing the same songs; look for the same concepts, and the same things make my eyes swell. The same things bring me back to the same memories from "back then".
I hate admitting that I 'care' even more. I don't like people worrying over me at all or sharing their concerns. In the end, I just seem indifferent or touchy. That's because I'm not trying to find people that care, I'm thinking about closer people in my life who still haven’t got it completely.
My Mom, who’s supposed to know me so well, said she doesn’t know what goes on inside my head. That she’s still figuring me out.
But I that's my fault. I never took that extra leap to make them understand or hear me. I always thought "they'll get it sometime" or "it's hopeless right now...”. After a while, I gave up too easily and too early. Keeping things inside caused me to snap on people closest to me or people that grew on me. I hated that, so I ended up feeling like dirt at the end of the day.
I suppose I'm just an introverted person. I can't expect others to understand after being a certain way for so long. Just need to start over someday, and put off making people understand for a little longer.
Tiz All
-from person
~~lyrics to go wit the post~~
Turn off the light by Nelly Furtado
It’s getting so lonely inside this bed
Don’t know if I should lick my wounds or say woe is me instead
And there’s an aching inside my head
It’s telling me I’m better off alone
But after midnight morning will come
And the day will see if you will get some
Chorus:
They say that girl ya know she act too tough tough tough
Well it’s till’ I turn off the light, turn off the light
They say that girl you know she act so rough rough rough
Well it’s till’ I turn off the light, turn off the light
And I say follow me follow me follow me down down down down
till’ you see all my dreams
Not everything in this magical world is quite what it seems
I looked above the other day
Cuz I think I’m good and ready for a change
I live my life by the moon
If it’s high play it low, if it’s harvest go slow and if it’s full, then go
But after midnight morning will come
And the day will see if you’re gonna get some
Chorus
I’m searching for things that I just cannot see
Why don’t you don’t you don’t you come and be with me
I pretend to be cool with me, want to believe
That I can do it on my own without my heart on my sleeve
I’m running, I’m running, catch up with me life
Where is the love that I’m looking to find
It’s all in me, can’t you see, I can see, why can’t you see it’s all in me
Chorus
Where is your logic
Who do you need
Where can you turn in your delicate time of need
Follow me down, follow me down down down,
I do not need I do not need nobody
Where is your logic
Who do you need
Where can you turn in your delicate time of need
