well this story is bout somethin tht happened to me not too long ago.....Well it all starts off bout a year ago. I had met a beautiful girl named Tashia she had got me into anime in no time. When she discovered i lived right down the road from her she kept inviting me over to her house almost every single day. I didnt mind at all i was always ignored till i met her. Anyway she has an evil girl named Jazz she has been Tashia's gf for years. But then bout half a year ago Tashia started calling me less and inviting me less. I thought nothin of it at first but then when she got word Jazz was moving ishe sounded so happy. But i could tell she wasnt happy at all her voice was starting to sound less cheerful and it almost sounded like she could cry at any moment. then 2 months ago Jazz didnt have any control over our local anime club and Tashia is usually the one to take charge and we listen to her. But now tht Jazz has moved in i KNOW tht Jazz is using Tashia to get control not only over the club but also to get everything she dosnt deserve. I keep trying to wake Tashia from this nightmare but she's too brainwashed by her gf to see how much i love her. I told the anime club and almost all agree with me they all encourage me to do my best. I give special thanx to xXHaseos GirlXx who has made 2 music videos for me and Tashia i thank her from the bottom of my heart. But unfortunatly Tashia is ignoring me either cuzz her gf told her not to or she's too damn scared to face the truth i tell. Truthfully i think Tashia would've broke up with her a long time ago cuzz i got my 1st kiss form her and she said she has a crush on me. But the only reason y Tashia's still with Jazz is cuzz Jazz fights drirty always threatening to kill herself if Tashia broke up with her she's also a drama queen and knows how to throw a fit to get Tashia's attention. I dont want Tashia the girl i love more than anything in the world to be used for the rest of her life so anyones got any ideas to help me plz tell me as soon as possible. Im crying juss typing this this plz help me. Some people say to find a new girl. But....when u find someone thts saved ur life many times tht she'll ever know u cant juss give up people who read this letter tell all the people u know to give me advice. I WONT GIVE UP TASHIA.....AND JAZZ ....I WILL NOT FAIL!!!!!!!

sank

Today i was told by my mom tht i was not to write bout tashia. my heart sank , i made a journal in school bout 10 pages long bout how much i love her.People are now moving away from me since i wrote tht they all hate tashia,but thts only cuzz they dont know her. But this feelin tht my parents gave me gave me...Well it kinda made me feel ashamed tht i love tashia.Idk y they'd not like it im in love and my parents seem to like her.Who knows but me loving her wil never chance and all the people who laugh at me and tashia can have their laugh i dont care. I WILL LOVE TASHIA NO MATTER WAT!!!!!

titanic

this is y i watch Titanic every weekend it always makes me think if tashia and i were tht close. But unfortunatly it also makes we wonder is tashia chooses jazz the girl tht uses her over me. Then it wouldn't be a happy ending ever since jazz has moved in i have had more than 5 dreams with her in them. They wee all good cuzz i got to hear tashias voice or see her face even if they did last a couple of seconds. Those seconds are going to be locked in my heart.(fyi i barely have good dreams i usually have nightmares bout dying)

loosing hope

i was at tashias again..it was going so well i was gonna kiss her and she was gonna be suprised till i made a joke bout light(death note) looking at porn. i asked y cant u do u do tht for me and juss as i was leaning in she goes cuzz i got a gf i love. Then my hope was completely crushed.I was gettin tears i held back so she wouldnt notice. So then i wrote how i felt bout her saying"i love you more than life itself and i want to protect you". Then she showed me a love story bout mello going on a bussiness trip but matt wouldnt let him go. They would kiss and then it was yaoi from there but their word they would say i wanted to say those to her. Then mello left anyway and matt followed him. thts how much matt loves mello. My eyes had started to tear up cuzz i love tashia tht much but there would probly be no happy ending. Instead she would go with someone who falsly loves her. My heart and feelings were blown apart in tht instant. And as i was gonna leave i told her to hold her hand out and i gave the piece of paper to her and took off running. Now here i am typing this hell im thinkin bout tht love story is makin my eyes teary. plz people if u see it in ur hearts plz help me on this fight to stop jazz.

finally

I FINALLY GOT TO GO TO TASHIA'S HOUSE!!!!!!......But i didnt kiss her. She showed me new mello vids on youtube she'd laugh and my heart was heavily beating. i kept gazing at her lips as she also read MelloxL fanfics. My head was right next to hers....ha im suprised she couldnt feel some sort of vibe from me. I kept wonderin if i should kiss her, but the fear of rejection followed me. My heart ached knowing i could loose her and i was too scared to show her my feelings.....Why? Why can't i do it? though i gave her the place to see this world so hopefully she'll be on after her sleep. Too bad i forgot to tell her "have a good nap". Hmmmmmmmm i wonder what she's thinkin bout. But at least i got to treasure her voice in my heart again.

wounded heart

Today at school in my English class our assignment was to write down the most memorable moment during the summer. Sad to say it's whats happening to me. I'll try to remember as much as i wrote since i dont have the paper next to me.

I had juss came back from my trip to Alaska. I will admit tht the flight back was cool we flew over a storm tht illuminated the night. Anyway i had juss came down to my friend Tashia's house. There i had gotten my 1st kiss tht made me feel whole. I thought things couldnt get any better....I was right instead things got worse. Her brain washing girl friend (shes bi) was moving in i tried to help Tashia reconsider letting her stay but Jazz threw some dramma to get Tashia's attention. And i havent heard her voice since the last days of July. As if tht wasnt bad enough all my friends tht actually understand me have moved to the carrer center and now im all alone. I also would listen to the Three Days Grace song "gone forever" (which im listening to as i type through my tears)and told myself tht thts what my friends really want to say. Tashia is my heart i treasure closly. There's one line i follow from the movie The Pursuit of Happiness is to not let anyone tell me tht i cant do it. Everyone juss says find a new girl but still no girl makes me feel as complete as Tashia does. My own mom even told me "Chad you need to find a new girl if Tashia was actually pretty then it be a diffrent story." I had to stop myself from yeling "How dare you!!" at her. I wont give up on my happiness...

Thts all i can remember so as i said before anyone who reads this plz help me thank u.