Karinzukushi Tefumeku
Karinzukushi Shikutokuka Tefumeku.
http://cherrycherryboomboomladygaga.tumblr.com/post/876754246/chloroform-girl-freakishchild
^^
Karinzukushi Tefumeku
Karinzukushi Shikutokuka Tefumeku.
http://cherrycherryboomboomladygaga.tumblr.com/post/876754246/chloroform-girl-freakishchild
^^
Time: 1:43 PM
Listening to: Airplane by B.O.B Ft Haley Williams
Mood: Upset a bit.
Grrr...
I hate this really, Last night I was crying alot, I dont know I just lost it. Its hard to get by with crying and being me I realize that. Things are still haunting me from my past. Last night I guess something I did before haunted me, Actually I know it did... I think today before CJ calls and its dark... Im going to go outside and sit on my dogs dog house looking at the stars... It makes me treasure what I have... And makes me remember when I saw Leo the lion in the sky and when a shooting star went by, That thing... It made it better. Jess and I were talking when I saw it.. I like that... Something about Stars tells me not to take everything for granted, Take it as something precious, Because in a second it all could be wiped away from me.
Right now Im staring at the photo of the hair I want with all my heart.. I have birthday wishes, Yeah my birthday is next Friday... I'll be 14 at 4:13 PM. I believe... Yeah.. So happy early birthday to me. Happy Birthday to Zoey-Bear, I cant believe your birthday is my 1 year Anniversary with my boyfriend CJ... I think I could really use a break.
August 24th is when school starts.. Its going to be hell because I know its another year I have to pull through and battle everyone to stay where I am in life. It sometimes gets to you when you know you're alone. I have a feeling Im going to break in 8th grade.. Next would be 9th.. A horror in the making.. Highschool, being judged for being who your are not.
In other news like a year ago, My Toe is back to being Infected XD how strange its around the same time too. XDDDD Which bothers me.. Habits dont die like Poof. Which I guess I should get into a habit that around my birthday Im going to have a infected foot. Oh Sweet Jesus...
Birthday Wishes:
Have one thing go the way I want it to.
To Have at least one day with CJ..
get a haircut.
be who I want to be
Those are my wishes Simple & Sweet. None of them will come true I know... I dont know.
ANOREXIA:
You have dry skin.
You eat one meal.
You're very weak.
You hate yourself.
You starve yourself.
You have low self esteem.
You use laxatives.
You need to be more skinny.
People always say you're skinny, but you think you're fat. ( I think Im fat because Ive been called fat...)
People think you are too skinny.
Total: 6
ATTENTION DEFICIT HYPERACTIVE DISORDER:
Your mind is all over the place.
You are hyper most of the time.
You barely pay attention to anything.
You can't cooperate well.
You talk all the time.
You need attention 24/7.
Total: 2
BIPOLAR DISORDER:
You can act wild at times then the next day you are depressed.
You are very irritable. (sometimes)
You are antisocial. (Because People Scare me..)
You have very high self esteem sometimes.
You are abusing alcohol, drugs, or sex.
You have thought of or attempted suicide.
Total: 4
BULIMIA:
You throw up all of your food.
You throw it up even when you don't feel sick.
You have no control over how you eat. (Sorta, Like when I eat I dont pay attention to what I eat really.. Its just there and Im hungry)
You use laxatives.
You have overly exercised to where you almost fainted.
You always say you are fat, when you aren't.
People think you're way too skinny. (Sorta)
Total: 3
CONDUCT DISORDER:
You are a bully.
You threaten other people. (they are empty threats)
You often find yourself in fights. (Voicing fights)
You have used a weapon that could cause injury to others.
You are cruel to humans or animals.
You have raped or molested someone.
You destroyed property on purpose. (Sorta)
You always lie. (Sometimes)
You stay out all night.
You have/tried to run away from home.
Total: 6
DEPRESSION:
You are always sad. (Sorta)
You find no hope in your future.
You find no longer excitement over the activities you used to love.
You always find yourself around the house all day.
You have low self esteem.
Everything bad that happens is always your fault.
You always seem to be weak or have physical features hurt.
You are failing school.
You have thought of or attempted suicide.
You have/tried or attempted suicide.
Total: 8
OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE DISORDER:
You have daily rituals.
You have disturbing thoughts or thoughts you hate.
You have to do a certain thing until it feels right.
You have to keep things in a certain order.
You have harmed yourself.
You have to check some stuff over again.
Total: 5
POST-TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER:
You repeatedly have flashbacks of horrible moments or memories in your life.
You repeatedly have dreams of horrible moments or memories in your life.
You sometimes think the event will happen again.
You can be/are antisocial.
You have lost interest in the things you used to love.
You have not had a lot of sleep lately.
You worry about dying at a early age or dying at all.
You can have angry outbursts.
You act younger than your age.
Total: 7
SCHIZOPHRENIA:
You often have hallucinations.
You have strange, unusual dreams or thoughts.
You can be confused about reality and fantasy.
You think people are always staring or talking about you.
You have extreme anxiety or fearfulness.
You do not take care of your hygiene like you should.
You are very shy.
You often talk to yourself.
Total: 8
Depression, Post-Traumatic Stress and Schizophrenia.
O.O
A Deadly Combo....
XD
Lol, im kinda making up for not posting. 8D
*Ish Shot* Woot!
Im eating Chicken Tenders and quickly woofing it down. D8
Oh Snap, Almost choked on a tender! D8
My DS needs charged, CJ wanted to play Pokemon and we cant really together but I play mine around the time he does so it makes me feel like we're playing together.
Im wearing my Pokemon Shirt 8D
X3
Its a guys shirt. Oh Wells.
Our Cat gemini is laying in my bros desk. O:
And if my laptop isnt fixed, We have to spend 200$ on it D8
Well for 3.
