Mood: Happy but hurt.
Listening to: CheaterCheatBestFriendEater by NeverShoutNever
Time: 6:08 PM
Did you ever know that NeverShoutNever is A Idol? Hes a idol to me, God I want to meet him so bad and tell him he got me through the roughest time in my life and gave me such inspiration! I loves how much he inspires me.
My songs I write are basically sort of a mix of alot of different songs, But its all got the same feeling.
mmkay, I had to do homework, Ive gotten swamped. Thanks to American History, Ugh, And today I had science. Ugh, It sucks, I can guarantee I have homework again. I got too many books to carry now. @~@' Im pawning off some of my homework to my friend tomarrow, Hopefully She can give me the answer to the 14 on my math paper, help me label the god damn stuff on the map. If not Oh well I can get them all cleaned up and get it back.
Ugh I have a craving for Sugar Cookies, Im terribly hungry too, I want to eat till i pop maybe, Nah, I want to grow up. But sadly when I grow up to be older, Im going to be 4'11. Still. Which is like 2 inches shorter than 5 foot. Blech.
I think Im going to be insane, But I just read something on my boyfriends likes on Facebook.. ["Babe, Im pregnant" (Pushes down the stairs) "Not anymore!"> Ouch much? That'd hurt alot! D: He better not push me down the stairs! D< Oh I told my friend what movie CJ and Brandon were watching when they were talking to my little group. Lul. It was funny she looked at me disturbed and I started busting out in giggles. One Eyed Monster. LUL! Do not look that up.. >>' Its not the best but Im not going to stop you loves.
83
Also I think I really need to do something to stop people, not go through it. I got poked in the boob! DX by my ex-boyfriend. And basically got touched too much, kinda made me mad.
gotta go.
Bye Loves
I hate my grandparents. STRAIGHT AFTER A HOUR OR SO AFTER>
We Gave up my Cat Jinx, Our Calico Kitten. They said we could keep her.
THOSE ASSHOLES. I knew this was going to happen. FUCK ME SIDEWAYS.
I want to kill myself for being so stupid to allow them to play me and take away another thing I love. I HATE YOU SO GOD DAMN MUCH!
I want My damn Cat Back!! I WANT HER BACK!
SHES MY BABY AND ALWAYS WILL BE! SHES NOT GOING TO BE SOMEONE ELSES DAMN BABY!
SHES MINE MINE MINE!!! I WANT HER BACK!
I BETTER GET HER BACK!!!
I'll fucking stick a knife down my throat if that means I get that cat back. Will that help?? Can I? Hmm?
I WANT MY JINXY BACK!! MY CURSE AND MY CHARM!!!!!!!!!
*inraged and about to go into tears* THEY SHOULD HAVE KNOWN! THEY'RE ASSES! ASSES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANTED THAT DAMN CAT TO GIVE TO CJ!! BECAUSE HIS BROS DOG KILLED HIS FUCKING CALICO KITTEN!
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! I want that cat back. Just in a while.. I'll get her back.. Either threw threats or threw her making messes in their house. I want her back so bad.. I'll do anything.
My dog had to make me feel better, I held onto him crying, tears streaming down my face and he licked my face and nuzzled me in the back shoving me forward, making me Laugh.
I WANT MY CAT!! I WANT HER BACK! D<
Grrr...
When a little girl had a Palace, She thought she had everything, When truly she had only what she had built.
Shortly the Little girl grew into a Naive sweet Teenager, who built a palace of her own, building it up slowly as her parents had tore hers down that she had so many years ago. She built it better than the one she had, No Legos or Building Blocks, She met her King, Allowed him in the palace, disagrees because she can not believe all that she’s dreamed and that she has gotten it. Reality was never her
strong point, dreaming was always her past time, Now she truly sees that all that dreaming built her up to a even sweeter reality.
The girl always thought she was such a horrible princess and that she was the saddest that anyone would lay eyes on.. Now she knows the truth.
The King of her Palace, Convincing and brave, Walks her palace roaming freely, never far from her side, his heart racing fast with every step and a long red ribbon trails behind the girl, attached to the King, Little did she know it was a Ribbon of truth soul. Showing them that they were meant to be and forever soul mates…
Copyrighted to Amber Renea.
Or Formally Amber Dyke.
Do not steal this! It means alot to me.
I do plan to read this story to my children! D<
What is his name?
Christopher, But he goes by CJ
How old is he?
15 turning 16 in December
Height?
6 foot last time I heard
Eye Color?
Hazel, At least it looks hazel to him, it’s a mix of browns in my eyes, Soo Pretty!
Hair Color?
A Light Brown, Sort of like my hair in the sun, But my hair is really Auburn, but his isn’t.
Is he pretty?
Yup
Is he cute?
Yes, even though some of my friends think he isn’t, I shall bite you guys! XD
Is he funny?
Oh yes
Is he unique?
Yes, He’s almost exactly like me, only taller, lighter hair and brown eyes. @~@
How long have you been going out?
A year and 26 days, Woo!
Do you love him?
Of Course
Who said I love you first?
Uhh.. I think he did when I was upset and I was so embarrassed and turned so red and my heart skipped beats and butterflies flutter throughout all my tummy
How long do you plan on being with him?
For a very long time…
Would you steal or lie for him?
He wouldn’t let me do that even if it was for him. He’d refuse it, but I would steal if it came up for him.
Would you stand up for him?
Of Course. What’s a Guardian Angel if they don’t protect the people they love??
Would you protect him even if they were at fault?
It depends on what it was I guess…
If some one touched him in the wrong way what would you do?
Epic Death Glare, Start a fight and threaten them, And tell them get the fuck off my Lover, Go get your own play toy! This ones Mine!! AND I DON’T SHARE! So Eff off! Mmkay? Mmkay!
Do you trust him?
Of course!
Whats your favorite thing about him?
Oh theres so much that’s my Favorite about him! Just everything about him is amazing…
Whats his favorite music?
He pretty much only listens to Metal and anything I give him to listen to, Like I gave him Waking the demon by Bullet for my Valentine, he adores the song ^w^ At least I think.
Whats his favorite food?
Uhm.. I’d have to say his Mamaws Sugar Cookies.
Would you stop doing something for them?
Probably depends? Uhm basically anything that harms him is not good. I could careless about myself.
Is he a jealous person?
a little, but he normally hides that fact.
How often do you think of them?
Every second basically.
Have you sang for them?
Quite a bit, He stops everything hes doing to listen and yells at people to be quiet, Then he says It almost made him fall asleep xD
Would you let some one or something keep you from seeing him?
I don’t let that happen most of the time, My family wont let me go and Im sort of pissed about that.
Does he call you every day?
Yes unless its too late when I get home or hes on the comp that day <3 <3
Do he smoke?
Nope!
Name one thing you would change about him?
I’d make him my neighbor so I could come over daily and tease him and squeal when he tries to hug me and run. I realize that seems quite adorable… Damn I wish that’d happen
Has he changed you?
Actually yes, I’m not a heart breaking, Cheat like I used to be and I actually know what Love is.
When was the last time you saw him?
Uhm… I never have really seen him other than Pictures..
Does he go to your school or work with you?
No sadly..
Would you love him no matter what?
Of course, I always will, I never stop loving a person really, Once you love you never fully cut the ribbons that tie you to the person, I burned my ribbons with everyone else and kept them all to CJ.
What would make you break up with him?
Actually I don’t even plan to break up with him ever Again…It would have to be him breaking up with me.
Have you seen him cry?
I havent seen him cry but I’ve heard him cry, It made me so sad that I teared up. Anything else he does that makes me upset makes me cry. People say I cry when I get upset and when someone picks on me or I am nervous, Mostly my stomach tells me that stuff and sometimes you’ll get me on a day that I just break down crying.
Has he bitten you?
No, Haha hes not a biter, Im the biter but hes so far, I cant lay claim yet. XDD
Does he hate you?
Of course not! D:
Does he trust you?
Yes which makes me happy, He trusts me more than anyone else.
Does he let you touch him?
If he lived near me yeah, but otherwise no. because hes so far.
Is he dedicated to you?
Of course, and I am dedicated to him, I drop all plans a day for him if I made any weeks in advance. Even though he says not to.
Is he some one you want to be with for a long time?
Yes! Yes!
How long have you known him?
Since July last year, around the time I went on Vacation. Little did I know I fell in love with him in July and we waited till August then it just happened.
Why did you choose him?
I felt a pull towards him, He just was so different something told me to go with him, I ended up loving him and he was just someone that made me feel so happy, Light as rain and very very special
What would be the perfect date with him?
Anything he chooses mostly. I could careless
Have you met his parents?
Uhm no sadly, his dad doesn’t like me though, his mom doesn’t really care I don’t think..
Has he met your parents?
No, but gets teased daily by my Grandparents, he’d have to go through them first then work up to my mum and Dad, My grandparents love him I think.
Do your best friends like him?
Yes
Listening to: Doggy Style by DJ Aligator
Mood: Bored
Time: 3:45 PM Now its 4:14 PM xD
Today in second period I got my Math teacher to agree to call me Amber Renea, Or just Renea instead of Dyke, or Amber Dyke. Oh that made me soo happy, I can say hes probably going to be my Favorite Teacher. Hes so nice.
He told us we couldnt fail his class, but he'd push us to our limits and beyond. He said for homework all we had to do is Try, Attempt and finish it no matter if it was All Wrong we tried our best and gave it a try, He'd always give us a Hundred, Which made me so Happy again and I was all Happy Bubbly into Science, Which I was Bubbly in and we got to Draw so that made me even more happier. Thank god Mr. MM knew what I was going through, Such a nice Teacher ^w^
And I just went to fix me a Salami Sandwhich, Yum!
And tried to screw the top bun onto the mayo jar @~@
Anyways better scat now!
Love you all!
