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And to be clear, here are the couples I write for: Ichigo and Rukia (Bleach), Momo and Toshiro (Bleach), Uryuu and Orahime (Bleach), Youraweichie and Kiuske (Bleach), Kagome and Inuyasha (Inuyasha), Sango and Miroku (Inuyasha), Ayame and Koga (Inuyasha), Kagura and Seshomaru (Inuyasha), Seya and Haji (Blood), Winry and Edward (Full Metal Alchemist), Roy and Riza (Full Metal Alchemist), Naruto and Hinata (Naruto), Sakura and Sauske (Naruto), Rachel and Jimmy (Case Closed), Harly and Katie (Case Closed), Ren and Kyoko (Skip Beat!), Kenta and Karin (Chibi Vampire/Karin) Maki and Winner (Karin),
- Created By AsagiTaichou
Being Selfish
He had no clue how this had happened, he barely remembered how it even started, he had said something to her, he didn't remember wat, and she had said, "Oh? Then maybe I should just go ahead and end it all hm?" she had even LAUGHED about it! Ichigo could honestly say that he had never been so mad at her in his life, "How can you say something like that?" he wispered, "Ichigo, don't you understand? I deserve to die, I shouldn't-" "Stop being so selfish!" he finally shouted, he just couldn't take anymore of this, he was just so mad, at Rukia? No, not really at her, just mad at the world, at every power that had ever put such thoughts in her head, she should never think such things, she should never doubt her right to life, her reason to live, her right to be happy, he wished that he could erase her life and let her sart over, let her start all over with her eyes being as blind as every other child's should be, not seeing all this blood and death and famine and war and everything else that had hurt her, erase every harsh word every person that ever hurt her, just erase it all, every little bit, she shouldn't have to live the way she had lived, not someone like her, and he would never tell anyone, but sometimes, wen she looks at him, he just aches, because her eyes could look so tired and so wise beyond their years, so tired and hurt and in danger, he hated it wen she looked at him that way, but now was not such a look, he watched the anger flare up in her eyes, and her teeth gritted slightly, "Selfish? SELFISH?! I-" she paused, in a moment of anger she had started to let her tounge slip, "Yes?" he smirked, her eyes trembled with fear, he hated seeing that, but he had to keep his cool, this was NOT an argument that he could loose, and he was about to win the moment she finished that sentence, "I, I have nothing else to say," she wispered, she had never had to look down in shame or secrecy before, but she wouldn't look at him now, if she did, she new that she would be locked under his gaze, "Yes you do, you're suicidal, you no that and so do I, and you were about to say it too," he had learned through his days as a Soul Reaper that sometimes, he had to act cold as stone, he had never used that trick untill now, and he hated it, "I have my reasons," she wispered, the anger in him just kept riseing, "You realize don't you, that I'm nothing, absolutely nothing, espically compared to you," he pushed the anger down, he had a new way of winning, his eyes seemed to smile with him, "If that were true, then I couldn't do this," he said, and that's wen the impossible happened, the barriers broke down and his lips met her's, only a slight struggle emitted from the small woman before she allowed him to kiss her, he was mad, but his kiss didn't show any such emotion, only passion and desiere and love, and it surprised her, but he was such a gentle, soft kisser, and after a short time they had to part for breath, "Can't," she wispered, looking guilty and sad, his hands engulfed her's, "Yes, we can," he promised, "No we can't!" She protested, slideing away from him and swinging her legs over the side of the bed, "Why? Why can't we be together?" he asked her, she didn't even glance his way, "Is it because of Soul Society? Do you think I care about wat they think?! If I have to I'll take you away, I'll kill 'em all, I'll do watever I have to as long as-" "Stop it!" She finally shouted, "It's not Soul Society! It's not you! It's not anything! It's me," she wispered, "I don't deserve you, I don't deserve happiness, or love, and espiically not you, I'm nothing but a selfish murderer, I've already done too much to you," with that he grabbed her rists, pinning her to the bed, "I-Ichigo?" she wispered, "Stop being so selfish," he wispered, before kissing her forcefully, this time his anger was visable in his kiss, he made his purpose clear as he abused her lips with his own, it was the sweetest torture,
Rukia loved this, even wen he was mad at her, his kisses were still so soft and gentle, and she could just sink into him, but she couldn't, she wanted him, she wanted him for so long now, been in love with him for so long now, but she couldn't, she just couldn't keep being selfish, she peeked her eyes open slightly, just enough to see down his t-shirt, looking at the dozens of scars that littered his chest, and that's wen she noticed it, the skin on his hands was so much rougher than his lips, wich incedently, tasted quite a bit like strawberry lip bomb, but she couldn't concentrate on that now, it was all her fault, the scars were her fault, the pain was her fault, the hate was her fault, it was all her fault, but she wanted to be with him so badly, the confussion,she could honestly say, was the most painfull thing she had ever experinced
Ichigo hadn't noticed untill she started hypervenalateing, but she was sobbing uncontrollably, he immediatly sprang up, she hadn't noticed, she was still crying and unaware of the world around her, and that's wen it hit him, it was something that he had done, he had hurt her, he had hurt her pretty badly too, "I'm sorry," he wispered, stareing in pain at the petite woman laying next to him, crying her eyes out, her chest heaving with every short, smuthered breath, "I'm so sorry!" He shouted, and that's wen she awoke from her state, she opened her eyes to see Ichigo looking guilty and unbareable, immediatly, her other emotions were pushed down by her riseing confusssion, her breath steadied and her tears stopped, "Ichigo? Why are YOU apoligizeing?" she asked, "I'm so sorry, I really didn't no I was hurting you, I didn't mean to I swear, I'm so, so sorry, I'll never hurt you like that ever again," he promised, but Rukia still didn't understand why he thought that this was HIS fault, "Hurt me? You didn't hurt me," she replied simply, "Then why were you crying like that?" she looked away, "It IS my fault," he wispered, "No it isn't!" She shouted, "Then why won't you tell me?! Wen you start crying in the middle of a kiss and then won't talk to me, wat am I supposed to think?!" he yelled, "It's all my fault," she wispered, "Those scars, they're my fault, all the pain, my fault," "But you-" "Shut up! Let me talk already!" he stopped, stareing at her intently, "I didn't even give you a choice wen I did that to you, I shouldn't have turned you into a Soul Reaper, those scars, no one should ever have that many, they shouldn't be that deep either, no human, no Soul Reaper, even Renji and my brother don't have that many scars, I'm just so sorry, I should've thought about how this would ruin your future, I mean, these scars will never disapear, wat are you going to tell your children wen they ask about them?!" "Rukia you don't GET IT!" He shouted, "I had every choice in the world to say no! Get it?! I didn't have to take your powers that night, I didn't have to go after you, I didn't have to get my powers back, I didn't have to save you," he grinned, gently pushing her down onto the bed, wrapping his arms under her tiny back, and wispering in her ear, "But I did, you no why?" she shook her head, unable to speak, "Because I wanted to, just like I want to be with you, just like I love you," she shoook her head, "I don't deserve this! I don't deserve to be loved! Or to be happy! Just because I love you dosen't mean that I deserve you!" Ichigo rolled his eyes, "You silly, silly girl, you just don't no wen to shut up, don't you get it yet? I don't want your opinion, I don't care that you think you deserve to die, but most importantly, I DO care about YOU, I want YOU, I love YOU, and my dear, as long as you love me, I'm not letting you go, so you can just forget about this self-hate crap, because it's just meaningless," he wispered, "Although, you DID give me an awfull lot of trouble, you should be punished for that," he wispered, gently nipping her ear, she shreiked quietly, Ichigo grinned, getting up, "You no, .. that's how they repremand dogs," it took a moment before Rukia realized that she had been insulted, and she immediatly yelled, "Wa- who are you to compare me to a dog?! I mean geez! YOU wear lipstick!" "It isn't lipstick Moron! It's chap stick! There's a huge diffrence!" "Sure, Miss Strawberry Lips," Ichigo laughed, admittedly that was pretty clever, he shook his head, laying beside her, "Go to sleep you idiot, it's getting late," she closed her eyes and felt Ichigo pull her next to him, "And by the way, to answer your question, wen my kids ask about these scars, I'll tell them that I got these, because I wanted to rescue their mommy, and that I don't regret anything," Rukia grinned, "Now who's being selfish?" she mocked, "No," he said simply, "That's still you,"
Into The Sunshine
NOTE: Orahime's POV
I offered him my umbrella,
But the rain had already stopped,
I looked at the wman in front of me,
And she smiled and made the rain stop,
Just like that,
He smiled too,
But not the way he smiles at me,
The concern in his eyes for her is something I can't have,
The comfort she gives him is beyond freindship,
She opened her doors for him,
Just like I ounce did,
But this time he went inside,
And opened his doors for her,
I stood in the rain with my umbrella,
Watching the sun shine on both of them,
Watching the down pour inflicted on me,
And then,
Without my noticeing,
My rain stopped,
I was there in a pool of sunshine,
HE made it stop,
And he didn't need an umbrella either,
Because apparently,
I made his rain stop too,
And the four of us walked together,
Away from the rain,
And into the sunshine
Love, Pain, And Desiere
It hurt, her chest hurt, no, it wasn't her chest, it was her heart, "My heart is dying in an untimely manner," she wrote, continuing her sad song titled "Wind", she leaned back, her head nearly hit the back of the wall, she looked down at her unfinished fare well letter, she put her pencil back on the papper, her heart pounded faster and more painfully, as if telling her to stop, to not do this, to for ounce in her painfull life, let something happen, and not fight against it, a long sigh slipped from her lips, he woundered if he would try to come for her? Her life was in no danger, part of her wanted to leave that letter, and walk away slowly, just so he could come after her and yell at her for being stupid and running away, she wanted to see the concern in his eyes, she shook the thought from her head, she was being stupid and selfish, she wanted to finish the letter, but her hand just wouldn't move to write, she looked at her watch, 'I'll finish this later,' she thought, and stuffed the letter on the top shelf, she hated being a burden, hated needing to be protected, she tilted her head to the side, thinking about wat she should do, then she tilted her head forward, her eyes were filled with tears, waiting to escape, she shok her head, stepping out of the closet, "Hey," she heard, looking at the man infront of her, "I'm going to go for a walk," she said, jumping out the window, hoping to clear her head, Ichigo looked at the closet, "She forgot to shut the door again," he said to himself, he steped in for a moment to see how hard it was to shut the door from the inside so he could yell at her later, he shutit, the shelf rattled, he opened the door, "Hm? Wat's this?" he picked up a peice of papper with a bunny in the corner, he rolled his eyes as he read, "Ichigo, I can no longer be a burden to you, you deserve to have a normal life, not a ruined one, I'm sorry, don't come after me, I just," that's were the letter stopped, he ripped it to shreds, 'She's leaving?!' he thought, he wanted to stop her befre she did, 'But not now, because she didn't finish the letter,' he watched the shreds fall to the floor, and onto the stain, that stupid stain that would never come out, and it was all because of her! He remembered well how that stain got there, they were fighting as usual, over the dumbest thing he could have immanged, it had been a year now and Rukia still couldn't put a straw in a juice box, she wasn't that ditzy, she just had other things on her mind, and apparently Soul Reapers aren't used to poking with anything other than their swords, well, she was trying, he was going to do it, but then thought that she's never learn so he made her do it, BIG mistake, she accedentily ripped the box and juice went everywere, he remembered her licking the bac of her rist were some juice had gotten, "Sure is sticky," she mumbled between licks, "Idiot! Don't lick it!" "But it tastes good," he laughed to himself, he had always been so devistaed about his carpet that he never noticed her child like response, how could he let her go?
She sat there on the hill, staring at her cut arm, she looked at the one on her other arm and on her legs, she felt the dirt on her face and hands, she pulled her dress down as far as it would go, still not covering up the marks, 'Wat will I tell him? It's things like this that make me a burden, I was so deep in thought that I tripped and rolled down the hill, maybe if I clean off the dirt a little, h won't notice? No, he's not that stupid, right?' "Hey," she shot up, it was him, "Wat?! Wat happened?!" "Wat are you doing here?" "No! You answer first! And wat's with that stupid letter?!" she wouldn't answer, "Answer me!" she turned around, "I'm taking you home," 'Home' "Were?" "Home!" she sort f half smiled, so were ever he took her was home, she understood, "But first we're going to Orahime's, and on the way you're tallin' me wat happened!" after a few minutes of walking, he said, "Tell me Rukia," "Why shoud I?!" "Because you may be stubborn, but sooner or later I will find out, and because the more you don't tell me the more I wanna no," "Fine, I tripped and fell down the hill, happy?" "No, wat's with the letter?" "I was really depressed last night," "Maybe, tel me the hole truth," "That IS the hole truth!" "Nope!" They arrived at Orahime's door and read the sighn, "Out shopping for Soul Society clothes, will return wen suitable dress is found," Ichigo hung his head, "That could take all day, women shop like there's no tommorrow," "Well one day there won't be!" he glanced down at Rukia and dragged her back home
"Geez!" "Wat?" "You sure injure easy!" "Wat's that supposed to mean?!" "Well, if I had fallen down that hill I would've gotten one, maybe two, small cuts, but you! Man your cut all over! You bruise like a peach!" "Don't you mean strawberry, Strawberry?" "Oh shut up!" he walked out of the room, Rukia layed on her back, her bdy hurt, so did her heart, she tried to ignore the pain by thinking about a memory, she remembered wen they had gotten home, "First aid treatment? I don't need it!" she had said, "Yes you do! If you wait for Orahime things will get worse!" "I don't care, I'm ok," "Oh, alright then," Ichigo had presed on one of her injuries, she fell over and moaned in pain, "Are you still ok?" "Shut up," she laughed to herself, wat a fool she could be, why did she always want to push him away? Was she always that afraid? Why couldn't she just admit it? She shook her head, she new wat she was going to do, wat she had to do, she heard the door creak open, "Wat are you smilen' at?" he asked roughly, she only smiled more
Her lip trembled, she was scared, she was worried, and she was hurting, she had to do it, she had no choice, she took in a deep breath, and climbed into Ichigo's bed, he turned over, "Wat are you doing?" "Just shut up," "Hey, are you ok? I mean, is everything alright?" "I'm fine Ichigo," "Is that so? Then get outta my bed!" "No!" "Why not?!" "Because, well, uh, I'm having nghtmares?" "Oh, well, I'll let you stay in my bed, wen you come up with a more convincing answer!!" "Isn't it possible that I just want to be around you?" "Sure, if you have amnesia, or were hit by a car, or have a high fever!" "Look, not that you deserve to no or anything, but I just wanted to be next to you," "Ok, now I'm worried, did you hit your head or something?" "Just forget it," she got up and started walking towards the closet, but she felt a strong tug on her arm, "No, I mean, you just usually don't act like this, are you sure you're ok?" she got back in the bed, "I just wanted to stop being a burden, stop being a weight on your shoulders," "You aren't anything like that Rukia, you're the best person to enter my life since, since my brother died," "Ichigo, I-" He silenced her, pressing his lips against hers, Rukia didn't expect this, but least of all that he was such a light kisser, "Rukia, don't say anything else, ok? Theres only one thing, just tell me that you love me, and nothing more," "I love you, but-" "No," he pressed his finger against her lips, "Nothing more, I love you, and I only want to no that you love me as well," Rukia smiled against his finger, nodded lightly and kissed him again, before sleep entered their minds, all their pain was gone, all the love was here, and all their desiere was filled, THE END
